Go Down To The Netherworld, Plant Grapes

Charles Baudelaire

i must not kill myself . killing myself is the myself killer

Who is this man and how does he know The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald?

WHEN YOU PUNISH A PERSON FOR DREAMING HIS DREAM DON’T EXPECT HIM TO THANK OR FORGIVE YOU. THE BEST EVER DEATH METAL BAND OUT OF DENTON WILL IN TIME BOTH OUTPACE AND OUTLIVE YOU. HAIL SATAN!

spoke deeply to me.

also a poem from the new, unreleased collection. very possibly my own all-time favourite.

[guy whose heart is an autoclave voice] yeah man lately ive just been feeling like this great unstable mass of blood and foam yknow

The thing about ADHD is that the "lack of reward chemicals in your brain" doesn't just mean that you don't want to do any tasks that don't feel particularly yummy :(, it means that your brain will look at chores and tasks that need to be done like "doing this would be painful and tedious for absolutely nothing to gain from it, Do Not Do That." The same thing that your brain tells you about everything else that would feel really bad and hurt the entire time that you're dying. The part of your brain that stops you from doing the thing is the same part that keeps you from shoving your arm into a wood chipper.

With unmedicated, unmanaged ADHD, "I have to do this assignment or I fail and my life will be ruined and I die" feels like a SAW trap, every single time.

when you go to the gender clinic you can ask about being buried alive left to scream and claw at the lid of your coffin until you emerge into your real body & your real name but idk if it's covered by insurance