Tim: You know there are 42 different ways that Impulse can be killed in battle if he didn't practice long distance attacks
Dick, just woke up: I thank God every day you wake up and choose not to be a villain
What I look like at the function knowing I should be in bed reading a reader insert rn
Pairing: Bob/Robert Reynolds/Sentry x Avengers!Fem!Reader
Summary: Youâve been sick for a few days, so while the rest of the team goes out to do a recon mission, youâre on your own watching over Bob. One morning he comes to your room with a weird request.
Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI! Minor Spoilers for Thunderbolts! Fluff, Mentions of low self-esteem/ self-deprecation, Smut
Smut Warnings: Unprotected P in V Sex (YâallâŚYou know the drillâŚProtect yourselves lol), Some hair pulling (very light hair pulling), Reader is being a little bit dominant (if you squint), Bob is being a softie (and itâs hot as shit), Fingering, Squirting, Teasing, Biting, and Some marks are left.
Author's Note: Had this boy lined up and really wanted to post it. Loved the little hint that Bob was not liking the blonde that Sentry had lol so this is definitely something that would probably have happened if he didnât return back to normal in the movie đ Also, yâall are awesome and I appreciate you guys for enjoying my little blurbs!â¤ď¸ Thank you.
Word Count: 14,094
You were buried under layers of sweat and crumpled tissues when the knock came against your bedroom door.
Three soft taps.
So quiet, they couldâve been the compound settling. It was hesitantâpolite almost. It was the kind of knock someone does when theyâre not sure if theyâre allowed to be asking for anything at all.
You barely stirred in your bed. The flu had you pinned to the mattress like a paper doll, aching and clammy and convinced the walls were breathing in sync with you. Hallucinations had become your new roommatesâso when you heard the knock, you assumed it was just one of them, wandering through your mind again.
But then came a fourth tap. Just one. Sharp enough to make your headache throb like it was answering.
âY/NâŚItâs BobâŚCan I come in?â You winced at the sound of his voice, even though it was always super gentle and timid.
Bob.
Of course it was Bob.
Youâd almost forgotten in the haze of your sickness that you were technically on Bob duty. Because apparently being half-dead with the flu made you the least threatening option to keep an eye on the worldâs most powerful man while the rest of the team went on recon. Bucky had said it so casually, like the fate of the planet couldnât possibly unravel while you were tucked under three blankets with a thermometer hanging out of your mouth.
âAll you gotta do is check in on him every hour or so,â Heâd told you. âMake sure he eats. Make sure heâs not spiraling, and doing something to keep himself occupied. Yâknow. Normal people stuff.â
It had been simple, at first. When the worst symptoms you were experiencing was a runny nose and a dull headache, youâd shuffle past Bob every so often with a thumbs up and a mumbled âYou good?â While he nodded earnestly over his book, asking you the same thing back.
But once you started coughing so hard you felt like your ribs were breaking, and the chills that you were experiencing gave way to night sweats and dry heaving, keeping tabs on Bob Reynolds fell hard to the bottom of your to-do listâsomewhere below âdonât dieâ and âget a new tissueâ.
ââŚItâs open,â You rasped, your voice raw and thin from all the coughing you had been doing.
The doorknob turned slowly, like he was still asking permission even after you gave it. Then Bob stepped inside with that careful kind of energy that people only reserved for hospital rooms or museumsâlike one wrong step might unplug or break something important.
He hovered in between the doorway, not coming too closeâbeing mindful that you had told him a few times to keep his distance because you didnât want him getting sick, even though it was nearly impossible for him to catch anything. His baggy navy sweater hung off him like a weighted blanket, and the sleeves were stretched over his knuckles, worn from the way he would always pick at the fabric. He looked small in itâeven though he was quiet muscular underneath all the layers. His posture was slouched, and his shoulders were drawn up like he was nervous about something. On top of all that though, he was wearing his new wardrobe stapleâa dark brown beanie that he shoved his bleach-blonde hair under, he never came out of his room without it.
You stared at his figure through half-lidded eyes, watching as he avoided looking directly at you.
âYou okay?â You croaked, reaching up to your face to rub the sleep off your face, attempting to sit up to get a better look at him. He glanced over at you, nodding quickly.
âYeah. Of courseâŚI meanâŚIâm good, I justâŚâ He trailed off, the sentence losing momentum halfway through as his gaze drifted around the room.
He wasnât just avoiding your eyes anymore, it was like his attention had been dragged elsewhereâbehind you, beside you, and all around you. His brows twitched slightly as he took in your space for the first time, and slowly you connected the dots that Bob had never actually been inside your room beforeâ the first time was always an experience for people who didnât know you were a secret collector of everything.
His eyes swept over the cluttered desk in the corner that sported wires, pliers, circuit boards and half built gadgets, before going to the large overstuffed bookshelf beside it, which was packed tight with thrifted novels and comic books that were still in their original plastic sleeves. There was a milk crate of vinyls on the floor near your speaker, with the old record player you insisted on fixing instead of replacing, even though you would complain every few days about it.
There was a flicker in his expressionâsurprise, maybe. Or something quieter, like heâd just stumbled into a part of you that he didnât expect to find. You saw it in the way his jaw went still and the way his shoulders shifted slightly, like he was dying to ask you questions about everything you had, but he was holding himself back.
ââŚBob,â You said hoarsely, trying to draw his attention back to you. He didnât blink, his eyes were fixated on something in the far corner where your posters were. You reached your hand up over your head, waving slightly, and snapping your fingers, âEarth to Bob. Are you sure everythingâs okay?â He shook himself out of his trance, and glanced over at you.
âSorryâŚSorry,â He said quickly, his voice a little higher than usual, as he cleared his throat, âDidnât mean to, uhâŚYâknow, snoop or anything. Iâve just never seen your room before, youâve got a lot of cool stuff.â You raised your eyebrows at him with a small smile on your face.
âYouâre lucky I feel like death. Otherwise Iâd be giving you the grand tour right nowâŚI also include a quiz at the end.â Bob let out a nervous laugh and looked down, picking at the loose thread on his sleeve.
âIâd definitely failâŚSo Iâm kind of gladâŚWell Iâm not glad youâre sick, Iâm just glad I donât have to do a quiz.â Your lips twitched, amused despite the ache that was still clawing at your skull.
âVery smooth recovery Bob, very smooth.â Bob made a quiet noiseâsomewhere between a breathy laugh and a groanâkeeping his eyes pinned to the floor as his cheeks turned a soft pink. You pushed yourself up a little more than before, elbows trembling from the effort of holding yourself up.
âSoâŚWhatâs going on? Whyâd you knock on my door atâŚâ You paused, glancing over at your alarm clock, âSeven fifty three in the morning?â Bob sighed.
âWellâŚI need to go to the drug store,â He admitted, his voice sheepish, âAnd I know Buckyâs not really a fan of me going out alone soâŚThought Iâd ask my babysitter.â You squinted at him through your blurred vision, feeling the room tilt slightly, as you brought your hand up to your face, pressing gently at your temples.
âAre you getting sick or something?â He immediately shook his head.
âNo, no itâs nothing like that. I havenât really gotten sick since I took the Sentry serumâŚâ You quirked your brow at him.
âSoâŚWhatâs the reason for the drug store trip then?â Bob shifted his weight from one foot to the other, the floor creaking under him loudly as he did so.
âI umâŚI need to buy something. For myself.â He responded, dancing around the truth. You stared at him.
âIs it serious?â
âNo,â He said quickly, âItâs not likeâŚHealth-serious or anything, Iâm fine physically, I justâŚâ He paused, clamming up again, not knowing how to explain himself. You narrowed your eyes at him, coughing into your arm, clutching your ribs when a dull ache pulsed through the area.
âYou do realize Iâm gonna find out anyway if I go with you , right?â Bob sighed and dragged his hand down the side of his face, like he was physically wiping the resistance off of himself, letting his hand drop down to the hem of his sweater.
âFineâŚFineâŚI need to buyâŚHair dye.â He mumbled under his breath. You tilted your head slightly, blinking through the fevered haze that clouded your vision.
âHair dye?â Bob winced at the way the words left your mouth, even though you didnât mean for it to sound like you were judging him.
âMhmâŚâ You stared at him for a second longer than he could handle, as his eyes began to wander again, his hands wringing the fabric of his shirt, wrinkling it.
âYou woke me up at seven-fifty-three in the morningâŚFor hair dye?â You asked again, trying to confirm what you were hearing once more, hoping that you werenât experiencing an odd version of delirium at this point.
âItâs not justââ He started, then shut his mouth again, biting the inside of his cheek, shaking his head, âI meanâŚIt isâŚBut I justâŚâ The sentence fell apart in his throat, as his cheeks began to heat up. He looked genuinely embarrassed, and you could see himself curling even more into his sweater, âI just donât like what it looks like anymore.â There was something raw about the way he said it, and you couldnât help but feel empathy for him, your heart clenching at the way his words cracked in the air.
âThe bleach⌠The whole look,â he muttered, eyes fixed on the floor, âIt was for him. For the Sentry. Thatâs what they said, anywayâ they said that it would help. That it would make people see someone new. Something brighterâŚLike it would somehow separate usâŚBut I still have to live in this body when heâs not around.â Bob continued, his throat swelling with a lump, âI still have to see myselfâŚAnd the longer I look like him, the harder it is to remember who I am when Iâm justâŚBob.â You didnât say anything at firstânot because you didnât want to, but because there was something about the way he was talking about himself that made your chest cave in a little. The words hung in the air like mist, as he bowed his head even lower, keeping his eyes on the floor, not daring to look at you or anything else in the room.
âItâs not stupid.â You could see his hands stop moving at your words, watching his eyes glance up at you hesitantly. You gave him a tired but sincere look, hoping that it was enough for him to understand that what you were saying was coming from a place of care, âWanting to see yourself again isnât stupid BobâŚItâs just you trying to cling to the one thing you have control ofâŚI get it.â His mouth parted, like he was going to thank you, but no sound came out. He was relieved that someone was finally understanding what he meant, it was like he had been running around talking to walls when he would speak about how he was feeling, but with you in this momentâŚIt was like he felt seen.
âSo Iâll helpâŚBut I need to see what weâre working with first.â You added, motioning to his head. Bob looked like a deer in the headlights when you said it, caught off guard by your suggestion, but also scared to even follow through with it.
âW-What?â You sighed.
âThat hat BobâŚJust take it offâŚI havenât seen your hair since we moved you in here and youâve been hiding it like itâs some sort of radioactive test subject.â He felt his heart gallop in his chest a little bit, as the nerves began to build up in him.
âI-I really donât think thatâs necessary,â He stammered, already figuring out a way to retreat out of the conversation, eyeing the hallway that was in the far corner of his vision.
âBob, you dragged me out of a flu coma to ask me for helpâŚSo let me help youâŚLet me see it.â The gentleness in your voice was always something that got to him. Even on your toughest days you would use that tone with him, and for some reason it was the only thing that truly had him melting like putty in your hands.
You could see the conflict playing out within him, like he was weighing out the risks, until a look of resolve appeared on his face, a small sigh escaping his lips as he gave in to your request.
Bobâs fingers trembled as he slipped them beneath the edge of his beanie, hesitating for a second before slowly tugging it off his head. The static cling made the knit fabric resist him just a little, like even the hat itself didnât want to let go of the safety it provided him.
The moment it came off, a curtain of hair fell across his face. You blinked through your fevered haze, eyes widening slightlyânot in shock, but in recognition. His hair was longer than you rememberedâshaggy, uneven, the ends fried from months of bleach. The top was still harshly pale, the yellow-white of it stark under the low morning light, but underneath, near the roots, his real hair was coming back inâsoft, and light brown, just like you recalled from the brief glimpses you got of him before it all got changed. But the line where bleach met natural color was harsh and jarring, cutting across his scalp like a bad decision frozen in time.
