Lillyotf - I'm Sleepy

the world is a cruel harsh evil place *had to get out of bed*

almost died at the hands of the italian mob today

“i wasn't actually in love, but i felt a sort of tender curiosity.”

— 𝘍. 𝘚𝘤𝘰𝘵𝘵 𝘍𝘪𝘵𝘻𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘥.

Joseph Mallord William Turner

Yandere platonic uzui and his wives 🛐

Yes🛐🛐🛐

Look, whenever Tanjiro and the gang has to go on a mission for months, they drop you off in some Hashiras care. As much as it breaks Tanjiro's heart and Nezuko is full on sobbing at the thought of being apart from you, they both know you're safer with the slayers. Now, they usually drop you off with either the Ubuyashiki family or with Giyuu, but since they were busy, Uzui volunteered vehemently to take you in.

Tanjiro agreed because he knew he couldn't trust Shinobu or the other Hashiras just yet, and Sanemi was big no from the start because he hurt both you and Nezuko (even though he's now head over heels in love with you now). And Uzui's wives would keep you company too.

And they're all great actually. Suma likes to latch onto you and ramble on and on about the dangers of the world and the multiple times she thought she was gonna die. Makio was intrigued by your demonic powers and would often challenge you to wrestling (she always won). And Hinatsuru was the quiet one and she just liked to sit and watch you eat her food. Uzui, for some reason liked to make you run in the woods while he chased you, promising to let you go if you can beat him- obviously, you can't. Often times you would pass out because of your weak body and low stamina, and Uzui would carry you all the way back home, smiling and whispering little praises in your ear. The wives would always be worried when Uzui brought back your unconscious body, Suma even scolding him with tears in her eyes, for making you exhausted. You would wake up in between them, all cuddled up and wrapped up in blankets- no, you're not allowed to leave the bed unless they say so. They don't care if you're over heating.

It was all good in the beginning but then it started to get... uncomfortable. The thing is, they don't know what personal space is. Like Suma is trying to be with you every second of every day. You still haven't forgiven her for breaking the bathroom door to be with you (fortunately, Uzui told her to stop.)

Mako loves play fighting with you (and you can't say no unless you're sick), but then every single time she wants to check you all over for bruises and injuries, continuing to mock you for being so careless and weak all while she expertly applies ointment on your paper cut.

Hinatsuru, who you believed to be the most normal one of them all, was perhaps the clingiest one of them all. She's so strong and you can't fight her when she drags you to the bath to wash your hair- which she has a weird obsession with. Every single morning she forces you between her legs to do your hair and every single night, she brushes your hair before bed. Not to mention the creepy staring with a smile is getting to you now.

Uzui was acting abnormally too. He liked to call you infantalising names and treated you like a baby. One time during his training, you had managed to climb a tree and Uzui stood down there with his arms wide open and told you to jump into his arms. You looked at him weirdly before beginning to climb down the tree, only to be startled halfway to death as he screamed at you to not move. Then in a flash, he was climbing onto the tree, grabbed you and then jumped back down. He rubbed your back and kissed your hair, telling you that "it must've been scary for you up there, wasn't it princess? Of course, it was. All alone above so high."

The whole lot of them liked to dress you up. Oh yes, Uzui would give you his jewellery and he enjoyed pauntubgvyour nails the same colour as his. The girls would make you wear traditional kimonos usually in pink colours with childish designs on them.

And when Uzui goes off to work in the morning, the wives all rush to dress you up and drag you to him before he leaves, just so that he could kiss your forehead and ruffle your hair, telling you to be a good kid and listen to your mamas.

Oh yes, Uzui, that weirdo, insisted on you calling him "Dad" and his wives "mama". You laughed at first, thinking he was kidding but then he gave you that stern look and you told him "no, its- that's weird. I'm not calling you that." Which then lead to Uzui locking you in the pitch black basement and he wouldn't let you out for a day until you broke down and sobbed "Dad- please! Mama- dad- I'm sorry! Please let me out! Please!" And then you were engulfed by them and carried back to their bed, which you thought was a one time thing, but it wasnt.

You only hoped you could either beat Uzui and gtfo there, or wait for Tanjiro and Nezuko to return soon and take you away from them.

more playlists for hyper-specific things :-)

“hi everyone! as you may know, my spotify is constantly booming with new playlists and i wanted to share more with you to help you start 2022 on the right foot! 

1. “but somewhere lost inside me there’ll always be the person i am tonight” is a quote from f. scott fitzgerald himself and also a playlist that I made for nighttime pondering. if you are stuck between studying and dissociating, watching the stars and pondering your life’s meaning, or anything in between, you’ll like this one :) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0gGnjtGs7VztONYhNk1lYH?si=c8fb3d25e92d4c32

2. “but you, unlike me, are a git.” - this playlist is yet again a drarry playlist, i fell back into their spell a little while ago and wanted to create an updated one with the way i felt while falling back into it https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0SGzrgukQKKThoTS1hsdZv?si=10b2bc5c67594b1a

3. “there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy”- a quote from the famous shakespeare and a great modern playlist for the play hamlet. i loved hamlet when i read it and it is kind of a reflection of how i felt reading it for the first time :-) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0GXsq2HXVeIjpXNfGUYM1b?si=b658fe03d5f7462c

4. “I see you loving on the sidelines” is a playlist i made for the transition from summer into fall, but hey, no issues listening to it now!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1rj7ClK2ThIgB6HAHrcuZ3?si=04d0a55120a44a89

5. “love is a million things” - for all of my euphoria lovers out there, this one is for you! It’s based off of the show and I am constantly adding to it because of the new season https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0nQ5Q8Uw54LiM8IKp6EnUs?si=68c9e60e2a1141cc

6. “nothing american dream about this place” is about the movie McFarland, USA on disney +, i fell in love with it when i watched it and thought i should keep that feeling https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0r1APWI112PeTzJB8JqFyr?si=6e3615097d9549a6

7. “i had simply failed to notice how extraordinary it was” is a playlist dedicated to the movie Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, which i watched the other day and fell in love with it all over again. here’s to reliving childhood! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7dtLmkUlpSrZGYBOJQNavC?si=941c856bdc544cbf

8. “you’re not lost, you’re redirecting” is a playlist i made for my friend who is going through a lot of feelings right now. if you feel like you’re about to explode into catharsis, this one is for you :-) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4gsvitdyARM0PKjarrsOo4?si=36b3d049296f4c50

9. this one is called “you’re outside a halloween party” because the aesthetic is being overwhelmed and sitting outside in the dark as the music bumps behind you in a faded tone. i created this in october, but any time of the year works for this!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6xbVMsLqiR51uJ9J8WKN00?si=8e6fdc54b3be4926

10. “and this is when the feeling sinks in” is yet ANOTHER drarry playlist, but it is based on some of the social media aus i’ve seen about them on this app. it’s a little more carefree and less hogwarts-ish. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6tbYNL482gRYOogWKATUYT?si=71f412886dbd4de2

those are my ten for right now, happy listening! 

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“I don’t know what living a balanced life feels like. When I am sad, I don’t cry, I pour. When I am happy, I don’t smile, I glow. When I am angry, I don’t yell, I burn. The good thing about feeling in extremes, is when I love, I give them wings. But perhaps that isn’t such a good thing, cause they always tend to leave and you should see me, when my heart is broken. I don’t grieve, I shatter.”

— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey

Benjamin Alire Sáenz, "To the Desert"

— Henry Miller, A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953