Littlecigs - Out Of Body

I crave the sensation of another being next to me

Loving me, wanting me, breathing me

Why can't I have that?

…

Come find me🖤🔪😈🌙✨

I think I might start posting again. Probably just thoughts, not poems. Idk

Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.

it hurts so much more to be so aware of my behavior. it’s like i know i’m toxic rn and overly emotional. but when i mention it people won’t believe my illness anymore.

just because i’m aware doesn’t mean i can turn it off. if anything, it just makes me feel twice as bad about the thing happening and my reaction to it.