He looked like someone in between versions of himself, not quite Bob, not quite SentryâjustâŚStuck. You studied him for a moment, your body heavy with exhaustion but your chest buzzing with quiet sympathy. There was something so tender about the way he stood there, hair falling into his eyes, his beanie clutched in his hands like a comfort object. He looked younger somehow. Not in age, but in vulnerabilityâlike this was the version of himself that never got the chance to just be soft and carefree.
âItâs not that bad,â You started, the rasp still thick in your throat, âReally. It just needs some love, patienceâŚMaybe a deep conditionâŚAnd the right shade of brown.â Bobâs head immediately shot up to look at you, like he couldnât believe what you were saying.
âS-So youâre actually going to help? Y-You didnât just try to trick me into showing you my hair right?â You shifted yourself down to the edge of your mattress, groaning at the way your bones protested and pulsed with each movement.
âNo I didnât try to trick you⌠Iâm going to help, but first, Iâm gonna need you to come here and make sure I donât fall, because I think my legs are going to wiggle like theyâre made of jelly.â For a split second Bob wasnât sure if you were serious or not about needing actual help, but he moved anyway, shuffling towards you with his socked feet sliding across the floor. He opened his arms hesitantly, elbows bending like he wasnât sure where they were supposed to go, offering himself up into your space.
âAlrightâŚWhenever youâre ready I g-guess.â He said softly, his voice cracking a bit on the âguessâ like he was more nervous about touching or dropping you than you were about falling on your own.
Your hands found his forearms instantly, fingers curling into the soft, worn cotton of his sleeves, watching him brace himself. He looped one arm under yours, while steadying the other against your back as you pushed off the mattress, feeling your knees buckling beneath you like a baby deer on ice.
âWoahâwoah, okay.â Bob muttered quickly, tightening his arms around you without a second thought. He adjusted himself accordingly, trying his best to be gentle while still being secure enough to hold you upright. You ended up closer than either of you really expected, with his chest pressed against yours, and your cheek inches away from his shoulder.
Despite everythingâthe fever baking your skin, the chills clinging to your limbs, and the flu that had knocked you down hard enough to rattle the wallsâyou still smelledâŚGood.
Bob noticed it the moment you got within his arms reach.
It wasnât some kind of artificial, pampered scent. It wasnât perfume or lotion or anything curated. No, it was just youâfresh soap, soft worn cotton, and that barely-there trace of eucalyptus from the body wash and shampoo combo you swore by. He heard you muttering something about it being the only thing strong enough to trick your sinuses into opening, and Bob had thought it was actually going to work because the sniff you gave him from the bottle made him have a sneezing fit, but he heard your frustrated grunt in the shower when it had not been the case.
âYou alright Bob?â You asked, feeling the tension in his body against yours. He let out a short breath, which fanned across the crown of your head. He didnât say anything right away, he just gave you a quick nod.
âYeah, yeah Iâm okay.â You could feel how careful he was being, feeling his arms flexing around you, not too tight, and not too loose. He was warm, and steady, while trying so hard not to be in the way, even though you requested his help. You couldnât help but think about how strangely nice it was to be close to him, despite the situation.
You stood like that for another moment longer, your body leaning against his, the rhythm of your fevered breathing matching the rise and fall of his chest. Even through the blocked sinuses you had you could smell his laundry detergent on his sweaterâfresh from the dryer, another thing you seemed to like about the moment.
Though you snapped yourself out of your self-induced daze once the floor felt less like a rocking ship beneath your feet. You pulled back just enough to glance up at him.
âYou can let go now,â You whispered, startling Bob with the cue. Quickly he stepped back, like he just realized he was touching a hot stove or something, trying not to seem like he had been enjoying the odd moment of closeness. Despite the warmth of his body leaving yours, his hands still hovered around you just in case.
âIâm good,â You reassured, wobbling slightly but managing to keep yourself upright, âJust give me a few minutes to brush my teeth and get my bearings so I donât scare the public by looking like a corpse.â Bob nodded immediately.
âYeah, of course, Iâll justâŚIâll wait in the hallway. Thereâs no rush or anything, uhâŚJust take your time. Seriously, I mean it.â He said, backing away while he clutched his beanie in his hand, âJust call me if you need anything.â He added, slipping out of your room and pulling the door shut behind him.
The moment he was gone, you sat back down on the edge of the bed with a slow, rattling breath. God. Your whole body felt like it had been microwavedâsweaty, sore, and buzzing with leftover adrenaline. You pressed the heels of your palms into your eyes for a second, trying to reboot your nervous system. Not just from the fever, but from how close Bob had been. How soft heâd been. How good it had felt to be held with such warmth and gentleness even if it was for a fleeting moment.
You let out a sigh, before getting up again, dragging yourself into the ensuite bathroom you shared with Yelena, flicking on the bright fluorescent light. You let out a hiss, catching your reflection in the mirror. Surprisingly, the damage was minimal, sure your hair was an absolute mess from spending the night tossing and turning, but you looked half-awake at least.
Quickly, you got yourself ready, brushing your teeth, splashing some water on your face, fixing up your hair, and changing into a fresh set of clothes. By the time you were done, only fifteen minutes had passedâyour new personal best. You cracked the door to your bedroom open, finding Bob sitting on the floor waiting with his back against the wall and knees drawn up. He looked up quickly when he heard the creak, and gave you a soft smile.
âLetâs get outta here.â
ââââââ
Twenty minutes later, you found yourselves shoulder to shoulder in front of the painfully fluorescent wall of boxed hair dye in your local CVS.
It was still early, so thankfully not a lot of people were in the store. You actually thought that it was just you and Bob who were customers and the rest of the people there were employees and managers. On the overhead speakers there was a faint crackle of old 2000s music groaning throughout the store. The air smelled like plastic and dryer sheets, which was an odd mix for a drugstore of all places.
Bob stood stiffly beside you, his hands jammed into the front pocket of his jacket, eyes wide as he took in the absurd variety of brands and colours in front of him. His mouth was parted slightly, like he wanted to say something but couldnât decide on what panic stricken sentence he was going to go with. So you spoke first.
âWellâŚWe know what row we need to look at.â You said, motioning toward the more natural leaning coloursârows of caramel, ash, chestnut, and espressoâpushing the cart gently in that direction as Bob trailed behind you like a nervous shadow. Your eyes scanned over the various boxes and brands, trying to find ones that would do minimum damage to his hair while actually doing the job.
âI didnât think it was going to be so complicatedâŚâ He murmured from behind you, âI just thought there would be straight forward choicesâŚâ You looked up from the boxes, seeing the way his jaw was clenched.
âItâs just overwhelming because all the companies who make this stuff create different versions of the same thing. SeeâŚâ You pointed at one box âThis one is ammonia free, and is semi-permanent,â Then pointed to the other one right beside it,âWhile this one is permanent and has argan oil infused in it so it doesnât do a lot of damage, but theyâre the same colour.â Bob squinted at the wall of labels, then back to the boxes you had motioned to, visibly confused, shaking his head.
âAlrightâŚBut what if I just wantâŚNormal dye?â You looked up at him, one brow arching in mild amusement.
âBobâŚThis is normal dye.â He turned a sharp shade of red, as the heat rose to his cheeks, taking over the paleness.
âW-Well yeah butâbut you know what I mean donât you? It doesnât have to be so complicated, just have one of every colour.â You let out a small laugh.
âWelcome to the wonderful world of capitalism, Bob. You want brown? Well, first you gotta pick from thirty-seven kinds of brown. Do you want cocoa chestnut or honey almond toast? Because those are apparently different.â Bob took his hand out of his pocket, rubbing the back of his neck.
âOkayâŚI guess youâre right.â He replied nervously.
âWeâll find your colour, I promise.â You said calmly, continuing to look over the boxes in front of you.
âShould I, uhâŚTake my hat off? Would that help?â You tilted your head at him, and nodded.
âIt would definitely make this a much quicker processâŚBut if it really bothers you, Iâm pretty sure I could go off of memory.â Bob shrugged a little, his eyes flicking around the store for a moment.
âI donât mind, itâs basically just us in here anyway.â You nodded, watching him remove the beanie again, tucking it into the crook of his elbow. He tried to not make a big deal out of it, but you could tell he felt exposed, so you were going to attempt to make things quick.
âAlright,â You said, stepping a little closer to him, grabbing a few boxes from the shelf, âBend down a bit, I need to get a good look at the roots so I can compare.â He obeyed, ducking his head so you could see the top of his hair properly. In doing so, he stepped closer than you expectedâcloser than he expected, probably. Your foreheads were nearly aligned, noses maybe a breath apart. He was tall enough that you had to tilt your chin slightly to get the right angle, and Bob found himself frozen there, inches from you, not sure where to look. So, he looked at you.
You smelled like cherry cough dropsâsickly sweet and medicinalâand it hit him instantly, like a quiet little exhale in the space between you. He remembered the moment you popped one into your mouth earlier, halfway to CVS, saying it was the only thing keeping your throat from giving out. And now the scent lingered on your breath, mingling with the warmth of your skin and the faint trace of eucalyptus from before. Bob swore his brain short-circuited for a second.
You were focused, eyes narrowing slightly, as you held one box up beside his roots, then another. Your fingers brushed through the longer strands near his crown, gently separating pieces to get a clearer view of where the bleach ended and his real colour began. You were so precise about it, so tender, and Bob didnât know where to put his hands or how to keep breathing without accidentally inhaling you.
Then you paused, lips turning up as you caught the way his chest rose a little faster, how his fingers curled and uncurled in his sleeves
A soft rattling sound reached your ears thenâthe kind of nervous, involuntary vibration that sometimes came from him when he was overwhelmed. You smirked slightly, brushing your thumb against his temple on purpose as you pushed a few more strands aside.
âIs the Sentry getting a bit flustered?â You teased, your voice still raspy from the flu but still playful. âOr is that just you rattling like a soda can?â
Bob made a noiseâhalf sigh, half laughâducking his head a little more like it would hide the warmth that continued to spread over his skin, all the way down his neck. âItâs definitely just me. Heâs, uhâŚHeâs fine.â
âGood,â You hummed, still close, eyes flicking between the swatch and his roots. âBecause I donât think heâd let me manhandle his hair like this.â
âYouâre notâŚManhandling anything,â He mumbled, trying to cover up the wavering tone. âFeelsâŚKinda nice, actually.â You paused at that comment, your eyes glancing down to his, seeing little glints of sparkling orange through the sea blue that his irises normally sported. For a second, neither of you said anything. The store had faded by that point and all that was left was the faint scent of cherry and the feel of your fingers still resting lightly in his hair.
ââŚThis is your shade,â You said finally, voice soft, motioning to the box in your hand. He didnât move at first, it was as if his brain hadnât caught up to the moment yet, or his ears were ringing so much he didnât hear what you had said. Then you shifted your weight, easing back slightly, giving him some space as you cleared your throat, dropping the box into the cart with a clunk. He quickly slipped the beanie back on, shoving his hair up into it, sealing away the moment beneath it.
âNow we need to get you one of those conditioning treatments, and after that Iâm grabbing some snacks, cause Iâm getting hungry.â He looked away from you, nodding.
âYeah, okayâŚConditioner and snack. Got it.â You glanced up at him, seeing the way he was avoiding you eyes again, before turning back to the cart, pushing it down the aisle with him following close behind. You turned into the next section without fanfareâthe shampoo and conditioner areaâand skimmed over a wide array of labels until your eyes landed on the exact jar you were looking for: the rich brown packaging, the heavy text that scrawled out all the promises of repairing and restoring.
âThis one,â You muttered, reaching up for it and dropping it into the cart with a soft thunk, âWill do miracles for the damage, youâre gonna love it, smells like sweet coconuts.â Bob glanced at the package.
âDoes itâŚSting?â Your eyebrows drew together.
âBobâŚIt's conditioner, not acid.â He bit his inner lip.
âNo, I-I know, Iâm just asking cause when they bleached my hair it really really burnedâŚThen my head was super sensitive for like a whole week after, j-just donât want to go through that again.â You could hear the way his voice tapered off, like he didnât really want to talk about it, but he just wanted to let you know.
