Do I Use Tumblr Or Do I Just Scroll Through My Fav Driver's Tag, Look At The First Five Posts On My Dash

no but like... the thing about pierre and charles knowing each other by heart... yeah. yeah.

like we've seen it mentioned that charles' dad used to bring gifts for pierre when he was on the podium in karting races, and that now pierre's parents promise charles has a family with them no matter what. they used to go on vacations together as kids and pierre used to basically live with charles when they were karting in the south of france and even as recent as 2019 they've mentioned trying to have a holiday together every year even since joining F1.

and how charles saw pierre suffering in 2019 but we still saw them supporting another seemingly every weekend when even other well respected drivers took opportunities to dunk on pierre's shortcomings. how charles' friendship and support didn't falter even when pierre got demoted despite everyone else treating that situation so cautiously. how in brazil he crashed out in a stupid and embarrassing incident but still showed up for pierre. made a post for him to congratulate him on his first podium even though he's never done the same for anyone else. and same in monza even though we know he hit the wall hard enough to need medical checks but he embraced pierre hard enough to push him back a little. how in baku he sped up in his cooldown lap to wave at pierre and nearly ran through parc ferme to congratulate him even though he himself just lost out on that podium.

and then there's the way they interact. pierre saying "in 8 years, teammates again?" to charles bringing up their karting days. pierre, without hesitation, associating charles with the word friend. saying "me and charles saying basically the same thing? that's not surprising," in reference to their team radios in 2019. pierre saying he would pick charles to take with him on a desert island because he'd know he would have fun. how he'd pick charles as his teammate over world champion idols.

and then there's charles crediting one of his best qualifying performances in 2020 to watching pierre's onboards and learning from him. charles telling the media he would love to have pierre as his ferrari teammate even though at the time everyone knew there was basically zero chance of that happening. he praised pierre as the most impressive last year on more than one occasion. charles fulfilling on a not so sure promise to pierre that he'd win in spa in 2019 for anthoine, and never once even implying to the media that maybe it's strange that a fellow competitor would ask for that.

they continue to speak well of each other even though more often than not they've been in direct contention with each other across several teams. today most of us were sweating, afraid they'd take each other out and then both of them got out and gushed about how fun it was.

so yeah. it really is fair to say they do know each other by heart.

“Let it die. Let there be a new beginning. It’s awful. Goodnight.”

— Charles Bukowski

"Andreil should say I love you, that's how we have proof that they heal-"

Shut up! A fic once said Neil goes on a quiet search for the best Hot Cocoa brand, buying a different kind every time they run out, wordlessly cataloging Andrew's reactions to each new brand tested so he could find The One so that comfort hot cocoa on bad days can be a little more sweet!

Shut up! A fic once said Andrew dropped money on a house because the neighborhood was so quiet, so empty, full of old people and surrounded by woods that it turned Neil's brain off cus he felt safe enough for his hypersensitive threat perception to say 'yeah alright we're cool'!

Shut up! A fic once had Neil rail on the other Foxes for excluding Andrew from Secret Santa cus "they didn't think he cared" and Neil straight up told them that if it came down to them versus Andrew it wouldn't be them!

Shut up! A fic once had Andrew go on the hunt for clothes that wouldn't aggravate Neil's scars when they got extra sensitive on bad days, throwing out all his clothes with the Bad Texture and replacing them, honoring baggy size and boring colors and all!

Shut up shut up shut up!!!

whenever i read books i cannot actually imagine what the characters look like, they're all somewhat like this.

being a charles leclerc stan rundown:

MONDAY: media pictures, helmet reveal

TUESDAY: launch day

WEDNESDAY: car testing

THURSDAY: album announcement

FRIDAY: music video, album is out

SATURDAY: album charts #1, ferrari vlog, album bts vlog

we're starting to move like kpop stans lately im afraid

“HADES : Tell them that you weren’t hungry, tell them you followed the pomegranates seeds because they taste like blood, like love.”

— Pauline Albanese, The Closed Doors (via houseborgia)

“All I ever wanted was to know what to do.”

— Dave Eggers

On the Reality of Dating a Famous/Wealthy Man:

I was going to post this on Twitter but decided I wanted to a do a long form post. So an explanation of this tweet, which was inspired by the screenshot just below it:

First a disclaimer: I am not at ALL saying Mick is anything like the men I'm about to talk about (I genuinely doubt it). I'm using this response to him hard-launching his relationship as an example of the mindset I see in a LOT of the young female F1 fans. If you read the gossip blogs, you've seen posts like this and worse, particularly on Charles, Pierre, Danny, and Carlos's gfs.

