Lostindifference - Why..?

It’s normal and valid to mourn the things you didn’t get to experience.

I feel like as a teen it is incredibly hard to change and better yourself especially when you live in a household that isn’t the healing type, as instead of healing the trauma sticks in each and every situation and because of their trauma they’ll feel the need to make you feel guilty because you expressed yourself by, for forbid, crying!

“You have to get to a point where your mood doesn’t shift based on the insignificant actions of someone else.”

— Unknown

I often forget my life isn’t some fictional story to be viewed by others, and I assume that’s what spending years in your head pretending to be someone else in 15 different realities gets you

you are strong

It's okay to 'grieve' things that aren't just death. I've allowed myself to grieve a friendship ending, a situationship, losing something important to me, etc. It's okay to give yourself time to process the loss of something. Grief looks different for everyone, try to find a way that works for you to help make it easier for you.

there is always tomorrow

gentle reminder you can rise up from everything. you can recreate yourself. nothing is permanent. you are not stuck. you have choices. you can think new thoughts. you can learn something new. you can create new habits. all that matters is that you decide today and never look back.

I’m sitting here laughing now but it’s crazy how my attitude switches up in just a few days. Like how was I trying to run a little ed blog like 4 days ago now everything’s all good and I’ve decided that hmmm maybe I don’t want to starve myself, or at least don’t need to as I’m only a teen and with that still developing so why ruin my bodily functions and even more so what do I get out of hating myself. I have had on and off disordered eating habits for a while now but I think I genuinely have the drive to keep pushing and take care of myself even when I don’t want to this time, and I know it will take a while to love or at least like myself, so I’m trying to start now. I feel as if I can consider myself lucky to not have fallen into severely disordered and extremely damaging eating habits and since I am overweight with a bit of a slower metabolism I think that gave me some wiggle room as well which I’m thankful for as I was able to not get sick. Kinda a bunch of yap but yea and PLEASE EAT SOMETHING FILLING AND MAKE SURE TO DRINK WATER‼️🫵🏾🫶🏾