âI promise this will be way less abrasive.â You said, with a small smile tugging at your lips, nudging the cart forward again, âNow letâs get to that snack aisle before my stomach eats itself.â Bob chuckled softly at your words, following you again as you turned into the next section, noticing the sharp fluorescent lights had dimmed just slightly. The sterile smell of the store had completely faded by that point, being replaced with sweet confectionery items; gummy snacks, granola bars, marshmallows, anything you could think of really. You stopped your cart, feeling Bobâs chest bump into your back, as your eyes began to skim over the shelves, squinting at the shimmering bags, the look of contemplation drawing up into your eyebrows.
âSoâŚWhatâre you craving?â He asked softly, watching your eyes dart around the wide variety, âSweet? Salty?â You hummed.
âMight buy the whole aisle to be honestâŚâ He laughed under his breath, the sound quieter than the storeâs staticky music, but warmer than anything youâd heard in days.
âSeems like your appetite has come back.â You turned to look at him, letting your body sway slightly toward the cart to brace yourself.
âYeah, I think the fresh air has put me on the road to recoveryâŚJust donât touch my lower backâŚItâs a little sweaty.â There was a beat of silence, before you continued âMy stomach might also be trying to fool me into a false sense of security and Iâll end up throwing it all up after I eat it.â
âWell that took a turnâŚâ You shrugged, plucking a bag of sweet chili chips, throwing it mindlessly into the cart.
âI like to keep you on your toes Bob.â You replied with a smirk.
âââââ-
Back at the compound, you retreated into your room to change, making quick work even though you were feeling a faint headache coming back, but it was more manageable than your prior ones.
You swapped out your clothes for a pair of beat-up black compression shorts and an old t-shirt from your days at training campâfrayed at the collar and speckled with faded bleach stains from when you touched up Yelenaâs hair. The crooked letters on the shirt were faded but you could make out the words âI SURVIVED CAMP HAMMONDâ on the front of it, a great memory of how long itâs been since you were actually training.
You grabbed your dye bowl and one of the brushes from under your bathroom sink, tucking them against you as you headed down the hall. Your bare feet padded softly against the cool flooring of the compound, reaching the bathroom that Bob shared with Bucky, seeing the door was already cracked open. You gave it a slow push with your knuckles, poking your head in.
Bob stood in the middle of the tiled space like he wasnât sure where he was going to sit, clutching the CVS bag with both hands, wringing it in his grip, the sound crinkling plastic echoing off the walls. He already had taken off the beanie, fully prepared for what was coming.
âAlright,â You announced as you stepped inside, âYour hair hero has arrived.â Bob looked over at you quickly, his shoulders dropping slightly when he laid eyes on you and your outfit. The tension in him bleeding out of him in small waves.
âYou brought your own bowl?â He asked, trying to cover up the fact he was staring at your bare legs for longer than he intended.
âOf course I brought my own bowl,â You replied, holding it up slightly before setting it down on the porcelain counter, âWhat kind of amateur do you think I am?â You asked jokingly, earning a small smile from Bob, motioning for him to hand you the bag.
You unpacked the contents onto the sinks edgeâthe dye, the conditioner, the gloves, and a couple of CVS coupons that the cashier had stapled to the receipt.
âOkay,â You said, flipping the box of dye around to double-check the instructions even though you were seasoned enough to know what you were doing without them, âLetâs get you situated hm?â Bob hovered behind you awkwardly, watching your hands move with precise, and practiced ease. You pointed at the closed toilet lid.
âGo sit on the makeshift barber chair, hope you like stiff seats.â You joked, watching him go over to where you pointed, sitting down without protest, seeing the way his long frame compressed itself into the small space. He looked over at you with a soft smile, his hands clasping together, as you slid on a pair of gloves.
âUhâŚJust wanted to say thank you for doing this, especially with being sick and everythingâŚI didnât mean to be a bother.â You cracked open the box of dye, flipping the flaps back and pulling out the developer bottle and aluminum tube of colour, the gloves squeaking slightly as you did so. You opened the cap with a satisfying pop and reached for the dye bowl beside you.
âYouâre not a bother Bob.,â You said, glancing over at him as you squeezed the thick brown sludge into the bowl, âI donât mind.â He blushed a bit at the softness in your voice, letting out a sheepish laugh, nodding before taking his eyes off you, his fingers finding the hem of his sweater.
You turned and flipped the small ceiling fan on, letting it whirl to life with a soft click and hum, it was your little attempt to keep the room from smelling like a chemical spill before you started stirring in the developer with the dye.
It was quiet for a momentâpeaceful almost. Just the faint humming of the fan and the soft scrape of the plastic bristles rubbing against the inside of the bowl. Bobâs eyes drifted down toward your shirt absentmindedly, reading the faded words that were scrawled over the fabric that was clinging to your frame.
âWhatâsâŚCamp Hammond?â He asked quietly, with genuine curiosity in his voice, as he looked down to his hands. You didnât look over at him immediatelyâstill focused on making sure the mixture reached that perfect pudding-like textureâbut your mouth twitched slightly.
âDid you think I was born with the skills of a mercenary?â You asked, glancing over at him with a teasing glint in your eye, âHate to burst your bubble, but I wasnât that cool.â Bob felt his cheeks heat up as it spread to his ears and down his neck.
âSo what is it? LikeâŚA boot camp or something?â You shrugged, looking down at the bowl again.
âKind of. It was a training facility for recruits who showed promise in their assigned roles. I was a teenager when I got scouted, actually. They stuck us in bunk beds and we ran drills at five in the morning. Sometimes we were able to go home to see our families but I spent about three years there just learning the ropes and honing my skills.â He leaned forward a bit.
âWas itâŚBad?â You paused the stirring for a moment, biting the inside of your cheek when you heard the way he asked.
âNo. Not always. It was intense, but not all of it was horrible. I met my first team there actually, so that should tell you something about the experience.â At the mention of your first team, the conversation had faded, because true to Bobâs nature he was observant enough to catch on that you werenât going to answer any questions about them. He just nodded, and sat still, with worry tucked beneath his lashes. You cleared your throat, breaking the silence.
âBefore I forgetâyou should probably take that sweater off. This stuff is probably going to stain it and thereâs a really low chance youâre going to be able to get it out.â You said, motioning with the brush, âUnless you actually want brown splatters all over it.â You added, seeing him look down at himself.
âOhâŚUhâŚâ He said, curling his fingers into the hem of it, hesitating, âIâm notâŚWearing anything under it.â You paused.
âYou could go find something you donât mind ruining, I can wait.â Bob shook his head, not looking at you, avoiding your eyes.
âI donât really have anythingâŚI wear pretty much all of my clothes, and donate the ones I donât.â You put your hands on your hips, biting the inner side of your cheek.
âGuess we have a dilemma then.â You said jokingly, looking around the bathroom for a towelâa solution of sorts.
âI meanâŚI could take it off, I justâŚJust promise me you wonât laugh.â You stopped your movements immediately, looking back at him, raising your eyebrows.
âOkay. I wonât laugh.â You said, feeling your chest tighten. Bob nodded once, his fingers finally tugging up the hem of the sweater. It caught slightly on the undersides of his armsâhe had to peel it upward with a bit of a twistâand then suddenly, it was gone, crumpled in his hands and resting in his lap.
You froze.
The breath you hadnât realized you were holding caught somewhere in your throat, stalling completely as you took him in.
The heat that burned inside your body hit you like a second fever.
He wasâŚLean. But solid. Not showy or overly built, but undeniably strong. His chest and shoulders were broad in a way that looked natural. There were fine lines of definition that carved down his sternum and stomach, soft traces of light and shadow where his muscles rested. His skin was fair, with scattered freckles that dotted across his collarbones and shoulders like sunspots. A small scar cut just under his left ribâthin and silvery and healed long agoâand there was a faint stretch of color along his ribs, a faded birthmark maybe, or it was the aftermath from the serum he was given. Tying it all together though were the very very small stretch marks that were scattered around the expanse of skin, which made your brows raise a bit in admirationâŚ
And his armsâJesus Christ, his armsâwere gently corded with strength, biceps not flexed but still clearly shaped beneath smooth skin, dusted with barely-there hair in the hollows of his elbows. The veins on his forearms sat just under the surface, pale blue and almost glowing under the harsh light of the bathroom.
He wasnât perfect. But you didnât want perfect. Thisâthis was so much better.
The heat rushed up your neck and onto your cheeks so fast it was like your body had short-circuited, and you were suddenly very aware that your own shirt was threadbare and clinging to your frame. You tried to clear your throat quietly, to ground yourself, but the sound came out shakier than you liked. Bob caught it immediately, and his cheeks went a dark hue of pink. Now you were able to see the pale skin of his chest matching the same colour.
You felt nauseous looking at him, but for all the right reasons. How the hell were you supposed to get close to this man now without passing out? And how the hell was he able to hide this so well from youâ Or anybody else for that matter?
âWowâŚâ Was all you could say, and you didnât even mean for it to come out of your mouth. Bobâs head tilted up at you, noticing the way your eyes were glued to him like he was some sort of museum exhibit. He clutched the sweater in his lap a little tighter, curling in on himself a bit as if he was trying to hide, looking down at himself.
âYeah I knowâŚâ He muttered, tone awkward and clipped, like he was attempting to defuse the silence before it got worse, âI know itâs badâŚThe serum kindaâŚI donât know made me grow a little too quickly, and-.â You raised your hand to stop him.
âWoah woahâŚDonât even go there Bob. I wasnât saying wow in a bad way.â He looked up at you instantly, his eyes glistening in the lighting, the soft blue still shimmering with those little flecks of orange.
ââŚYou werenât?â He questioned, his lips parting a bit.
âBobâŚYouâre built like a fucking house.â You said bluntly, the edge in your voice softening from the next wave of nausea that sloshed in your stomach. Bob made a noise like he was suppressing a laugh, his throat closed a bit.
âThatâsâŚA very generous interpretation, but you donât have to lie to meâŚâ Your expression twisted slightly, not in offense, but in something rawer than that. It was as if his words scratched at a place in you that was already tender.
âBob, Iâve never lied to youâŚAnd Iâm certainly not starting now.â Bobâs lashes fluttered like he was processing your words, like no one had ever said something so plainly true to him in a long time. You could see the way he swallowed hard, almost like he was choking back his words, âYou look amazing, and I mean it.â That was when you heard it againâthe faint rattling sound, you assumed he was shaking something in one of the cabinets, it didnât really matter at this point though. He drew in a shaky breath to quiet it, his fingers tightening around the bunched-up sweater.
Then you stepped towards him, taking up the space between his knees. You were close enough to feel the warmth coming off his bare chest, to see the smallest cluster of freckles that laid just beneath his collarbone, and to feel his breath against you. Bob tilted his head up, slow and steady, his eyes finding yours immediately, seeing more orange taking over his irises.
ââŚYouâre really not going to laugh at me?â He asked, almost like he truly couldnât believe it. You sighed, tucking a piece of bleached hair behind his ear.
âBob, the only thing Iâm going to be doing right now is wondering how Iâm supposed to function with you sitting in front of me like thisâŚDoes that make you feel any better?â Bob let out a soft, startled breathâalmost like a laugh or like he didnât know what to do with the surge of warmth that spread through his chest.
His hands, still knotted around the sweater in his lap, flexedâthen unclenched. The tension there began to melt, bit by bit.
âIâŚâ He started, then stopped. His voice caught, his tongue wetting his bottom lip like he was trying to steady himself. His eyes searching your face, shining under the light âI think that makes it so much worse, actually.â
âWorse?â Bob nodded faintly.
âYeahâŚBecause now Iâm trying really hard not to kiss you...â His voice was barely above a whisper when he said it, and all consideration for the flu you had been battling was thrown to the curb.
The rattling came back. Louder this time. Almost a tremor that ran through his chestânot violent, not dangerous, but charged. Like there was a wire humming under his skin that was just barely holding.
And still, somehow, he smiled.
The kind of smile that only showed up when he was trying to hide how badly he wanted something.
You swallowed. Your hand was still in his hair, fingers brushing at the soft edge of his temple. You could feel his warmth, his nerves, the small, careful gravity that existed between his body and yours. You let your gaze drop to his mouth, just for a second, and then back to his eyes.
