Luxlila

I want to become more comfortable speaking up for myself, having audacity, and just embrace the close mouth don't get fed mentality.

Three areas of my life that I need to speak up more, is school, friends, and to be honest just in general.

My fear of being perceived as a bitch is holding me back and making me not speak up and express my mind.

I also hate confrontation which is also why it's hard for me to speak up when something goes wrong.

I will say this, my dad is a very confrontational person. It's to the point that I don't even like going to places with him because I fear he is going to cause a scene. I know I just said that I wanted to have more audacity, but he takes it too far. He's literally a male Karen (still love him). I guess its about finding that balance and becoming assertive not aggressive because as another saying goes, you get further with honey than vinegar.

love her !

I love when Black women don't let fear stop them from traveling.

there’s no rule as to how big or how small you’re allowed to dream. if you just want a small home and an orange kitchen and four cats that’s just as reasonable of a goal to work for as a big new york penthouse. and if all you really want is a simplistic career that isn’t the center of your life then that’s just as valid as dreaming of becoming a famous fashion designer or ceo. i know everyone keeps urging you to dream big, but dreams can be as simple and small as you want. they’ll always be valid. you decide how you want to live and what kind of life you want, no one else.

Campus Hottie📓💒

Travel

I need to travel… I need to go… I need to sit in a private luxury villa overlooking an infinity pool over looking clear blue waters /ocean 

I need to bury my feet in the buttery sand of the dubaian desert at night and wake for an early camel ride. 

I need to wake up another morning in Burj Al arab and ask for food that has to be flown in from another country. 

I need to sit in a tree somewhere on the African continent (reading a romantic  novel while my lover looks up to me as if in prayer to his goddess)

I need to sit on another tree preferably home (Africa) reading a favorite childhood novel, while eating a fruit plucked from the cranky neighbors tree

I need to sit on a Large Parisian terrace facing the Eiffel tower while the french maids serving my breakfast gossips behind me

I need to drive in a top down luxury car with the wind in my hair and occasionally freaking out if it will take my wig off (Don’t judge me… shit happens)

I need to do another drive… this time in a red sports car with silk scarf framing my face and preventing (the wig panic mentioned above). Red lips and a dangerously large cat eye sunglasses.

I need to get on a plane, to feel the anticipation and excitement of going somewhere new or/and somewhere old and experienced….

I just need to freaking go… And Covid needs to chill the fuck out soon, or am finding a cure myself…

Is anyone as frustrated as i am? I really miss the things i took for granted…