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alright, so i’m a little obsessed with this show... the music? all absolute bops. the characters and plot? super well put together.

but this song specifically has got me thinking about life. how am i living mine?

i’ve always been the kid that follows the rules. i didn’t step out of line, and if i did, i always felt guilty about it. the last few months, i’ve stepped out of my comfort zone. i started living like it’s now or ever. driving down back roads with friends while screaming one direction lyrics at the top of my lungs? did that... even took a crazy trip down this street called “rollercoaster road” (loved it, by the way). yelled “this is my world” out of car windows too many times to count. talked to people i wouldn’t have had the courage to in march, and created powerpoints that were so beyond strange to share with everyone i know.

we’re only given one opportunity to live this life (unless you believe in reincarnation, but even then i’m not sure that you reincarnate as yourself. you’re a new person or animal or object i think, but if i’m wrong, please tell me nicely. i’d love to learn.), so we should start living like it’s now or never.

live the life you would if you were the main character in a book or tv show. write your own story. take risks. be even more extraordinary than you already are.

if you want to, i’d love to know what you’d do if you were the main character in a novel. tell me in a direct message or a comment, even repost if you have the desire!

remember, live your life boldly and intentionally

xx,

lil

when you think about it, courage is kind of a wild concept. by definition, it means the ability to do something that frightens you; strength in the midst of pain or grief. honestly, it just seems like a massive contradiction. how can someone be brave enough to do what scares them, you know?

i have a really hard time being courageous. it’s so much easier to put on a brave face and avoid all the bad things, but nobody can be brave forever. we all have things that break us. they creep into our lives and take small pieces until there’s not much left.

that’s why courage is so necessary, even if it seems insane. we have to be able to face and overcome our demons. i know that that’s absolutely terrifying, i do, which is why everyone needs to find their courage.

not everyone draws strength from the same place. some people get courage from their friends, family members, books, even tv shows and movies can empower people.

everyone deserves to find their source of courage.

alright. today was not really my day. nothing bad happened, my brain was just working so hard to make me feel bad. lately, i’ve felt super isolated, literally and metaphorically.

the people in my town that were my friends in march don’t really talk to me anymore. all of the people i consider my close friends live hours away from me, and sometimes a facetime call just doesn’t cut it.

i feel like i’m doing so many things wrong, but i’m not. there’s nothing happening right now for me to be in the wrong, but sometimes it’s like, by merely existing, i’m missing the mark. nothing i do will cut it.

now, i know i’m not the only person going through this. we all feel lost and alone at times, but that’s the thing.

I’M NOT THE ONLY PERSON GOING THROUGH THIS.

therefore, i’m already no longer alone. chances are, if you’re feeling how i’m feeling, you haven’t done anything wrong either.

the way other people act towards you doesn’t necessarily reflect on who you are. you could be the kindest person known to man and somebody would find a way to put you down. what you have to remember is this: you are more.

you are more than the choices you’ve made. you are more than that feeling in the bottom of your stomach tells you are. you are not a mistake. you are not unwanted. you are not alone.

i think we could all benefit from remembering that...

song no. 6

the music video is super cool, the song itself is awesome. it kind of feels like freedom to me, you know?

song no. 5

i really like this song. there isn’t really any good way to explain how it makes me feel, but there’s one thing that i think of every time i listen to it, and it’s the fact that they use the words “my lover” which is so incredibly beautiful. think of the person that you want to spend the rest of your life with... your lover. it’s just so wonderfully sentimental, and i think that it should be used more often.

song no. 4

an absolute bop. it’s one of those that you definitely dance around your room to. 5 gold stars.

song no. 3

remove the shoes, start a fire, and dance until your hearts content. also really fun to play loudly while driving with windows down.

song no. 2

this is road trip montage worthy. super upbeat vibe, a real summer bop.

song no. 1

this song is *chefs kiss* just sit and listen to it. kinda sad but entirely wonderful.