âWell,â You said, keeping your voice low and playful, in an attempt to mask your heart beating out of your chest âYouâre gonna have to wait until after your hairâs done. Iâm not making out with someone mid-dye jobâthis stuff stains.â You added innocently, a smirk drawing up on your lips. You could hear Bobâs breath catching in his throat at the sheer mention of making out.
âRight, right, of course.â He said, trying to cover up the excitement that bloomed in him.
âNow, be a give boy and stay still, so I can work my magic.â You whispered tilting his chin up even more with your gloved hand.
âY-Yes, maâam.â He responded breathlessly, without even thinkingâso soft, and so automatic that it made your pulse spike. You cleared your throat a bit before dipping the brush into the bowl, letting the creamy dye coat the bristles, then gently you began to cover the stark blonde lengths of his hair in the dark brown colouring. The scent of itâchemical but faintly sweetâmingled with the warm air drifting down from the little ceiling fan, and you tried to keep your breathing steady as you worked. Bobâs hair was softer than you expected, silken even after all the damage. And the way he tilted his head just slightly to give you better access made your chest ache.
He closed his eyes at the first touch, his jaw going slack as you parted the strands with careful fingers, keeping your brush strokes slow and methodical. You could see his throat move as he swallowed, the faintest tremble still present in his frameâbut now it was quiet, more soothed than shaken.
You worked in silence for a little while. It wasnât awkwardâjust thick with the kind of tension that lingers when two people are trying not to break a moment thatâs humming with too much energy. You kept your movements fluid, coating each section with care, your free hand occasionally grazing the side of his neck or the curve of his temple to steady him.
Bob let out a slow, shaky breath.
ââŚCan I touch you?â
The question barely made it past his lips. His eyes were still shut, but his lashes fluttered like he wasnât sure if he should open them yet. You paused, brush hovering midair.
âTouch me?â You asked, like you were confirming what he just said. He nodded, just once.
âNot in a weird way I justâI need toâŚTo do something with my hands.âYour lips parted, the heat returning in full force, knowing that he was probably making an excuse to put his hands on you, to feel you, to take you in, but deep down inside, you didnât mind one bit.
âYeah,â You said quietly. âYou can touch me.â
The second you said it, you felt his hands move. Slow, careful. The sweater slipped from his lap and landed with a soft thump on the tile floor. Then his palms came to rest on the sides of your thighs, just above the hem of your compression shorts.
They were warm. Gentle. And a bit shaky.
Bob exhaled like the contact untied something in him, his fingers curling lightly around your skin as if he couldnât quite believe he was allowed to hold you like that. His thumbs swept slow arcs along the fabric, and then you saw itâhis bottom lip caught between his teeth, eyes still closed like he was savoring every inch of sensation, like he was trying to memorize the feel of you beneath his palms.
You could barely focus on the hair in front of you. Your hands just kept moving, but your entire body was tuned to himâhow he sighed when your knee brushed his, how he flexed his hands slightly when your knuckles grazed his cheek. How he chased what little touch he was getting from you.
âYou okay down there?â You asked, voice low, and tinged with amusement. His eyes finally openedâheavy-lidded, and flushed with emotion, as his fingers stayed firm on your legs.
âYeah,â He breathed. âJustâŚI think this is the most relaxed Iâve felt in weeks.â You couldnât help but smile at the softness of his voice.
âWell, Iâm glad I could contribute to thatâŚEven though now youâre going to have to wait thirty minutes for this to set in.â He wet his bottom lip with his tongue, nibbling on the inside of it, as you placed the empty bowl and stained brush onto the counter, taking off your gloves and letting them drop in the garbage all while staying in the space between his knees. You set a timer for yourself on the speaker radio that was near the conditioner.
ââŚWhat could we possibly do to make the time go by faster?â He asked shyly, almost like he already knew the answer, but he just wanted you to initiate it, because he was too nervous to do it himself.
You werenât going to give in that easily though.
âOh Iâm sure we could think of something.â Allowing your voice to be a bit more breathier than before. He blinked up at you, hopeful and unsure all at once, but he still didnât say anything, he Just kept holding you like he was afraid that any sudden shift he did would scare you off.
You didnât move much at firstâjust enough to lean a fraction closer. Just enough to let your shirt brush his bare chest as you planted your palms on the edge of the shelf behind him, caging him in without pressure, while also being mindful of his dye coated hair. Bob inhaled, and you felt the tremble of it, the way his breath shuddered as your faces moved closer.
You dipped inâslow, and teasingâuntil your lips were just above his. A hairâs breadth away from connecting.
But then you stopped.
Bob was dazed. His lips parted, breath warm in anticipation, waiting for you to do itâŚBut you just stayed there, close enough for him to swallow the air you breathed out into him, and to smell the faint hint of cherry that was still clinging to your lips from the cough drop.
ââŚY/N.â He whispered, his voice almost breaking off into a whimper. You tilted your head with a knowing smirk.
âWhat?â You asked quietly.
âY-You know whatâŚYouâre driving me crazyâŚâ He tried to lean up but you moved back just enough for him to lose the air you were giving him.
âThatâs the point.â You replied, brushing the tip of his nose with yours. His fingers tightened a little on your thighs, but he didnât move you closer, even though he couldâve. He stayed obedient. Soft. The way he was in his everyday life and you smiled down at him, leaning in again to brush your lips across his bottom one, feeling him shiver against you.
Bob let out a shaky breath, his eyes fluttering half-shut from the close proximity of your mouth. His palms on your thighs shifted upward, sliding under your baggy top so they could rest against the waistband of your compression shorts, his fingers brushing the skin of your hips.
ââŚYou donât know what youâre doing to meâŚGodâŚYou have no idea.â He said, his voice aching and on the verge of spilling over into begging.
âI think I have a pretty good idea,â You murmured back, trailing your lips across his again, feeling the wetness of his saliva this time before going to the shell of his ear âYouâre the one shaking, Bob.â You whispered, your breath hitting against his skin.
âIâm t-trying my best to be good for youâŚBut youâre making this so hard.â The heat between you curled together, tightening in your belly. You drew back just enough so you could look him in the eyes again. ââŚYou can do whatever you want to meâŚâ He whispered, âJust pleaseâŚPlease donât stop touching me.â Your breath caught at his word, not just because of the desperation that laced them, but because of the truth that hung below them.
It was the kind of truth people usually only say in the dark, or when they were half-asleep or drunk, but Bob was fully sober, wide-eyed, and trembling beneath your hands as if he couldnât hold himself back any longer. It was like you were pulling a loose thread from a shirt and it was completely unraveling the whole thing. You stared at him for a long moment.
ââŚThe timer is going to go off in about twenty minutes,â You said softly, âAnd I think weâre both a little overheated, arenât we?â Bobâs eyebrows knitted together, almost like he was preparing himself for you to stop this from going any further.
âWâWhat do youââ
âI think we should take a shower together when the timer goes off,â You interrupted, tilting your head to the side, âThat okay with you?â There was a beat of stunned silence. Then a choked little nod, as Bobâs fingers gently pressed into your hips on reflex.
âIâll rinse out your hair, get the dye outâŚThen maybeââ Your voice dropped into a whisper, ââIâll let you kiss meâŚThink you can manage to wait?â Bob let out a small broken soundâbetween a laugh and a groan.
âI-I can try,â He whispered, not even sounding convinced by his own voice.
The next fifteen minutes passed in a kind of suspended quiet. You didnât step away from him entirelyâjust retreated enough to clean the brush, rinse out the bowl, organize the conditioner and the towel youâd need for later. But the whole time you felt his eyes on you. And every time you glanced over at him out of the corner of your eye, he was still perched on the makeshift barber chair, elbows on his knees, trying not to look like he was counting the seconds.
With five minutes left on the clock, you went over to the shower and reached in, twisting the handle on the built-in panel. The pipes groaned quietly as the water surged out, spraying onto the shower floor. Within seconds steam was curling out from behind the frosted glass enclosure. The room warmed fast, the mirror fogging slightly at the edges, the air heavy with moisture and the faint scent of developer and dye.
The heat from the shower stuck to your skin as you turned your head back to look at himâstill seated, trying to play it cool like he wasnât about to explode from the anticipation. Bob leaned back against the tank, making room for you without hesitation, his knees parting instinctively like muscle memory, like his body already knew what was coming. You crossed the tiled floor with quiet, deliberate steps, the steam from the shower weaving between you both, making the bathroom feel smaller, more intimateâlike the air itself was folding in to watch.
You stepped between his knees again, standing tall in front of him, the light of the ceiling fan casting a warm haze on your skin.
Your hands found his shoulders again, fingertips skating lightly along the curve of them.
âWant to undress me?â You asked, your voice like a secret you were offering just to him. No teasing this timeâjust heat, thick and warm and sweet in your chest. He exhaled like you punched the breath out of him.
âY-Yeah, o-of course I do.â He said, barely above a whisper. You took his wrists into your hands, and guided him to the hem of your shirt, giving him the signal to do it.
He took his time with itânot from hesitation but from wanting to tease you back just a little. His knuckles brushed against your stomach as he gathered the worn fabric up, pausing briefly just beneath your ribs, looking up at you just to make sure you were still okay with this. You gave him a nod.
He peeled it up off you, slow and careful, taking in the way the shirt slowly revealed everything he wanted to see in short increments. Your ribs, the soft swell of your breasts, your collarbones, your shoulders, all the way up until he was able to take the shirt off entirely. He let it drop to the floor behind you.
Bobâs gaze dropped before he could stop it, letting his eyes roam over you like he was witnessing something holyâlike he wouldnât blink in case you suddenly vanished. His mouth parted for a moment as he audibly gulped. He was silent, his expression flickering between awe and hunger, tangling up in the open and stunned way he drank you in.
He was memorizing every inch of your skin. The gentle rise and fall of your chest, the soft curves and defined edges. Every freckle, birthmark, scar, or stretch of the skin, it was all there in his head, committed like it was a sacred text. You were completely unhidden, and you trustingly offered yourself to him with nothing but openness, and it was breathtaking to him.
âJesusâŚâ He said quietly, like your body was rewriting something inside him. He reached up and touched the soft skin of your stomach, the tips of his fingers tracing along your navel, before his eyes met yours again, revealing the beautiful haze of blue blurring together with the specks of orange that lived there. You brought your hand up to his face, caressing his cheek carefully, running your thumb just below his eye.
âYouâre so beautifulâŚâ You whispered, feeling Bobâs fingers curling beneath the waistband of your shorts.
âAnd youâre immaculateâŚâ He responded, slowly tugging your shorts down, his eyes never leaving yours as he did it. He just wanted to look at you, to take you in, to hold you close until you didnât want to be held by him anymore. He wanted you so bad he felt like he was going to explode, and the heat in the washroom wasnât helping him control that. The shorts dropped around your ankles with a soft flutter, and you stepped out of them slowly, brushing your hand down to his jaw.
âIâll meet you in the shower,â Your voice was low and soft like a promise. Then you turned, and walked behind the frosted glass, sliding the door shut in one swift movement. Steam swirled around you like a second skin as you stepped fully beneath the stream of water. It hit your scalp first, then your shoulders, pouring down your body in comforting waves. The warmth soaked into your tense muscles and melted along your spine, rinsing away the leftover ache of your fever and the lingering hum of restraint youâd been nursing for the last hour.
From beyond the frosted glass, you saw movement. Bob had gotten up and walked over to the alarm, clicking it off with a single beepâbecause what was a minute going to do for him. Then you heard the shuffle of bare feet on tile, followed by the soft rustling of clothes dropping. You could see his shadow moving, leaning down then straightening up again, seeing him step out of his sweatpants and his underwear before reaching for the handle.
He slid the door open and stepped into the steam. You could see him squinting at the change in scenery, until his eyes caught yours. Under the dimmed lighting that the shower had you looked ethereal, like a siren calling to him to come closer. You tilted your head at him.
