Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.
honeymoon phase come back i miss u
i hate eating like a normal person
Heading to the bathroom to weigh myself first thing every morning like it’s Christmas
All I need is -5kg
Is it too much to ask for??
I have a very exciting new discovery! Dance workouts! It might seem silly but they're actually making working out and burning calories fun and less torturous. I can burn 200 calories in less than an hour. They work much better than jogging in place. So very proud of that one, although... I did go over my 500 kcal limit today by a landslide, but I burned off all the excess!
P.S. Do you guys have any tips for any upcoming events? I have a party coming up tomorrow and a celebration the next day and I have not prepared at all. Should I try to adjust my kcals or just not focus on the food at all/avoid them?
literally hunger does such weird stuff to a person because I literally hate the chicken we have for dinner all the time so usually it's easy to skip it but lately I'm like "dammm that sounds so good rn" because it's been so long since I've had meat 💀
Oh honey... Did you forget? You're in control. Don't you want to see the number drop? Don't you want to feel your bones sticking out? Don't you want to be proud of yourself? Don't you want to get closer to your goal? Don't you want to be perfect?
Literally what happened to me just yesterday... ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა
i won’t weight myself in a few days, considering i fucked up today and had like 3x more than what i had planned, at least i know why that happened, i need to fast as much as i can and have a late lunch, instead of eating all my calories at 11 am, also i need to keep myself busy during the weekend but try to restrict as much as possible during the week just in case
quick reminder: take your vitamins ✨