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DO ATOMS DECAY OVER TIME??

Blog# 196

Saturday, May 28th, 2022

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Although life on Earth may seem rather stable and unchanging—the tide goes in and out, the Sun rises and sets, and the months bleed on the same as always—in the grand scheme of things, our universe is actually a rather dynamic place.

Everyday, millions of stars are born and die, and in the end, the same thing will happen to our own Sun.

A few billion years from now, as our star begins to transition into a red giant, temperatures on our world will increase, and life will be extinguished.  Just a few billion years after that, once the Sun exhausts its supply of material to sustain nuclear fusion, it will begin its death throes. When this happens, it will cast off its outer layers and, eventually, fade into darkness.

Nothing in our universe is eternal…or is it?

Atoms are the building blocks of matter. They, quite literally, make our universe what it is. When we die, our bodies do not turn into nothing; rather, they are broken down into their constituent parts and recycled into the ecosystem. In short, our atoms go on long after we are gone.

But just how long can atoms last? Will they eventually be broken down into…nothing?

To answer this question, you need to understand a little bit about how atoms work. As you may know, atoms contain protons and neutrons, and they are surrounded by a “shell” of electrons. The number of electrons that are found in the cloud are equal to the number of protons. This helps create stability.

Ultimately, the number of protons is what determines the atomic number. For example, helium has two protons, so its atomic number is two (and it appears second on the periodic table of elements). The number of neutrons that are found in an atom are generally consistent, but not always. And if an atom doesn’t have the “correct” number of neutrons, sometimes, the atom may lose a neutron (kind of like how you lose a sock in the wash). When this happen, the atom becomes unstable and, in an attempt to become a stable atom, it shoots off subatomic particles. Most often, the atom will shoot off an electron.]

This is how atoms breakdown.

Anytime that you have a heavy atom, there is some risk that it will spontaneously start to break down into smaller particles. This is known as “radioactive decay.” This is just a very basic breakdown. Please see the link for more on radioactive decay.

To return to the point at hand, unfortunately, this is a stochastic process (which means that it has “a random probability distribution, or pattern that may be analyzed statistically, but may not be predicted precisely”). In other words, we can’t pinpoint exactly when a breakdown will occur - when a subatomic particle will be shot off; however, since we can analyze the pattern, we can determine how many atoms will decay over an average time, which is called the “half-life,” and it is a very reliable estimate.

Since an atom has a finite number of protons and neutrons, it will generally emit particles until it gets to a point where its half-life is so long, it is effectively stable. For example, Bismuth-209 is believed to have the longest decay rate. It undergoes something known as “alpha decay,” and it’s half-life is over a billion times longer than the current estimated age of the universe.

Originally published on futurism.com

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THIS quarantine has only worsen my daydreaming

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Daydreaming: Maladaptive VS Immersive

Note: I am not a health/psychology professional by any means; this is simply a list I've put together from my own understanding and experiences on the topic, based upon various readings/research I found online. I hope it may be helpful/informative to read regardless, feel free to add on or correct this!

Maladaptive Daydreaming:

Excessive daydreaming; becoming absorbed in and fixated on daydream events, scenes, characters, or worlds.

Used as a form of escapism, often to avoid dealing with real-life situations (traumatic, unpleasant, or otherwise).

More interested and/or focused on the daydream/inner world than the real world, or on daydream relationships rather than real-life ones.

Difficulty or inability to stop daydreaming, even when real-life tasks need to be done.

An excessive/large amount of time is spent daydreaming, instead of being fully present in real-life events.

A desire to be like the idealized, daydream version of themself or their characters (/feeling inadequate with self in reality).

May feel a loss of control over daydreams, or when/where daydreaming occurs.

Some describe maladaptive daydreaming as an "addiction to daydreaming".

Many feel embarrassed or ashamed of (the extent of) their daydreaming.

Some individuals experience maladaptive daydreaming as a form of dissociation.

Often occurs in individuals with ADHD, depression, anxiety disorders, PTSD, and those who have experienced significant stress, abuse, and/or trauma.

Though the daydreams themselves may be enjoyable/pleasant/comforting, the lack of control and difficulty focusing on reality causes distress to the daydreamer.

If this daydreaming causes significant impairment in daily life and regular distress to the individual, they may have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder (MaDD).

Immersive Daydreaming:

Simillar to maladaptive daydreaming, but instead, is a more positive way of coping.

The individual is present in real-life relationships, and in their own plans for the future.

Able to stop daydreaming when real-life tasks need to be attended to. Has a solid sense of control over their daydreaming.

Uses daydreaming as a healthy coping mechanism for dealing with stress/trauma/illness/conflict etc, rather than using it to avoid these situations.

BOTH Maladaptive and Immersive Daydreamers (May) Experience:

Very vivid, often extensively detailed daydreams. (Can be visual, auditory, or a mixture of sensory events.)

Feeling the emotions or sensations that are happening in the daydream through the body, as if they were really happening.

Strong attachments or connections to daydream characters (often called "paras").

Presence of an inner world(s)/universe(s), where daydream events take place ("paracosm", "dreamverse").

A sense of "autonomy" regarding character interaction, and/or being "influenced" by their characters.

Repetitive physical activity while daydreaming (pacing, tapping, rocking, etc.)

Speaking daydream dialogue aloud, and/or physically emoting facial expressions while daydreaming.

Real life events triggering daydreams (music, and other media are common daydream triggers.)

"You're so creative!", "You've got an overactive imagination."

* Someone can experience both Maladaptive and Immersive Daydreaming within their lifetime/during different times in their lives!

Immersive daydreaming may become maladaptive if it starts getting out of hand (perhaps after a stressful/traumatic event, or the onset of another disorder). Maladaptive daydreaming can be turned into immersive daydreaming (to cope, or to de-stress), with the help of therapy.

(Thank you for reading! 💌)

youtube is pulling this bullshit again

praying for the firefox gods to save me once more...

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You don’t get it, I want to kill myself because I know I’ll feel this pain for the rest of my life. It will not pass. I don’t want to live like this. Why should I live and what for. It’s not worth it. And I know that I do not have the strength to fight it every single day. That is not living, that’s torture