I Woke Up In A Cold Sweat..,,,, Gnod Told Me To Make Thjs

hanya yanagihara lives in my head. she just gets it, and people don't like what she says because she doesn't sugarcoat things, she tell stories of tragic lives and unspeakable lives. People want and need to have an optimistic sight of life when that's not always the case. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you work on yourself and how much you hope and how much you try, things that happened to you can't be heal or forget and the best you can do it's trying to live with it the best way you can, to accommodate the life that's left.

Things don't magically get better.

Do you ever wonder if Jude's aversion to having his photo taken wasn't just because of self-consciousness but rather because of how the clients would take humilating photos/videos of him?

i'm definitely totally normal about jude st. francis

cried about Jude St. Francis today will probably cry about him tomorrow

it’s like have you ever heard of real life before. so many people kill themselves, and the fact that the book isn’t wrapped up in a neat little bow of beginning, conflict and resolution like most books does not mean jude is bad representation. it demonstrates an anti brain function ideology that actually makes me go crazy… say you didn’t like it because you want everyone to be happy ever after! guess what! suicide doesn’t make sense, and thousands of people never get a happy ever after.

people in the a little life tag being like "jude st francis is bad representation because there is no moral resolution for his trauma" i am BEGGING you to shut the fuck up

i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always me i was always

- a little life

dear god this book. this book is. i'm consuming it like i did with books back in third grade, back when life was just beginning to crumble and i was going down with it, back before i knew just how bad it could get. i'm devouring this book and it is so painful. it's speaking to me and it's making me cry.

so i DID just have to stifle a scream whilst crying about willems last thoughts. i feel sick 😆

x = x, he thinks. x = x, x = x.

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i took this photo today whilst visiting Lispenard Street <3