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90s Ewan stuff for u

I'm in-fucking-love with you! YESSS this means so much to me that you saw this and thought of me and shared it! Ahhh! 🤗 Kicking my feet! Thank you, dearest moot!

Glad to see you back man, it’s scary rn in the world but 100% we will survive and thrive even out of spite.

My dms are always open if you wanna just talk or vent tho

thank you 🫶

Woke up early today well rested. Walked in the thick morning fog. Ate a healthy breakfast. Open the blinds and let the sunshine in. Pet some cats. Tidied up my room a little. It's not perfect and it's a start. Enough to make a difference in my mood. Watched cartoons then YouTube videos. Ordered my favorite pizza for lunch. Took a nap. Reunited with a long lost friend. Went skateboarding in the beautiful weather. Listened to children laugh and play. Watched the water ripple in the sunlight. Took several moments to just stop and absorb how beautiful the world is. The way the wind blows the leaves like a rushing wave, how cool it is to see the moon so big and prominent in the daylight, the roar of a plane taking off, or a dog contentedly chewing on a toy. I saw parents playing with their children and people grilling delicious smelling food. I laughed at how the skateboard tickled my feet on rough terrain. I marveled at a huge tree and how it has probably been alive through so many historical events and yet it never has to deal with them. It's only job is to continue growing. I listened to music and felt inspired hearing Ewan McGregor sing "Your Song." For a moment, my fears of the world melted away and I was just one of many humans enjoying the sunlight. I didn't feel like the world was ending. I wasn't afraid for my life. I just existed and I felt whole.

I'm glad to see you active, I've been worried about you. 💖🫂

I had to take some time away for a bit.

Thank you for thinking about me. 🫂 I didn't think anyone would notice my absence because for some reason, I believe that I don't exist unless I'm actively doing something for someone else, smh. It means a lot that you cared.

To those that left me kind messages after my last post, I don't know what to say. I didn't expect anyone to read it or care. Your compassion touched me deeply. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❤️

I don't know how to tag this so I imagine no one will see it. I had to at least try to get my feelings out. I guess this is more for me then. For anyone who cares, I think this is goodbye. I'm so overwhelmed and brokenhearted and downright terrified of Trump's administration and what it bodes for the future. Everywhere I turn I'm being reminded of how terrible he is, how powerless I am, and that there is no hope for a better future. I can't begin to describe the emotions I've been feeling...that I'm currently feeling even as I write this. I feel backed into a corner with no way out. I feel so alone in all of this. I don't know what to do. Like, the responsibility for fixing all this is on my shoulders purely because of my age and I have NO IDEA how to help anyone much less myself. I don't have answers, or a plan, or some indomitable spirit. I've often joked with friends that I've never understood horror movies like "Saw." If I ever found myself in a situation where I was forced between excruciating torture or death, I'd choose death. Hands down. It's not even a question. "Who wants to go through all that? Who wants to live THAT bad?" That's how I'm feeling right now. I don't see how life is worth living. I don't know how to be happy. How to fight. How to hope. Not if I'm alone. And I am alone. A conversation at work sent me over the edge. I wanted to blow my brains out right there. It was then that I realized how naive I was to believe that anyone else cared. That change was happening. Was possible. I am drowning in a sea of hatred. I just can't do this anymore. I don't know what to do, but I can't. do. this.

Here is a picture of my goodest boy. My best friend. He crossed the rainbow bridge last week...thank you for allowing me to share him with you. I hope he brings a smile to your face.

AWWWWW <3333 sweet baby, rest in peace little guy! his cute little faceeee, thank you so much for sharing

What to do now? A guide for uncertain times:

Right now: do something other than social media or reading the news. Play a game, pick up a hobby, go for a walk, try a new recipe, ground yourself in something. Let your brain process everything by putting it on the back burner, let it percolate. Remember that you do have a voice, that the worst thing you can do is check out, that the most radical thing you can do is be kind.

Next few weeks: Keep working on the things that bring you joy. Make plans for the future. Assess where you are and where you want to be — physically, mentally, personally, geographically. Schedule doctor’s appointments. Delete your Twitter. Make new friends, connect with old ones, talk to your neighbors, join a community group. If you have a supportive family, talk to them too. Donate to the ACLU. By propping up others, teaching others, reassuring others, you help yourself too. Find a mutual aid group. Keep your head up. Love yourself and don’t wallow in despair. Remember that you do have a voice, that the worst thing you can do is check out, that the most radical thing you can do is be kind.