âRemember, we gotta wash your hair out first.â Bob nodded silently, too stunned to speak or protest, and stepped closer to you until he was right against you, letting the water cascade down his body. You reached up without hesitation, brushing your fingers along the slope of his neck as you cupped his jaw gently, feeling the very faint stubble against your fingertips.
âClose your eyes,â You murmured, and he obeyed immediately, trusting you with all of him. You reached for the bottle of shampoo, flipping the cap open with a soft click. The scent was clean, crispâsomething like cedar and citrusâand you poured a generous amount into your palm before lathering it between your fingers. He hunched forward slightly to help you because of the height difference, the muscles in his back bunching as he bent, his hands braced loosely on his thighs.
Your fingers found his scalp and began to move, slow and deliberate, massaging through the dye-stiffened strands with practiced ease. His breath hitched at the first touchâsoft and barely audible over the rush of waterâbut he relaxed into you, the tension easing from his shoulders as you worked through his hair, your nails dragging along his scalp gently, sending shivers down his spine despite the warmth of the shower that was smothering him.
He tried to peek down at you through his lashes, but flinched the moment some suds landed on his brow. You caught the twitch of frustration in his mouth and grinned faintly to yourself.
âNo peeking,â You teased, your voice low and sultry, âYouâll get soap in your eyes, and thatâll just prolong the process.â You added, with a smirk.
âI-Iâm not peeking,â He muttered back, clearly lying.
But while he couldnât see you, you saw everything.
Your eyes dropped as your fingers moved through his hair, and your gaze caught on the rest of himâcompletely, gloriously bare under the waterâs fall. And it hit you like a weight to the chest.
He was hard. Completely, achingly hard.
It curved upward from between his thighs, thick and flushed and dripping from the spray. Your breath caught in your throat involuntarily. He wasâŚBig. The kind of big that made your pulse thrum deep in your core, the kind that made something flutter behind your ribcage. The kind of big that made you a bit nervous. His thighs were braced, strong and trembling slightly as the water poured down over both of you, and yet he stayed stillâeyes closed, waiting, unaware of just how deeply you were watching him.
You swallowed, trying not to stare too longâbut your fingers slowed in his hair for just a beat before you lathered more shampoo and brought it back to the roots, working it all through. You focused on your task, rinsing gently, letting the water carry away the suds and the last traces of harsh dye. As the dark rivulets streamed down and swirled at your feet, the natural color beneath began to reveal itself.
The soft brown, the colour that belonged to him, and only him. Not the Sentry.
You smoothed your hands through the damp strands with a smile on your face, and you could feel him relax further at the calmness of your touch.
âThere you are,â You whispered, more to yourself than to him, âBack to youâŚâ You could see his brows lift slightly at your words, still not opening his eyes.
ââŚW-What does it look like?â He asked softly.
âLike itâs all youâŚItâs perfect BobâŚâ You responded, seeing his eyes slowly flutter open, the soft blue still burning with those beautiful flecks of orange from the Sentry. When they locked on yours, something in him snapped completely, and he blinked a few times, steadying himself against you.
ââŚCan I kiss you now?â He whispered, breath catching in his throat.
You nodded.
And the second you did, he surged forward, his hands finding your face like heâd been aching to hold you there for days. His palms were warm and a little shaky, fingers threading gently into the damp strands of your hair as he tilted your head just right. He kissed you like it was the only thing that would quiet the trembling in his chestâdeep, and full of the kind of hunger that had nowhere else to go.
His lips parted against yours with a soft sigh, molding to your mouth like he already knew every shape of it. You responded in kind, letting your hands press flat to his chest before sliding up, feeling the slick heat of his skin, the steady thump of his heart beneath your palms. One hand drifted upward to cradle the back of his neck, the other anchoring at his side.
Bob shifted, pulling you flush against him, his hands sliding down to your waist, gripping gently as he tilted his head and deepened the kiss. There was nothing hesitant about it anymoreâonly quiet desperation, the need to be close, the need to feel you pressed against every inch of him. His thumbs rubbed slow, anchoring circles against your ribs as he kissed you over and over, his breath catching between each one like he couldnât quite get enough.
You felt your knees wobble when he sucked your bottom lip into his mouth, and he steadied you instantly, one hand sliding down to the back of your thigh, coaxing your leg to lift so he could hold you open against him.
You gasped softly into his mouth when he did itâbecause now you could feel all of him. His length, hot and heavy, brushing between your thighs. But he didnât push it. He just held you there, breathing hard through his nose as his mouth broke from yours for a second, bumping his forehead with yours.
âI-I have to touch youâŚCan I p-please touch you?â His words vibrated against your chest, shaky from the kiss he had just pulled away from. Immediately you nodded, drunk off of the way he held you, the way he kissed you so desperately. You were his, and you wanted him just as badly as he wanted you.
He dropped his hand from your thigh, keeping his eyes locked on yours as he guided you back, each step careful, like he was afraid to rush a single second of this. The warm tile met your spine gently, as the steam curled around your shouldersâlike it was dying to be part of the moment too. Your chest rose and fell with shallow breaths, the anticipation tugging at you like a puppet.
Bobâs hand, still curled gently around your hip, gave it one reassuring squeeze before sliding away. The loss of his hand made you let out a desperate sigh, wanting to feel him again. He looked down at you as he brought his fingers up to his lips, his tongue darting out of his mouth to coat the tips of them slowly, not for show, but for purpose. For you. His gaze never dropped from yours as he did it, and when his hand fell again between the both of you, he didnât hesitate.
His knee eased your thighs apart gently, and then his fingers found your clit. The first contact made your knees buckle slightly, and he caught it, pressing in with his knee to steady you, his free hand braced against the wall beside your head. His touch was gentle at firstâsoft circles, slow and attentive. You gasped, head tipping back, exposing your throat without thinking.
That was all the invitation Bob needed.
He leaned forward and pressed his mouth to the base of your neck, just where your collarbone met your shoulder. The kiss was wet and open-mouthed, like he needed to taste you and the saltiness of your skin. He breathed in like he could anchor himself in your scent. Another kiss, and another, working up the side of your neck as his fingers circled your clit with more confidence now, slick from the water and his spit, moving with practiced pressure.
âSoâŚSo soft,â He whispered into your skin, voice shaking, âSo goddamn softâŚâ Your breath caught as his pace shifted. You could feel your body respondingâarching into him, a wet heat building between your legs. You whimpered, and that sound nearly undid him. His teeth grazed your neck but didnât bite, his lips returning to kiss it better as if he could soothe the tremble in your body.
Then his fingers dipped lower, and he felt it immediately.
You were soakedâslick, warm, and pulsing beneath his touch. His breath hitched at the sensation, at the way your body welcomed him without hesitation. And when he eased two fingers inside of you ever so slowly you gasped, arching into his hand like your body had been waiting for that very moment.
âF-fuck,â You breathed, the word slipping out as your nails found purchase in his shoulders. You clawed at him instinctively, dragging across the muscle there, needing something to anchor you while he pushed them in deeper. He didnât flinch at the scratchâhe moaned. A soft, broken sound that came from the back of his throat like he liked the way it felt, like it made him feel wanted in the most primal sense.
His forehead dropped against your shoulder, his mouth kissing along your collarbone with a tenderness that contrasted the stretch of his fingers inside you. He mouthed at the skin thereâkissed it, licked it, sucked until it was sensitive and bruised. He pulled back looking at the little love bites, each one tinged with hunger. Bob wasnât the possessive type but there was this ache in his chest to mark you as his, and even if the water washed it away, he wanted to be sure he left something on your skin.
âY-You feel so warmâŚâ He said, his voice fraying at the edges. His fingers curled gently inside you, causing your knees to buckle again. Your body shuddered as the pads of his fingers dragged against that spot inside of you that made your entire frame light up. Bobâs hand moved to your hip, keeping you steady as his other hand worked in smooth, slow thrusts, each one more confident than the last. He found a rhythm, watching you, studying every moan and gasp like it was gospel.
And when you whimpered his name, when your body clenched around him so tight he had to grit his teeth, he gave a quiet, shaky laughâutterly wrecked by how responsive you were.
âYouâre gonna come for me, arenât you?â he asked, lips brushing your ear, breath heavy and hot. âI can feel itâŚGod, I can feel you squeezing meâŚâ
You nodded, unable to form a word, your nails biting into his shoulders again as your hips rocked against his hand.
Bob adjusted his angle, changing the pressure, and thatâs when you saw stars.
Your head dropped forward, forehead against his collarbone, the air thick with steam and the sharp scent of himâclean, masculine, tinged with desperation. His fingers moved faster, wetter, the slick sounds between your legs obscene and perfect, echoing between the tiles. He was muttering praise nowâsoft, reverent things that fell from his lips like prayers.
âJust like that, babyâso good for me⌠Youâre doing so goodâfeels like heavenâfuck, I want to see you fall apartâŚâ
You felt it hit like a wave rolling up your spine.
A tight, burning coil of pleasure twisted inside you and then snapped. You gaspedâloud, broken, as the climax ripped through you. You trembled, back arching hard into him as your thighs clenched and a rush of wetness gushed out around his fingers.
Bob stilled for a second in awe.
ââŚOh my God,â He breathed, stunned, his eyes wide as he held you through it. You collapsed into him, breath heaving, skin flushed and shining under the steam. He kept his fingers buried inside you, not moving, just holding you close, letting you ride it out as you trembled against his chest.
He looked down between you both, seeing the slick mess on his hand, the way your body had responded so violently to himâand his mouth dropped open slightly. Not because of shock, but because of wonder and awe.
âYouâŚYou did so good.â He praised, his voice barely holding together under the weight of what he just experienced with you. His lips brushed your temple first, then your cheek, before finally reaching your mouth.
The kiss wasnât hungry nor urgent, it was adoration in its purest form. His lips moved like they were tasting something heâd only ever imaginedâcareful and soft, like he was trying not to overwhelm you. He trembled against you, being crushed from everything unspoken between you. His hand was still between your thighs, cradling you like something precious, and you could feel how hard he was, pressed just barely against you, restrained only by the shivering line of self-control that hadnât yet broken.
When he finally, carefully, slipped his fingers out of you, you let out the tiniest gasp from the absenceâbut before he could fully draw away, you grabbed his wrist.
He was still in his movements.
Your eyes met his, holding steady as you lifted his handâand then you took his soaked fingers into your mouth.
Bob made a sound that almost didnât make it out of himâa soft, wrecked sigh that died at the back of his throat. His lips parted slightly, eyes darkening as he watched you suck him clean, your mouth warm and wet, tongue dragging along the pads of his fingers slowly, like you were claiming every last drop of yourself from his skin.
He could barely breathe.
You kept eye contact the whole time. It wasnât a power playâit was intimacy. Connection. And it unraveled him.
Once you were done, you let his fingers slip from your mouth with a soft pop, and he dragged themâslow and reverentâdown your chin. Then your throat. The hollow of your chest. His fingertips were wet with saliva, and he trailed it down like he was painting youâsmearing it across your sternum, over your ribs, and finally down to your hips.
âY/NâŚYouâre soâŚSo perfect,â He whispered, in disbelief, shaking his head as his hands ran down your waist, going straight to your thighs, before lifting you effortlessly. You let out a soft breath as your legs bracketed around his hips instinctively, your arms wrapping around his shoulders for balance.
He pressed a gentle kiss to the middle of your chest, and his voice came out barely above the noise of the shower
âDo you want toâŚStill have sex with me?â You looked down at him, caressing the side of his neck.
âOf course I do,â You responded instantly.
Your lips found his right afterâsoft and sure. You kissed him with everything you had, as if answering his question with your entire body. His breath caught, his hands clutching at your thighs with a startled need, grounding himself in the reality that you werenât going to vanish, that you really did want thisâwant him.
As the kiss deepened, you felt one of his hands slowly slide down your thigh, tickling the skin, but this time there was a purpose in his touch. He shifted beneath you slightly, and then you felt itâthe soft brush of his tip against you. Hot. Heavy. And trembling in his grasp.