As I said in my tweet, if these young girls knew what it can be like behind closed doors for the WAGs of the rich and the famous, they probably wouldn't make statements like this.

I see a lot of younger fans here on social media posting their imagines and fan fics, and as someone a bit older than them, it does worry me. I know for most people it's simple fantasy and fun, but when I see things like the above I know there are some younger girls that really just don't get it.

My aim in posting this is that maybe it'll be a bit of a reality check for some of those girls. And I don't mean that in a bullying way, I mean that in a "please don't look at these smiling pretty girls with the closet full of designer, perfect body, and seemingly perfect life and feel bad about yourself" way.

Lastly, how do I know any of what I'm about to talk about? I wish I was just chatting shit, but I have lived through all of what I'm posting below as the daughter of a "man" of wealth. His money came from corporate life, not fame, but when you have as much as my "father" did/does, you rub elbows with the famous. Everything I detail below happened to me, my mother, and the wives of my "father"'s coworkers. I'm now watching history repeat itself as I've moved up the corporate ladder and find myself around millionaires and billionaires on a regular basis.

1. The "Starter Wife" Phenomenon

In wealthy circles there's the concept of a "Starter Wife". This is the woman wealthy/famous men marry because they were high school sweethearts, worked together early on, or they dated before the man had his "come up". Sometimes men marry these women and have kids for the SOLE purpose of having the "Family Man" persona. For famous men, this can be good PR. For wealthy men, this can boost their career.

A lot of these men fucking HATE their wives. By the time they have money, they want the freedom of single life back. They can now afford their "dream woman" and loathe being "stuck" with their current wife because of it. Leading to:

2. Serial Cheating

These men have all the money and resources they need to live a double life. Not to mention built-in time and an alibi: They're on the road all the time for their job, work trips, events, etc. No time unaccounted for because they're always working.

Some of those work trips to wine-and-dine clients include runs to the local strip club, escorts, and in some cases some of those escorts are of INCREDIBLY questionable age (in reality, they are victims of trafficking). Again, I wish I was talking out of my ass, I have seen this shit with my own eyes and wish to the Gods I hadn't. Then there's also:

3. Domestic Violence

This is bad enough when it's a wealthy man whose built that "Family Man" persona to protect himself, but it's even worse when they're famous. No one believes the victims, in some cases the woman is financially stuck and can't just take the kids and run when it happens.

And for some women it hard to leave the man they thought their partner was and, yes, to let the lifestyle go. Speaking of the lifestyle there's:

4. The Loneliness

This is a big one for the F1 girlies I see posting their imagines and fanfics and what not. The fairytale of "he'll make time for me because he loves me and I'd be special. I'd be different."

These men are busy as shit. That Cartier Bracelet you envy on these girls is often a "sorry I missed your birthday". The big bouquet of roses is a "sorry I had to leave our trip early." Yes, we know the joke "well at least I can cry in a Ferrari", but that shit will wear on you more than you can believe. I can't tell you growing up how hurt I was when my performances were missed, major dates were forgotten, or my proud life updates were met with "yeah, uh-huh, hold on I have to take this call."

Of course there are good times, of course there's memories you'll cling to, but when you're out, you often realize how alone you felt in the relationship. Lastly, and most poignant with this F1 WAG nonsense:

5. Keeping Up Appearances

You're no longer your own person in a relationship with these men, you are an extension of them. With famous men, you're a part of their "branding".

You have to look a certain way, act a certain way, talk to the right people, have the right friends. In the corporate-wealth world, that means making your partner look good, playing the part of the trophy wife and perfect mother. Smile in front of those coworkers that you know just spent the last business trip drinking, gambling, and cheating on their wives. Wear the right dress to the corporate dinner to make his coworkers envy him, but don't dress too sexy or he'll grow angry and think you're trying to cheat.

If you're dating someone famous, by the GODS, you better look immaculate in every post. You better be there to support him at his events, but if you're there too often you're "attention-seeking". You better have model good-looks, but if you ARE a model, you're "a jobless loser trying to profit on him". Don't post him on your IG, but if you happen to post that you're in the same city as him, you're "dropping hints". If he posts you, it's only because you "probably begged him to".

It's a maddening dance where you cannot win for losing. And once you break up, enjoy letting the world decide if he should have stayed with you, or if they're relieved that he finally got away from "that selfish bitch".

Do what you will with the above. I just wanted to get it off my chest. But I do hope that maybe, MAYBE, it'll give someone that needs it some perspective.