well, i've seen some people talking about this song and i had to listen to it again, since it's one of my favorite songs on lover and it also has to do with the theories and the meaning this song has to me.
i don't want to apply this to anyone so feel free to SKIP and NOT READ if you don't agree that this is a LGBTQIA+ song.
pure my own interpretation but you don't have to come to me if you don't like, she has a lot of songs and some of them are free for interpretations and they have different meanings to different people.
the first line it's:
“combat, i'm ready for combat / i say i don't want that but what if i do?”
this line to me has the deepest meaning and it comes along with the one in you are in love “and you will understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars” and in ivy “this is the goddamn fight of my life and you started it” and both songs are before and after the archer which makes the archer in the middle.
the combat she's (maybe) referring to it's about coming out being (still) the american dream and the woman everyone looks up to when it comes to pop music, she says she don't want it but what if she does? what if she want to fight for it, fight for who she is and who she wants people to see that she really is? it's a combat because you can't come out if you're not ready to start a war against the world.
“cause cruelty wins in the movies / i've got a hundred thrown-out speeches i almost said to you”
cruelty here, to me, it's about how cruel it is to not have the story of your life in the big screen, like, we grow up seeing the bad stories about LGBTQIA+ couples and it's always about how they didn't end up together or how bad they are treated. the “speeches i almost said to you" looks like something she was ready to say to us, her fans, and she didn't had the chance or she wasn't really ready.
“easy they come, easy they go / i jump from the train, i ride off alone / i never grow up it's getting so old, help me hold on to you”
when i first saw the miss americana documentary, i highlighted that part where she is trying to convince her father and the rest of the team that it was a good idea/good move to speak up about the politics and the situation of the trump thing. and it was very hard for me to watch because it was clearly a bunch of old men that grew up and still have in mind their conservatory concepts that goes against what taylor wanted to tell her whole life, they were just trying to silence her and she decided to do it anyway because she is a grown woman and she never spoke up about those things before the reputation era.
the easy they come and easy they go line goes for the fans, they are always in and out and sometimes some of them never want to come back and stay because in the first bad thing that happens to her it pulls them away. she jumps from the train and ride off alone, the train maybe is about her life that never stops and she takes a break from it, the media, the relationships, the image she has in front of the whole world and she ride alone because there's no one in the world that could understand her more than herself. she never grow up when it comes to being more mature when it comes to some things and having the capacity to speak her truth, she's asking us to let her hold on to us when things go harder and when everyone else has left her.
“i've been the archer, i've been the prey / who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay?”
i fucking love this line so much because when you are a LGBTQIA+ kid growing up, you always has to fight against being the bad person and the good person, you grow up seeing in the news that you will die young and that there's people out there that will try to tell you that loving someone of the same sex is the wrong thing to do. being the archer and also the prey is like haunting yourself until you realize who you really are, you have that idea internalized in you, the homophobic jokes you grew up listening and you're also the target and it's like both sides of a coin. who could ever leave her for being a (bi, pan, lesbian) woman? who could ever stay if she's a (bi pan, lesbian) woman? it's like “who could stay in the darkest of the darkest times here with me because it looks like i am lost and i don't know where to go”
“dark side, i search for your dark side / but what if i'm alright, right, right, right here?”
the dark side is not the bad side like people point out, the dark side of someone is like when the moon is half shown and half hidden, and you can only see the part that's out for the light. here the dark side of taylor is the one she haven't showed to us, and to me this line is not about a potential lover but about herself. and this song feels like a mirror, so to me, she's talking to herself and trying to find her dark side in front of her own image. the sequence “alright, right” it's like the dark side saying “i am here and it's good”.
“and i cut off my nose just to spite my face / then i hate my reflection for years and years”
this fucking line is the deepest for me, because it's like, she cut a part of herself to looks like someone who she wasn't made to be, it reminds me of having to hide your true side in despite of being hurt or left aside. how many LGBTQIA+ kids and teenagers has to hide from their parents? we change our way to see the world, we lie to everyone about our love interestings, we hide in the closet and we don't face ourselves because this is not who we are and then we spent the rest of our life hating our reflection because we don't recognize this person but everybody loves this version we created, it's easy, it's very easy to love a straight person but it's the hardest thing to let a queer kid feel loved. it's very easy to not tell a straight person how to be but it's the hardest thing teach a queer kid how to love themselves.
“i wake in the night, i pace like a ghost / the room is on fire, invisible smoke / and all of my heroes die all alone / help me hold on to you”
she's s ghost to the people who live with her so she's not seen, everything is burning and there's an invisible smoke that's where she fades in, and all of her heroes, probably the queer ones that are dying everyday all alone and the ones who died were left alone in their final days. again she's asking if she can count on us to keep going if things go hard.
“i see right through me / they see right through me / can you see right through me?”
seeing through someone means that you see their true version, like if you're looking at their soul and they're so open that you can read anything. it's understanding someone and knowing someone inside and out. just like the lover mv where she's inside the fish tank, it's a metaphor for a thing that can be seen by everyone just like a mirror. and the delicate mv where she's not seen until she enters the bar and sees a person. she can see through herself and people are seeing through her but not in the way she wants to be seen and then she asks (for the fans?) if we can see right through her. could we fight the wars with her? be the shoulder for her to lean on? stay even when she's about to face the fight the biggest war of her life?