You broke the kiss for just a breath, resting your forehead against his, your eyes fluttering shut as he lined himself up. His hand shook slightly, like he couldnât believe this was happening. Like he was terrified of getting it wrong. But he didnât rush. And neither did you.
âI want you,â You said, your breath warm against his mouth. âAll of you.â Bob let out a wrecked whimper from his mouth, before kissing you once more.
Then slowly he began to push in, moving his hips gently.
Your mouth parted in a silent gasp, your eyes flying open as your body stretched to take him. It was so muchâthick and deep and slow. He paused when he was just a couple inches in, his forehead still pressed to yours, panting.
âIs that okay?â He asked, voice cracking. âIâI can stop if itâs too muchâŚâ
You shook your head immediately, curling your fingers into his shoulders, drawing him closer.
âNo. Please donât stop.â
Bob exhaled a breath that shook all the way down to his spine, then kissed you againâslow, sweetâbefore sinking deeper inside.
You both moaned at the same time, and your tongues met in between the space your mouths made.
It was like he was imprinting himself into every inch of you. His hands gripped your hips with the kind of gentleness that made your chest ache, guiding your body until he was fully seated inside you, hips pressed flush against yours.
âOhâŚGod.â He whispered, eyes squeezed shut, trembling as he held still. âYouâre soâŚSo perfect⌠I canâtâGodââ
You kissed his jaw, whispering against the sensitive skin just beneath his ear. âYouâre okay, Bob. Youâre doing so goodâŚâ
He began to moveâshallow at first, rocking his hips into you in slow, reverent strokes. Each one pulled a quiet gasp from your lips. The water cascaded around you both, steam curling at your shoulders as you clung to him, your body humming in time with his.
He found a slow and steady rhythm, thrusting as deep as possible with each movement of his hips.
He kissed you everywhere he could reachâyour cheek, your mouth, your jaw, the slope of your shoulder and his praise was neverending. Whispered fragments between kisses and gasps.
âYouâre so beautifulâŚâ
âYou feel so good around meâŚâ
âI want to make you feel everythingâŚâ
Your hands were tangled in his hair, your body arching to meet every thrust, until your forehead was pressed to his again and your breaths mingled in the tight space between you. Each slow movement of his hips sent sparks crawling up your spine and you rocked against him, chasing every moment, trying to keep it from ending too soon.
Bob looked completely undone in front of you though. His mouth open, cheeks flushed, hands gripping your waist like you were his lifeline.
Then his thrusts started to falter.
You felt it in the way he gaspedâsharp and helplessâthe way his hold on you tightened and his voice pitched higher.
âIâY/N, Iâoh God, Iâmââ
You kissed him, hard, your voice hot against his mouth. âItâs okay. Let go. Iâve got you.â
He came with a broken gasp.
The lights flickered.
Just onceâflicker, flicker, blackâand then back on again. The overhead bulb buzzed faintly, a hum that matched the pulse of his release as his hips jerked forward, holding deep inside you while his whole body tensed. You could feel the warmth filling you in thick ropes, his body instinctively pushing up into you as if he was trying to keep it from spilling out.
And then he went still.
Completely, and utterly still.
He stayed buried in you, face tucked into the crook of your neck, breath hot and ragged as the water pounded softly over your bodies. You felt the way he trembled, felt the heat of his skin and the wild thud of his heart against yours.
He didnât move for a long time, he just stayed there, clutching you like you were the one thing that was bringing him down slowly.
And then you felt itâthe slow exhale against your neck, the soft tremor that followed. His voice came out low, cracked with embarrassment.
âI-Iâm sorry,â he whispered, still breathless. âThat was so fast. I didnât mean to-God, I just couldnât hold itâŚâ
You pulled back, just enough to see his face, his brows drawn together with worry, his mouth still parted from the weight of what just passed between you. And yet, even flushed and wrecked, he looked beautiful. Lit up from the inside out, like he still couldnât believe any of this was real.
You shook your head gently and brought your hand up to brush a damp lock of hair off his forehead, tucking it behind his ear with the same tenderness he gave you. âYou didnât finish too fast, Bob.â
He blinked, lips parting like he didnât believe you.
You leaned forward and pressed a kiss to the corner of his mouth, then whispered against his skin, âYou were perfect. I loved every second of itâŚBecause it was with you.â His features softened at your word, that shy smile blooming across his lips, one you felt in your ribs. You saw the glow of it before you felt his body move. He kissed you again, this time gentler, slowerâlike he wanted to say thank you with his whole mouth.
Then, carefully, he pulled out of you. You both shivered a bit at the sensitivity, and you caught the way his brows knit together, like he didnât want to stop touching you. But your body welcomed the shift, and your legs dropped from his hips as the moment passed, leaving behind only warmth and steam.
He reached for you instinctively, his hands skimming your waist like he was still trying to keep you close, like he couldnât quite accept that you were separate again. You smiled at him, brushing your fingers along his jaw, watching the way he leaned into the contact, like it was his oxygen.
âYou really like touching me, huh?â You teased lightly, watching his cheeks turn a deeper red, the corners of his mouth curling up shyly.
ââŚYeahâŚI really do.â He admitted. You let out a soft laugh, then looked toward the water still streaming from the showerhead behind him.
âAs much as Iâd love to stay in here and get all wrinkly,â You said, thumb brushing the hollow of his cheek, âIf we donât rinse off soon, the compoundâs water bill is gonna bankrupt Valentina.â Bob let out a breathy laugh, head dropping against your shoulder for a second.
âI guess youâre right, but once we get cleaned upâŚI want to just lay on the couch with you and hold you for a little whileâŚIf thatâs okay?â You nodded.
âOf course itâs okay.â You replied, guiding him under the steady stream of water. You each took turns, helping the other wash up. He was gentle when he touched your body as if you hadnât just taken him completely inside you minutes ago, and he ran his hands over the marks he had made on you, smiling proudly at his work. You matched his care, running soapy fingers down his spine, over his shoulders, through the strands of his newly darkened hair, rinsing the last of the evidence down the drain.
And when the water finally cooled, you stepped out first, digging around the towel closet for a spare. Bob followed right after, grabbing the one that he usually used, with steam rolling off his shoulders, making the air thick and warm as he wrapped the towel around his waist, pausing by the foggy mirror, wiping it off with his hand.
You watched from the side, pulling your towel around you gently, as he lifted his gaze slowlyâlike he wasnât sure what would be staring back at him. When he caught his own reflection, something shifted in his expression.
A smile. One of relief. Like a weight had been lifted off his chest.
You stepped behind him, and gently kissed his shoulder, looking at the small little scratch marks you had left on him.
He turned toward you slightly, reached out, and pressed a soft, grateful kiss to your lipsâbarely more than a breath, but brimming with emotion.
âThank you,â he murmured.
You smiled into him, nose brushing his. âDonât thank me yet,â You whispered. âI hope you donât get the flu from all of this.â
He laughed, his eyes shining as he bumped his forehead against yours.
âIf I do,â He said, âItâll be worth every damn minute.â
And then he kissed you again.
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*on a mission*
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*meanwhile back at the Watchtower with Bob looking for you, swaddled in a blanket, on the brink of crying*
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Summary: Domestic scenes with Bucky Barnes, because Bucky Barnes deserves to be HAPPY.
A/N: I have returned to pray at the altar of James Buchanan Barnes. Thunderbolts dropped and flooded my insta feed. Oh, how past me would have rejoiced in all of this Bucky content.
Word count: 3.1k
Warnings: fluff, implications of smut, language, possible misinformation about various contraceptive devices (please inform yourselves lol)
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Bucky Barnes was the fist of Hydra.Â
Heâd spent decades being shaped into the perfect assetâruthless, detached, the ultimate killing machine. He was cruel. He was dangerous. He was violent.
Heâd been tortured. Heâd been torn apart and stitched back together, and only when barely an inkling of the man he used to be remained, theyâd set him loose on the world.
It was almost funny, Bucky thought now as he looked down at his working hands. To think what this armâthis near indestructible artificial limbâhad been created for. It had squeezed the life from many a target, had pulled the triggers of guns and survived explosions. It had brought unspeakable pain upon his victims.
And yet âŚ
âNot too tight, Bucky.â
Her voice had come quietly, softly, and from where he sat on the edge of the bed, Bucky could tell that her eyes had slipped closed a while ago. She sat on the floor between his legs, with her own legs crossed and her back straight.
Bucky loosened his grip at once, the strands of her hair now looser in his palms.
âLike this?â he asked, only taking his eyes off her face once an approving hum resonated through her chest.
âPerfect.â
A smile tugged on the corners of his lips as he went back to work. Right strand over, pull the middle to the right, then repeat with the left. It was tough to keep each of the three strands separatedânimble work, delicate. This was his second attempt after the first had ended in a merging of the left and the middle strand. It had been chaos.
âI canât believe you manage to do this behind your head,â he spoke quietly, fingers moving a little faster with every inch he managed to braid successfully.
âYears of practice.â There was a smile in her voice. It warmed Buckyâs chest. âHey, Buck?â
He hummed to signal that he was listening, concentrating on getting the bottom of the braid right. Sheâd warned him that it could get tricky to avoid shorter strands of hair from sticking out at the side.
âWould you mind running to the store later?â
ââCourse not, doll,â he mumbled, sucking his bottom lip between his teeth as he pinched the end of her braid between his fingers to carefully slip on the hair tie he kept on his wrist. It was one of his, but ever since heâd cut his hair, he didnât need them anymore, and so theyâd long been adopted by Y/N, merging with her own hair accessories in the small bathroom they shared.
When he finished, he carefully draped the braid over her shoulder, succumbing to the urge to touch her with a single finger brushing along her neck.
âWhat do you think?â
Delicate fingers found the braid, and Y/N turned her head far enough to peek down at his work. Bucky found himself holding his breath in anticipation of her verdict.
When she looked up at him, she offered a smile. It was the wide kindâthe beaming kind. It was the kind to touch the corners of her eyes and have Buckyâs heart stutter in a way that would be worrying if it wasnât for the serum in his veins that pretty much prevented cardiac arrest.
âPerfect job, baby,â she said, craning her neck towards him. Bucky smiled when he leaned forward to meet her in a kiss.
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Left hand clutching the handle of the shopping basket, Bucky stuck to an empty aisle to study the yellow post-it note sheâd written him.
Granola
Eggs (2 dozen)
Apples
Tomatoes
Grated cheese (Gouda or Cheddar)
Toothpaste (2x)
Tampons
Ice cream (!!!)
He smirked at the three exclamation marks behind ice cream, carved deep enough into the paper to leave grooves on the other side. There was exactly one type of ice cream she loved, and ever since heâd bought the wrong one once, sheâd taken to reminding him on every note she wrote.
By now, he knew the layout of the supermarket well enough that he could find his way in the dark. They were good for him, these mundane tasks. He needed routine, needed something to do. It gave him peace to do something that was important but did not include guns, or bombs, or mission reports. It gave him peace to function in this little bubble he inhabited with Y/N.
He stood before the shelf with the period products now, two cartons with a dozen eggs each already secured in his basket. They were mainly for him. He ate four each morning.
Bucky could not recall a time when he didnât know everything there was to know about the absorbency of Tampons. He knew the brands, knew the sizes, knew that Y/N preferred the ones without the applicator because she thought the extra piece of plastic was an unnecessary waste.
Two purple boxes fell into his basket before he moved on to the ice box.
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The headboard pressed into Buckyâs back as he held out the tub of ice cream for Y/N to dig her spoon in. Theyâd agreed it was best he hold it, as his was the only hand that would not eventually freeze.
He loved these moments with her. He lived for them.
She lay next to him, one leg stretched before her, the other bend at the knee. She was wearing one of his shirts and a thick pair of socks, leaning most of her weight against his shoulder. Bucky found it soothing.
âItâs one of the only options without hormones,â she explained before her spoon vanished into her mouth, then adding with her mouth full, âBut itâs supposed to hurt like a bitch when they put it in.â
Bucky gave a grunt, scraping some off the top of the ice cream with his own spoon. âI read that it increases bleeding. Makes your cramps worse, too.â
âWell, that only leaves hormonal birth control then.â
Bucky frowned.
