You Thought But This Isn’t What You Really Want

You thought but this isn’t what you really want

I thought this was the life I wanted, but here I am, waking up to the same old walls, and phone calls from unknown numbers.

I thought this was the life I wanted, going to a city that seemed like home, but it’s hard to call these people a friend of my own. it’s hard to fall for those whose intentions brings shivers down my spine, and a trigger in my mind.

I thought this was the life I wanted, that freedom I once craved, to live wild and free without the fears of my childhood. I believed this was the place I was meant to be, but along the way, I blended in with the crowd and became who they wanted me to be. This isn’t the life I wanted. The life I wanted was you and me, hearing the sound of your laugh, and waking up to your head rested on my chest, with my fingers running through your hair. The life I wanted was to be with you, the only one who made this mess feel alright, whose heart beat became my home.

—- Topaz Pantoja

July 22nd, 2018

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Just thinking of you make my heart beats so fast like a marathon

My heart always miss you

Want you , craving for you

Even if you around feel like

Not enough for him

That electric happen to him

When you beside me

Touch me , hear your voice

Or Catching you look at me

How is so weird that love for you

You in my mind all day everyday

My heart always ask about you

Want to be come one with yours

I hope all my prayers come true one day

I hope to complete each other

And be together my baby heart

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i magine if this was real