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Travel

I need to travel… I need to go… I need to sit in a private luxury villa overlooking an infinity pool over looking clear blue waters /ocean 

I need to bury my feet in the buttery sand of the dubaian desert at night and wake for an early camel ride. 

I need to wake up another morning in Burj Al arab and ask for food that has to be flown in from another country. 

I need to sit in a tree somewhere on the African continent (reading a romantic  novel while my lover looks up to me as if in prayer to his goddess)

I need to sit on another tree preferably home (Africa) reading a favorite childhood novel, while eating a fruit plucked from the cranky neighbors tree

I need to sit on a Large Parisian terrace facing the Eiffel tower while the french maids serving my breakfast gossips behind me

I need to drive in a top down luxury car with the wind in my hair and occasionally freaking out if it will take my wig off (Don’t judge me… shit happens)

I need to do another drive… this time in a red sports car with silk scarf framing my face and preventing (the wig panic mentioned above). Red lips and a dangerously large cat eye sunglasses.

I need to get on a plane, to feel the anticipation and excitement of going somewhere new or/and somewhere old and experienced….

I just need to freaking go… And Covid needs to chill the fuck out soon, or am finding a cure myself…

Is anyone as frustrated as i am? I really miss the things i took for granted…

I want to become more comfortable speaking up for myself, having audacity, and just embrace the close mouth don't get fed mentality.

Three areas of my life that I need to speak up more, is school, friends, and to be honest just in general.

My fear of being perceived as a bitch is holding me back and making me not speak up and express my mind.

I also hate confrontation which is also why it's hard for me to speak up when something goes wrong.

I will say this, my dad is a very confrontational person. It's to the point that I don't even like going to places with him because I fear he is going to cause a scene. I know I just said that I wanted to have more audacity, but he takes it too far. He's literally a male Karen (still love him). I guess its about finding that balance and becoming assertive not aggressive because as another saying goes, you get further with honey than vinegar.

Travel Bucket Lists

One of my favorite things to do in my free time is watch vlogs of pretty girls traveling to pretty places. I have so many videos and photos saved on my phone of exotic areas, and I made a HUGE list of places I want to visit. I have already visited the Dominican Republic, Barcelona, Madrid, and Cordoba in Spain and plan to check off all of the places on my bucket list.

Here at just a few places on my list:

Santorini

Maldives

Egypt

Jordan

Saudi Arabia

Kenya

Capetown

Bali

Thailand

St Lucia

Fiji

Japan

Bahamas

I have so much more ( I left out all the places I want to visit in the states), but I truly believe that life is meant for traveling the world and enjoying exotic locations and experiences. I can not wait to start scratching these places off. ;)

Love a good black anime character.

Finally got back into reading.