Next few months: execute on the plans for the future. Keep going with those hobbies. Keep loving yourself. Read reliable, fact-based news. Delete your Twitter (for real this time). Bake bread for your neighbor. Celebrate the holidays. Buy concert tickets as far out as you can, give yourself things to look forward to. Volunteer at a community center. Take a class. Teach others about how us queers and faggots are just people too. Remember that you do have a voice, that the worst thing you can do is check out, that the most radical thing you can do is be kind.

Next 6 months: Keep executing your plans. Write your representatives. Plant a little garden. Learn an instrument. Go to a zoo. Keep reading fact-based news (AP, Reuters, ProPublica, NPR even though it’s a bit biased to the left). Donate to the ACLU. When the sun comes out, get some bread, cheese, apples, and grapes, put them in a basket, go for a gay little picnic. Don’t make another Twitter account. Stock up on meds. Learn a new TTRPG. Pick up a fibrecraft. Remember that you do have a voice, that the worst thing you can do is check out, that the most radical thing you can do is be kind.

Next 4 years: make little baby steps to move towards your plans. Keep building relationships. Vote in local elections. Donate to the ACLU. Volunteer for state or national elections. Recognize that you live in a stupendously large country with assloads of diversity. Love yourself. Lift up other people. Remember that you do have a voice, that the worst thing you can do is check out, that the most radical thing you can do is be kind.

Shit is going to be really really rough for many many people. But if you’re reading this, you can’t give up, you can’t give in, you have to keep going. If you’re trans, if you’re queer, if you’re a freak and a faggot, you have to live.

Full disclaimer that I live in western Washington state, I’m white, I have a tremendous amount of privilege. I do my damndest to help people and use my own privilege to help others. I’m not perfect nor infallible, but reach out if you need something.

And if you’re still reading this, I love you.

Trigger Warning: Pet Loss

My dog of ten years had to undergo emergency euthanasia today....because it was an emergency, I didn't have the $300 for a private cremation so I don't even get to keep a piece of my friend. I have so many feelings and so much to say. But now that I'm typing, I have no idea anymore. I think maybe what I want now is for people to magically understand everything I'm thinking so that I don't have to try and put it into words. I might share more about my baby's story later. Idk. For now, enjoy these pictures of my best boy.

Made my first MCR necklace last night!

I chose the song Disenchanted because it's one of my favorites. I also felt like it's something different, like, not what you'd expect for MCR jewelry/kandi.

At first I wasn't sure if I loved it. I have synesthesia (and a weird brain in general) and I wanted to make the necklace match the colors of the song. Inevitably I got a bit overwhelmed playing around with the beads and getting them in the best order I could. Why is this such a big deal to me? The world may never know lol. But the more I look at it the more I like it. And I can now say that I'm very proud of it.

Initially, I was going to have the D-I-S be black letters and the rest be white. I felt like that would be unique on its on own AND THEN I realized that the word "dead" could be spelled inside "disenchanted" and I felt like that was super MCR coded so I went with that. That's what I'm most proud of. 😁

Thank you for making these vinyl tours; it's seriously so creative! I just want you to know that I take my time going through these pictures like I'm on an actual tour lol. I like seeing the detail MCR put into it.

Vinyl Tour: Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge by My Chemical Romance

The front + back of the jacket

Front + back of the lyric insert

The vinyl sleeve

Both sides of the vinyl. I liked the added detail of the color change of the label for side a and side b!

The sound is fine! I enjoyed giving it a listen and will again in the future.

I need this tattooed inside my eyelids jesus christ!

priest gerard way 🛐

who else up hurkleing their durkleing

Star Trek: Deep Space Nine "Past Tense, Pt. 1"

Wow this is so beautiful 🥹

Jumping on the @palfriendpatine66 love train, when I first joined Tumblr I saw her as like, the leader of Ewan McGregor Tumblr and looked to her for advice on how to navigate the space. I probably sounded so dumb and still she graciously answered my questions, held space for me to vent about my writing struggles, and for a time was the only person I could gush about Ewan with. She's truly a shining example of how fans should interact with each other and just a genuinely kind person. I look up to her and strive to be as welcoming to newcomers in fandom as she was to me.

Who's the fandom friend you've known the longest?

