Whatever. WHATEVER.

Bernhard Schlink, The Reader (translated by Carol Brown Janeway)

from The Crown Ain’t Worth Much by Hanif Abdurraqib

When I was younger and researching the autism diagnosis criteria and symptoms, I thought “oh I couldn’t POSSIBLY be autistic.” Because when I read “takes everything literally” I thought it literally meant EVERYTHING and I was like “I don’t take EVERYTHING literally, just most things!” And I just realized the other day that it didn’t actually mean EVERYTHING and that was an overstatement.

24 things i learned in 2024:

Take myself out for coffee dates, no excuses needed.

Call out passive-aggressive behavior instead of brushing it off.

Wear the outfit that makes me feel powerful, even on random Tuesdays.

Find joy in deleting unnecessary messages and chats.

Learn to say “that’s not my responsibility” without feeling guilty.

Let my phone die sometimes—it’s okay not to be reachable.

Laugh out loud when something is actually funny, no holding back.

Create a playlist of songs that remind me who I am.

Spend a whole afternoon doing absolutely nothing, and love it.

Take compliments without adding “but.”

Tell someone when they inspire me, even if it feels awkward.

Choose solitude over shallow conversations.

Quit explaining why I need space—it’s just a need, not a negotiation.

Take the scenic route, even if it takes longer.

Start a quirky tradition just for myself (midnight pancakes? yes).

Smile at my reflection every time I catch it, even if it feels silly.

Trust the timing of my journey—everything will unfold exactly when it’s meant to.

Celebrate the smallest progress, because it all counts.

Keep my heart gentle, even when the world feels sharp.

Show kindness, but not at the cost of my own peace.

Say “no” and let it be a complete sentence.

Forgive—not to forget, but to free myself from carrying the weight.

Rest because I deserve it, not just because I’m burnt out.

Start over as many times as I need—there’s no shame in beginning again.

a compilation by @areeejtahir <3

hearts of darkness (1991) dir. eleanor coppola, george hickenlooper, fax bahr

people be like "you overthink a lot" yeahh bcs in the end that shi! turns out to be true?????

(person with normal hobbies and interests voice) hey do you guys wanna see some good screenshots from my screenshots folder

i think a lot of things that make me nauseous are due to undiagnosed neurospiciness and many of them have caused actual meltdowns I've violently repressed or hidden from others in an effort not to seem dramatic because i realize that my sudden "i can only eat plain white bread" or "i can only listen to this one song for 8 hours" or " i can only wear this shirt and these pants and that one pair of socks and that pair of shoes and there is one hair clip and only one that is allowed because it's the only one that keeps my hair up without being heavy or pulling it too hard" are not what most people experience, and the crazy thing is that i could go on forever about all these things. And then i tell other people and they say things like "i also have a favorite hair clip/outfit" like no you don't understand, i don't just prefer it, it's that or i will throw up, cry and pass away all at the same time because the texture of the fabric and the fit of the shirt against my skin and the color of it are familir and i know that I'm comfortable in it and it cannot be replaced and I've been spending months trying to psychologically prepair for the fact that i have to find a replacement and gathering all the energy required to go to stores and find one that could work (which is a lot of energy) because this one has holes in it and i will inevitably have to replace it and i don't want to not be prepared because what if it brakes at a bad time and then I'm imbarassed and it's a nightmare

anyway how's ur day going ahah