“all the king's horses, all the king's men / couldn't put me together again / cause all of my enemies started out friends”
king's horses and king's men also align with the chorus and the universe of being the prey in a world of men. also it can also be the world of a society that lives inside a bubble and cannot accept diversity. not even the men, (her father, team, men she dated?) could put her together again after all that she have been through, and it matches with the “i cut off my nose just to spite my face”. all of her enemies once were friends which implies that she can't trust anyone and as the song goes as (in my vision) a LGBTQIA+ letter to her fans, she's saying that there's no one that could handle this secret and she already tried to tell them but it ended wrong.
that's it. to me this song has a deep meaning and i couldn't put everything i wanted to in this post. also i just want taylor to know that there's a lot of sapphic connotations in her songs and i will always stay.
The way everything regarding the Lover era was 🌈 gay🌈 until she had to fade back to black.
1. February 24th 🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴= Seven (now we know why).
She finished her 7th Studio album. The same day Karlie made her final countdown Spotify playlist.
2. The day after she completes Lover the album she goes and sings at a gay couples engagement party and sings KOMH.
3. She also wears the Lover designer dress.
4. Then here comes ME! Out Now! On Lesbian Visibility Day. Her loudest-gayest moment to date. 🌈🌈🌈
5. On the 1st day of PRIDE that a bitch had her Equality Act letter and petition in the drafts! 'Cause as soon as the clock struck midnight in the East! Boom!! "I, for one, would greatly appreciate it!" 👀😏🌈
6. The Gay Peacock outfit performance. 🌈
7. YNTCD 😏 Just GAY shit!! 🌈 no explanation needed.
8. The Archer 🏹 drops on the first day of Leo season.
9. 1st Lover SS posted Bi-Colored Rice Krispie Treats "💕" on Karlie's bday on Aug. 3.
10. 13 days from KK's birthday Lover drops! And ding m-ding! It's a Wedding/engagement song!
11. Lover MV drops and there in a rainbow 🌈 🏠.
12. VMA performance: Big 🌈GAY🌈 parade—then she sings Lover!
13. Sunshine is gone. ☀️ 🕳 🖤
14. February 2020-The Man! Gay shit on the main! 👨
That's just a little recap. What a time it was!
SHE SHINES ME UP LIKE GOLD ON MY ARM
I LOVE TO SEE HER FACE IN DAYLIGHT
THAT THE LOVE IS REAL
THAT THE SHOE MIGHT FIT
Cuddling naked under the blankets on a cold day just feeling each other’s warmth would fix me
Did you ever realize how in the Lover video Taylor 'lassoed' her lover like a cowboy would do? And then how Karlie posted on IG 6/25/19 "My Cowboy" (wyoming stunt that had a bunch of rich business people there, not friends), and then the Lover video came out on 9/22/19 so Taylor was nodding to that? How Karlie's a cowboy like her, conning all the rich folks? I swear to god these women! They've got some tricks up their sleeve, takes one to know one! Bandits riding away into the sunset.
😳 Remember on the Wyoming trip when Derek posted that video of Katy singing ‘one of these things is not like the other’ in a country voice and then panning to Karlie on a horse? Then the YNTCD video with Katy and Taylor coming out days prior on June 17th?
Coffee for Two...
"Tea for Two..."
😏
New photos of Taylor from the Hey Stephen (Taylor’s Version) lyric video
my tears ricochet - t.s.
so this sweater has been ID’d as Band Of Outsiders, Pre-fall 2014. naturally, i did the google 🥴
🥴 so it seems karlie has a bit of a connection to the brand, as the place that did her cookie collab also collabed with them. she also wore a dress from the brand to the 2014 CFDA awards.
just kinda interesting to think, you know, taylor chose to—for the cover of Wildest Dreams Taylor’s Version—wear a sweater from a collection of a brand that karlie was in and around, in and around the same time 🥴💕
sometimes the universe
...just says it shall be...
i mean seriously... can you believe this pic of karlie existed back in... august 2012?? with a gold heart covering over the other side of her face??? like...?!?! between this and the sweet escape coincidence unearthed by @daydreamlibertine i am truly beside myself
thanks to @blogbeautiffulthings for this truly hidden gem!! i can’t believe i’ve never seen it.
here’s more from the photoshoot that it is from:
karlie seems to be wearing her jennifer meyer initial necklace in this shoot as well.
really i’m just enamored by karlie showing off some very rare left-side eye 😂 and also like, it’s at such a particularly good angle...
...so naturally 🙈 i took the liberty of flipping it, zapping the saturation, and overlapping:
what a fit!
also it kind of reminded me of something
a taymoji of taylor in a hoodie, oddly misplaced within the I Did Something Bad pack
hark...!
is that a crack of the knuckles over a keyboard that i do hear? why yes concerned reader, i am aware this hoodie references a particular preexisting look of taylor’s. no, concerned reader, i am not aiming to say that this taymoji is meant to reference this one time back in 2012 when karlie modeled a black hoodie. after all this is a taymoji quite squarely of the:
gucci look from the lwymmd video.
that’s right.
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*postscript*
also like, in rewatching the behind the scenes for this scene why does taylor go out of her way to make a scene out of one of the guys that has a hole cut out of his tie?