I think maybe @palfriendpatine66 (if that's okay to call you a friend? 🫣). I wasn't super involved in fandoms before, mostly lurking, but when I started really getting into star wars (again) I read Pining in Preschool and started following @palfriendpatine66 on tumblr, and thanks to their kindness I got the guts to get more actively involved, which is one of the best things that happened to me so huge thanks for that 💙💙

Let’s spread a little sunshine ☀️ drop this sunflower 🌻 into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy! 💛

Thank you! You're so sweet. It's hard for me to believe that I make people happy. Compliments like these mean more than you know. Thank you 🫶

Whoa this is seriously cool! Thank you for sharing your fish of the day! That's so funny that even fish have doppelgangers lol

(for anyone reading this who also received a freebie ask from me and was confused on how to answer, THIS is a perfect example!)

Freebie!

Tell me something you've been dying for someone to ask you about

i see youve asked about my current favorite fish, im always itchin to tell people about the fish of the day

Mola Tecta!!! aka the hoodwinker sunfish

this is thee most recently discovered ocean sunfish (2015!!!), and not because they are particularly elusive or shy, but because they look.

almost exactly the same as Mola Mola

Okay so here's my unsolicited thoughts:

I'm thinking these particular options are meant to represent the weakest songs of each artists discography. I'm only saying that because I've noticed that the MCR fandom dogs on Teenagers (overplayed maybe?) and that the PatD fans think High Hopes was booty cheeks. I don't know nothing about FOB fandom but I'm going to assume based on the other two that Centuries isn't a fan favorite either.

So the opponents in this brawl are all very weak already. Now, we have to decide who is the weakest of the weak. 🧐 Remember! (For me) This isn't about which song is more POPULAR, it's about which song can PHYSICALLY overpower the other two, hence them being in a fight.

Okay so immediately, I think Teenagers is getting knocked out cold. The song is a flee-er not a fighter and that's okay. 😌 The song is about a grown man being scared to death at the mere presence of children so it's getting eliminated easily.

Next on the chopping block is High Hopes. I think High Hopes would put up a very respectable fight and give it everything it's got. The song is about believing in yourself and chasing your dreams no matter the odds. It's very plucky and optimistic and therefore I think it's willing to get into fisticuffs if something is blocking it's path to success. However, it also has a very starry-eyed innocence to it. I think that just because it's willing to fight doesn't mean it's capable of WINNING a fight. So, after a courageous effort, it would be eliminated.

Which means I think the winner of the brawl would be Centuries! It has a similar theme to High Hopes but has the guts and maturity that High Hopes lacks. It has a very Naruto-ish "I will become Hokage no matter what, believe it!" energy which gives it the edge it needs to take the crown.

So there's my thoughts on the matter! I'm so happy cuz I love overthinking about fun polls like this! 😁

Reblogging as a reminder to check out this album 😁

what's a song you recently discovered?

actually this whole album LOL

Yes, Jetset has some amazing deliveries from Gerard! My favorite being "Aw sugar" 😩 goddamn I struggle to describe how it makes me feel. It's just perfect!

Another small moment that I absolutely adore and is probably my favorite out of the MCR songs I've heard so far is in I Don't Love You. At the final chorus after Gerard whispers the first part and then belts the rest. The way he goes from screaming to literally growling out the line "I don't" is just so gutteral and raw. It's fucking *mwah* 🤌

I was thinking about my tattoo question and I think I would get the lyric "run run bunny run" (or just run bunny run" on my neck or collarbone. I love the way Gerard sings the line and it's my favorite part in the song.

Is there a small lyric/moment in a MCR song that just scratches your brain perfectly?

Collarbone is such a good place to get a tattoo. I think the “alright” in jetset (actually all of the lyrical deliveries in that song) even though it’s not a good tat. I also love “hair black collar up jet black so cool”, “and without you is how I disappear”, and “put the stake in my heart” so fucking much

Your questions are so good omg. I’ll get to the rest of them after I go for a walk XD

i know this was from a couple days ago but I still wanna say thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed the questions. I had so much fun asking them and really loved reading your answers 😊

I'm scared. I'm fucking scared. Tornado

Oooooh that's really deep! 😯 I love your interpretation.

I have a particular way I like to interpret the song but it's a very long explanation lol.

"Move your body when the sunlight dies. Everybody hide your body from the scarecrow."