It had taken some explaining for Bucky to fully understand the intricacies of new age contraception, but he found that he didnât like the idea of something messing with her hormonesâwith her health.
âThereâs nothing I could take?â
She thought about it for a moment, lips clasped tightly around her spoon. The sight almost took Buckyâs mind off the topic at hand. Almost.
âAfraid not,â she finally said with a small sigh through her nose. âUnless you want to get snipped,â she added with a pained smile.
Bucky offered her the tub and watched as she dug a large spoonful from the centre.
âI might be sterile anyway, darlinâ,â he finally said quietly.
Theyâd spoken about itâthe possibility that the serum had done some irreversible damage to Buckyâs system. Heâd already gotten tested before heâd met her, but it had been hard for the doctors to tell. No one was accustomed to a super soldier organism. The best theyâd been able to tell him was that it was likely either one extreme or the other.
âSterile or super-soldier-fertile,â Y/N repeated what heâd told her. âAnd your body would likely just heal you if you got a vasectomy.â
Bucky tilted his head as he looked at her. âI donât actually mind us using condoms.â
It had been Y/N whoâd brought up the possibility for her to start taking birth control, but Bucky could not quite shake the feeling that sheâd mentioned it mainly for his sake.
Y/N hummed in thought, lifting her free hand to push her fingers through his hair, tugging gently at the ends. Buckyâs eyes slipped close for just a second.
âForever?â she asked pensively, pursing her lips. âIt seems easier for me to just get something permanent. An implant, or an IUD.â A thought crossed her mind then, and she narrowed her eyes at him with interest. âWhat did you do in the 40s?â
Bucky pulled a face. âAh, couldnât tell ya. Pulled out and hoped for the best.â
Truth be told, Bucky had never really bothered with it back in his youth. Heâd known that they were experimenting with jellies and creamsâheâd heard it from a girl heâd been going out with. Thereâd been condoms of course, but they werenât nearly as common as they were nowadays, and frankly Bucky wouldnât have been able to afford them even if they had been.
Y/N snorted. It was a delightful sound.
âSo what youâre telling me is you might have some unknown descendants scattered around the world?â
Bucky smirked down at the ice cream, a cold drop of water trickling in between the vibranium tiles of his hand.
âI wouldâve heard,â he said. âWasnât like I was sleeping with the whole neighbourhood.â
She hummed, grinning when she pressed her nose into his cheek. âI donât believe you for one second. Not with that charm of yours.â
âI donât want you taking hormones,â Bucky said suddenly, turning to meet Y/Nâs gaze. âNot for me. I read some horror stories online, doll. About blood clots, embolisms, heart attacks. I know theyâre rare, but I would never forgive myself if something happened.â
She considered him for a moment, smiling when she lifted a hand to squeeze his chin between her thumb and index finger.
âOkay,â she breathed. âCondoms it is then.â
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âI canât believe this!â
There was anger in her voice, a deep crease between her brows when she turned to look at Bucky, throwing her arms up in exasperation.
âYou are one hundred years old,â she snapped. âHow are you this fucking good at Mario Kart?!â
Bucky felt his lip twist at the corners, smirking as he flicked through the different racetracks on screen. Theyâd been playing for a little over an hour, and so far, Bucky had managed to beat her in every single round, scoring first place with a substantial lead each time.
âHow about this snowy one next?â
At her silence, he turned to find a deadpan expression adorning her features.
âYes, Bucky,â she said, words dripping with sarcasm. âLetâs do the fucking snow track.â
Bucky couldnât stop his grin from widening, reaching out his human hand to pinch her cheek. âYouâre adorable when youâre competitive.â
Swatting after his hand, Y/N harrumphed and turned back towards the TV. She sat straight-backed as a soldier with her legs crossed beneath her, while Bucky lay back against the couch with his legs stretched out on the plush ottoman before him.
âIâm just saying it doesnât make sense,â she muttered to herself. âYou pause Netflix movies by clicking the pause button with your cursor. You shouldnât be this good at a video game.â
Bucky snorted, pushing at her shoulder with the back of his wrist, to which her cheeks lifted, betraying her grin despite her attempts to hide it.
âTodayâs youth is rude,â Bucky muttered.
He thought he heard her giggle, which had warmth seep through his chest. But of course, it felt nothing as good as the rush of triumph he experienced at the large golden 1 appearing on his side of the screen after a few minutes spent racing in concentrated silence.
âUnbelievable,â Y/N half-yelled at the TV, waving her hands so much, Bucky feared for a moment that her controller would go flying into the screen. âUn. Fucking. Believable.â
While Buckyâs little green dinosaur celebrated by waving from his motorcycle, Bucky lifted a shoulder. âIâm a good driver.â
âThis game in no way reflects real life driving skills.â
âSure, it does.â
Y/N opened her mouth, and Bucky could tell that she was readying herself to argue. Before she could, however, he discarded his controller and wrapped his arm around her waist to pull her down towards him.
At once, she began to laugh, struggling against his grip as he attempted to wrestle the controller from her hands.
âYou need a time out,â Bucky announced, dodging her elbows as she attempted to keep the controller out of his reach.
âOne more!â she gasped, twisting and turning in Buckyâs hold, giggling as she did so. âI need to beat you at least once.â
âYouâre gonna have a heart attack with that road rage of yours.â
She scoffed in mock outrage, but Bucky lowered his lips to hers before she could continue. She was laughing against him, wiggling when he finally got hold of her controller without looking, pushing at his shoulder when he began to scatter small kisses across her face.
But with every second, her resistance lessened, her body melting into his hold, her laughter softening into amused hums, until finally, her fingers curled into the hair on the back of Buckyâs head, and she met his lips with enthusiasm. Her controllerâfinally acquired, but already long forgottenâslipped from Buckyâs grip to clatter to the ground.
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Buckyâs fingers pressed into the flesh of her hips, jaw tight and head tilted back into a pillow as the tension in his body slowly ebbed away to make room for a comfortable, cushy daze that warmed his body from head to toe.
She shook in his hands, the last of her breath rushing from her lungs in a hitched gasp. She tensed, thighs pressing firmly on the sides of his hips, and then it seemed her bones turned into something soft, pliable, as her body sank to his for her lips to rest in the crook of his neck.
For a moment, there was just their shared breathing to be heardâfast, choppy, warm. Bucky lifted his head only far enough to peer over her shoulder, watching the black metal of his hand detach itself from her skin without a mark left behind. Ever since those first times, those first bruises when he hadnât yet gotten used to the strength of his arm in a context such as this, he paid extra attention.
With a soft groan, she pushed to her hands to look down at him with a glint in her eye. Bucky pushed the hair from her face, running his thumb along a swollen bottom lip, along the bridge of her nose, and the arch of her cheekbone.
Y/N pushed her face deeper into his palm, eyes slipping shut.
âI wonât ever get tired of this,â she breathed, to which Bucky smirked.
âI sure hope you wonât, dollface.â
Her nose scrunched at the drawled pet name. Sheâd always found it corny, but the corners of her lips curled higher nonetheless.
âIâmââ
âHungry,â Bucky finished, sitting up with a groan of his own, one arm curled behind her back. âCominâ right up.â
Y/N gasped in mock offence. âThatâs not what I was going to say!â
Bucky rose a single brow, one arm pushing into the mattress behind him to keep him upright. She was always hungry after. Sometimes more, sometimes less. But most times ended in a late night snack shared on the couch, in the kitchen, in their bed.
âWhat were you going to say, then?â
She pursed her lips, letting a few seconds tick by silently, and Bucky knew then and there that she had nothing.
âI wanted to say,â she declared importantly, lifting her hands to hold his face between her palms. âThat Iâm in love with you.â
âIâm in love with you too, darlinâ.â Bucky couldnât help his rising cheeks. âIâm just gonna lay back down thenââ
âAnd also,â she interrupted, pausing by kissing him deep enough for his mind to buzz when she pulled back with a satisfied smirk. âThat I might just be a teensy bit hungry.â
A husky laugh slipped from Buckyâs throat, and with his arms wrapping around her tightly, he stood in a swift move, taking her with him as he went.
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âSo what Iâm saying is,â Y/N said, swinging her legs as she lifted another piece of orange to her lips, chewing as she continued. âWhile I do agree that a beach vacation would be nice, I think going to Scotland would be a lot more interesting.â
Bucky kept his attention on the board before him, chopping tomatoes into somewhat uniform little cubes as he listened. She sat not far to his left on the countertop. The smell of citrus crawled up his nose.
âIt rains a lot in Scotland.â
âYes, but think of the castles. The highlands. The cows.â
âIf we go to Portugal, we could lay in the sun all day. Swim. Fool around.â
An amused sound left her throat, her thumb pushing into the orange to break off another piece. She held it out to him, and Bucky leaned over to take it with his teeth.
âFool around?â she giggled. âWhat are we, teenagers? Besides, we can do that anywhere. And it would be a lot cozier in a little hut in the highlands when itâs raining.â
Bucky weighed his head from side to side, considering her words.
âThink about it,â she added. âOne is sweaty, sticky, and hot; the other is cozy and cuddly.â
âI honestly canât tell which of those you think is the less desirable option.â
She laughed at that, chewing while Bucky scattered the tomatoes into the pan already holding a still liquid layer of egg, followed by shredded cheese, salt and pepper.
âI thought you didnât like heat.â
âWhat made you think that?â
There was a moment of silence.
âWell, you always kick away the blankets, and you never notice when itâs too cold in a room. I thought it was part of the whole supersoldier shebang.â
Bucky rose a shoulder. âI donât mind heat. Especially not when a pretty dame is involved.â
She burst out laughing at that, and Bucky smiled as he watched from the corner of his eye.
âFine, fine. You win, Barnes,â she chuckled, offering him another piece of orange that he took with a quick kiss to the back of her hand. âI will fool around with you at the beach. But if we get kicked out of Portugal for public indecency, weâre going to the highlands.â
âDeal.â
After flipping the omelette with a skilled flick of the pan, Bucky folded it in half and placed it carefully on a nearby plate. Y/N beamed as he handed it to her.
âYouâre the bestest,â she said, craning her neck for a kiss. âThank you.â
Bucky stepped between her legs, opening his mouth when she offered him a forkful of omelette, already chewing herself. His palms found her thighs, her skin covered by a plush bathrobe to match his own in both colour and pattern.
The fist of Hydra, standing in a dimly lit kitchen with his love and an omelette. He could get used to thisâhe already had gotten used to thisâand as he looked down at the black metal thumb he ran along the smooth skin of a thigh, he wondered how this limb had ever been used for something other than making omelettes for his love.
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A/N: Can you believe it's been three whole years since I wrote a Bucky fic????? TF
Pairing: Bob Reynolds x Reader
Summary:
This time, in a sudden pfft, it sprays something directly into both of your facesâa cloud of shimmering mist exploding into the air. It smells sweet... too sweet. Like overripe fruit or syrup, or cotton candy left in the sun. Almost sickly. Bob coughs, waving his hand in front of his face. âWhat was that?â âA defence mechanism, perhapsââ you begin, but your voice trails off as something shifts. The stem starts to grow, elongating right before your eyes, inch by inch. Then, like something out of a sci-fi movie, thin tendrils begin sprouting from the base, curling and stretching like green tentacles. âOkay, what kind of flower shop did you go to?â you ask, backing up a step. Bobâs eyes are locked on it in horror. âI donât know! I swear it looked normal! The lady had an apron!â Or Youâve been the live-in doctor at Avengers Tower for a year, and Bob wants to get you something special to celebrate. Unbeknownst to him, that something special turns out to be a sex plant.Â
Tags/Warnings: 18+ Explicit content, sex plant, sex pollen, p in v, cowgirl/reverse cowgirl, crazy thoughts from horny!reader, Bob's good intentions backfiring
A/N: I saw Thunderbolts earlier this week, and I felt compelled to write something! My Marvel obsession is so back, and Iâm so in love with Bob, and consuming so much Thunderbolts fanfiction, I think Iâm genuinely going crazy
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Bob teeters on his heels as he looks around the flower shop. He was here to get a gift for you, but he had no idea what you would like. Then, while browsing the camellias, a woman appears, half scaring the life out of him, asking him what heâs looking for, and he tells her as best he knows how.