What do you interpret "the scarecrow" to mean?

I think scarecrows almost always are portrayed as soulless and so it’s kind of like a protect yourself from everyone and everything that would take away your spark, your anger, your soul

I like wondering what a Scarecrow music video would look like. Also, it's the last song I listened to on Spotify today 😁

I think my top choice for a music video would be DESTROYA. I feel like Gerard would make it a big spectacle filled production like Welcome to the Black Parade but...neon or something lol

What's a song from Danger Days that you wish got a music video?

Scarecrow or an actual plot video of planetary if that’s a possibility :3

I fucking love that name! And the meaning lol 😁

I've been wanting to come up with an oc but I also can't draw ☹️ I think I finally came up with a name though!

So Gerard once retweeted a fan who was asking for advice about peer pressure to drink alcohol and he called it "loserjuice" which I thought was a pretty sick name already tbh lol. I wanted to make a necklace with that word on it and then I thought, what if I replaced the "o"with an "a" to make it "laserjuice" 🤔 and BAM I knew that had to be a Killjoy name!

If I could draw, I'd absolutely draw our ocs together 🤙

Do you have a Killjoy oc?

No mostly cause I suck at drawing but my killjoy name is Hi-Def cuz I’m high sometimes and also can’t hear shit. I totally should make one, I think my color would be a slightly darker hot pink like Mike Milligram’s hair

If you had to get a MCR lyric tattooed on yourself, what lyric would you choose and why?

Bonus question: where would you get it tattooed?

Such a good question omfg. As much as I love tcfsr lyrix I would do “killjoys make some noise” cuz it’s so good and along with “it’s time to do it now and do it loud” it is my senior quote in the yearbook. I think I would go for my thigh. Thanks for asking!!!! :P

I'm trying to feel less lonely but also don't want to be annoying so reblog if you're okay with me spamming you with random questions (at least five) in your ask box.

If there's a certain topic you'd like the questions to be about (your oc, wip, hyperfixation, etc) that's fine too. Just specify in the tags.

Another bracelet I made. It started off as a necklace but I felt it looked too childish for some reason (I have other beaded necklaces so maybe it was just these particular colors ). I still want to make an MCR necklace though. Maybe Scarecrow? If y'all have any ideas i'm open to suggestions. Tbh, I felt like the shade of these colors better fit Party Poison than my first bracelet. If I can come up with an appealing pattern for The Killjoys then I'll probably swap them.

Second attempt at the bracelet

Adding more pink was definitely an improvement!

I was inspired by the awesome bracelets MCR fans have shared on here and wanted to make one myself. So here's my Party Poison bracelet. It's the first one I've made and honestly I'm not happy with it. I was really excited to use this kit cuz it all these different colors but it took me FOREVER to figure out what colors (if any) to use for the letters. I also like things to be symmetrical. To follow a pattern. So I felt really unsatisfied that I couldn't do that with the letters. At the very least, I wanted it to look like something Poison would wear but the end result is just garbage. I think I'll take it apart and just do black and white letters but I feel strongly that there NEEDS to be color! Ugh! Anyway, fingers crossed I improve 🤞

Ayyy let's get it started!

I've got blunts to share too

Todays The Day!!

@m4yday-m4yday and I are finally getting married!!

@sluttyboisbringmelife has kindly volunteered to be our officiant and will start our ceremony

(shoutout to @mycycleangelo and @januscorner for being our MOH/Best Man)

gifts and food are not required but if u want to bring something go for it!!

there will be cake, pie, and other random assortments of food and drink and weed

feel free to tag any plus ones or ur moots u wanna invite everyone is welcome !! (also anyone who's not tagged ur welcome to show up)

Oh. My. GOSH! I love every bit of this! WOW!

Friend, you seriously put a lot of work into this.

You even included Party Poison at the end! I was genuinely surprised!

I love the drawing of us together lol 😁

The Littlest Pet Shop is such a throwback! I'm in love with your art for it fr fr

I'm going to be listening to the playlist all day tomorrow!

The Ewan edit is top notch! You really outdid yourself!

Thank you thank you thank you!! You singlehandedly made this a special Christmas for me all because you cared. 🥹 You're an angel. 💕💕💕

gift for my bestie

picture of us fr so real ^im the shaggy haired one

gift for my bestfriend forever , + a playlist of songs i think he would like mainly ewan , some friendship songs. :33

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