âIâm looking for something special for someone special.â
âSpecial, huh?â She replies with a mischievous smile, âI have just the flower for you.â
He watches as she disappears into the recesses of the shop and wonders if heâs making the right decision.Â
You were important to him, but maybe flowers were too much; perhaps you would see right through it and see the feelings he was trying (and failing) to hide. The whole team could see it. Alexei kept giving him unsolicited âand mostly unhelpfulâ advice about it, while John and Ava never missed a chance to tease him whenever they caught him gawking at you. And Yelena and Bucky tried their best to nudge him forward in their own ways; Yelena with blunt encouragement, Bucky with quieter, knowing looks and the occasional grunt that somehow conveyed volumes.
But Bob remained resolute, content with just admiring you from afar.
At least, thatâs what he told himself.
Ever since you were introduced to the team as their live-in doctor, he knew he didnât stand a chance. You were a ray of sunshine. Exceptional at your job and had this strange but beautiful quality where you could make anyone feel at ease within seconds of meeting them.Â
He felt it firsthand when he walked into the med bay in the Tower. You were sitting there, clipboard in hand, and welcomed him in with a warm smile, motioning for him to sit. He obeyed without a word, nerves already prickling beneath his skin.
âIâm just going to take some blood samples, okay?â you said gently.
His eyes darted around the roomâwhite, sterile walls, the faint smell of antiseptic in the air. Tests didnât often lead to good things in his experience, and he felt that this one would be no different. His posture stiffened, and his breath was shallow. But as if sensing his unease, you placed a hand on his arm, steady, reassuring.
âIf youâre feeling uncomfortable, Iâm right here. And if you want me to stop, you just go right ahead and tell me.â
Bob nodded slowly, looking into your eyesâyour beautiful, beautiful eyes that somehow made the rest of the world fade to background noise.
âI just need you to take some deep breaths for me, can you do that?â
You looked at him with such gentle care, and for a moment, he felt like heâd known you longer than just a minute. It felt crazy how fast he was falling for you, but it was happening all the same.
âYeah⌠I can do that,â he replied, voice low.
And he had never been the same.
From that moment on, heâd been falling for youâhard. Making lovey-dovey eyes at you over morning coffee in the communal kitchen, pretending not to watch you when you laughed at someoneâs joke, finding excuses to linger a little longer in any room you were in.Â
He toys with his watch, waiting for the florist to come back and flinches as he hears crashes and curses. He has half a mind to go and check on her when she suddenly pops out with a crooked smile and her hair askew, presenting the flower to him.Â
âTrust me, your girlfriend is going to love this one. Rarest thing in here.â
âSheâsâŚâ He stops, watching as the worker flits around the shop, putting the finishing touches on the arrangement. What use was it explaining anyway? How could he put you into words?
It was a strange flower, one he didnât recognise. Its petals folded into each other. It was unlike any flower heâd ever seen, almost alien. But it was also beautiful, rare and special. Just like you. He buys it in a heartbeat, but the anxiety that follows is sickening. As he goes back to the tower, he thinks about turning around, getting something saferâchocolates, maybe. A coffee voucher. Literally anything else.
âMaybe itâs not good enough, or what if she hates it?â
He plays with the loose yarn on his sweater as he nervously looks down at the plant.Â
âWhat if she pretends to like it but actually hates it and, in turn, hates me?â
He overthinks all the way down the street, onto the subway, up the Avengers Tower elevator, until he eventually reaches the door to your office.
Thenâthree knocks. His heart sinks into his stomach the second his knuckles leave the wood.
The door swings open, with you on the other side of it, a smile blooming on your face as soon as you see him.
âBob!â You say excitedly.Â
Youâre clearly happy to see him and hurriedly usher him inside. The rest of the Avengers had been on a mission for the past two days and counting, so it was just you and Bob. It had been quite nice to spend time with him one-on-one. You even had a movie night the night prior, which ended with Bob falling asleep on your shoulder.
âWhat do you have there?â you ask, tilting your head slightly, catching sight of something he's hiding behind his back.
He hesitates for a beat, then slowly brings it forward, revealing a single, delicate flowerâits petals a rich, otherworldly shade of purple, like something from a dream. Itâs almost enchanting. You stare at it in awe, momentarily speechless.
âItâs a gift,â he says, placing it on your desk, voice shy but steady. âTo celebrate you being here for a year. I⌠we really appreciate you.â
Your eyes soften at his words. You can see heâs nervous, waiting for your reaction like it might determine the course of his entire week.
But all you feel is warmth. You thought it was so sweet of him to do this for you; it was so thoughtful, so Bob. Youâd felt a connection with him from the moment you met, something quiet but persistent that never quite went away.
âThank you,â you say, genuinely. âI love it. Truly.â
Youâre probably smiling too much, but when it comes to Bob, you canât help yourself. You snap out of your loving stare as something flickers in your peripheral vision.
âIs it supposed to glow?â you ask, your eyes narrowing slightly as the petals shimmer faintly, a soft pulse of light running through them like a heartbeat.
âI, uh⌠I donât think so?â Bob replies, frowning.
He leans in, squinting at the flower. The glow pulses again. Cautiously, he pokes it with one finger.
The flower twitches.
âIt moved,â he says, eyes wide with a mix of fascination and fear.
âWhat? No way.â You step closer, trying to get a better look, equal parts sceptical and intrigued.
But then it twitches again, its petals bristling at the touch, and both of you freeze.
ââŚDid you buy this from a normal flower shop?â you ask slowly, eyeing him.
âI thought I did!â Bob says, his voice pitching just a little higher than usual.
You poke it again.
This time, in a sudden pfft, it sprays something directly into both of your facesâa cloud of shimmering mist exploding into the air. It smells sweet... too sweet. Like overripe fruit or syrup, or cotton candy left in the sun. Almost sickly.
Bob coughs, waving his hand in front of his face. âWhat was that?â
âA defence mechanism, perhapsââ you begin, but your voice trails off as something shifts.
The stem starts to grow, elongating right before your eyes, inch by inch. Then, like something out of a sci-fi movie, thin tendrils begin sprouting from the base, curling and stretching like green tentacles.
âOkay, what kind of flower shop did you go to?â you ask, backing up a step.
Bobâs eyes are locked on it in horror. âI donât know! I swear it looked normal! The lady had an apron!â
In hindsight, the florist did seem a bit sketchy. The shop was tucked away in a dark, back alley, its dim interior lit flickering by lamps that looked like they hadnât been updated since the â70s. The air was thick with a faint smoke that he had to try not to choke on, but in his defence, Bob had just assumed it was part of the shopâs "vintage" aesthetic.Â
The flower twitches again, and one of the tendrils gently brushes your desk lamp, knocking it askew.
âWe should probably contain that,â you say.
âOr burn it,â Bob offers weakly.
You donât have enough time to deliberate before theyâre coming straight for you. They coordinate a joint attack and grab hold of your shirt. It has a relentless grip on it and tears it apart without a care. In the back of your mind, you have to take a second to mourn one of your favourite work shirts.
The plant, however, is far from done with you. Before you can react, one of its slippery, vine-like tendrils reaches for your wrist, its texture cold and unnervingly smooth. Itâs trying to pin you down, the tendril wrapping around your forearm like a slippery snake.
âBob!â you yell, panic rising in your voice.
Bob springs into action without hesitation. He grabs your arm, pulling you back just in time. But in the chaos, both of you tumble backwards, your feet tangling in each otherâs as you fall to the floor.
You land⌠on top of him.
For a moment, everything stops. Your breath catches, his heart races beneath you, and thereâs a stillness, an accidental closeness that makes everything feel like itâs happening in slow motion.
âWell, that was eventful,â you comment, breathless, glancing back over your shoulder at the plantâstill twitching, preparing for its next move. The tendrils are growing faster now, more aggressive, and itâs only a matter of time before it tries to grab you again.
âWatch out,â he warns, voice sharp, as he pushes you aside with surprising strength. The moment youâre clear, he rolls to his feet, eyes fixed on the plant.
It lashes out, one of its tendrils reaching for your throat, but Bob is faster, shoving you out of harmâs way just in time.
In the seconds it took you to escape from it, the plant had doubled in size, its tentacles now oozing with a thick, viscous substance. It seemed to pulse, almost alive with an aggressive energy, like it was anticipating its next strike.
The plant gives you no time to catch your breath. Before you can react, it swipes again, this time reaching for Bobâs jeans. With surprising strength, one of the tendrils successfully yanks him to the ground, dragging him closer to its growing mass. The little tendrils begin climbing up the inside of his trousers, slithering toward his legs like they have a mind of their own.
âHoly shit,â you exclaim, adrenaline flooding your veins as you rush to grab his hands, pulling with all your strength in a futile attempt to free him. Where are the Avengers when you need them?
Unfortunately, you have no super strength or any useful abilities. Bobâs still being dragged closer, inch by inch.Â
But what you do have, is a pretty damn good throwing arm.
You glance around the room, your mind racing for anything you can use. Your eyes land on the lamp on your desk, your favourite one. Bob had always joked about how you wouldnât let anyone touch it. Without a second thought, you sprint across the room, grab it in one smooth motion, and hurl it toward the plantâs centre of mass.
The lamp flies through the air, and youâre about ready to start celebrating, but just as itâs about to make contact with the plant, the tendrils shift, dodging the attack like itâs alive and aware of whatâs coming.
âCrap,â you mutter. "It dodged."
This had to be one of the worst moments of your life.Â
Bob tries to crawl away, his muscles screaming in protest as he drags himself across the floor. His mind is a chaotic mess, every thought running a mile a minute. This day wasnât supposed to go like this. He was supposed to give you the gift and see that smile of yours light up your face, not get fondled by a plant monster.
The tendrils continue their relentless pursuit, now reaching the edge of his boxers, squirming and twisting, as if looking for any way to get inside.Â
âHold on, just a second!â
âPlease hurry, itâs kind of ticklish,â He blurts out as he writhes on the ground, âAnd wet.â
They find their way inside his boxers, reaching his dick and starting to wrap their way around it, making him tremble.Â
The tentacles continue to secrete that viscous liquid, slick and glistening as they slip up and around his cock, their movements still clumsy, but starting to adapt to what makes him react. Bob struggles beneath its weight, panic flashing in his eyes as the tendrils flick over his sensitive tip, starting to pulse around him.
Youâre frozen for a moment, heart racing, watching him fight against the plantâs hold. The air is thick with desperation, and for a split second, you wonder if youâre going to be too late. But then your mind snaps back into focus. This canât keep going. You need a plan and fast.
You scan the room, eyes darting from the plant to Bob and back again. The papers on your desk, the fire extinguisher near the door, the windowâwait. Without wasting another second, you rush over to it, pulling it down with a swift motion. You have no idea if thisâll work, but Bobâs safety is the only thing that matters, and youâd do anything to ensure it.
âHold on!â you shout, as you aim the nozzle at the base of the plant.
You pull the trigger.
Itâs temporarily thwarted, and you breathe out a sigh of relief when you see it retreat from Bobâs jeans.
âCome on!â you shout, reaching for Bob and pulling him to his feet. The moment youâve got a solid grip on him, you both scramble toward safety, adrenaline fuelling your movements.
You rush toward the front door, but just as you reach it, the plantâs vines stretch out, blocking your escape. The thick, twisted tendrils curl around the doorframe, trapping you in.Â
You turn on your heels, panic setting in as you dash to the far side of the room. Thereâs only one other way out, the door that leads to the lab part of your office.
You reach the door, flinging it open just in time, and drag Bob inside with you. As you slam the door shut, you quickly lock it, the sound echoing. The room is dim, but you barely notice the light as you both stand there, chest heaving, trying to catch your breath. Itâs all you can both hear before you finally break the silence.
âWhat the fuck?âÂ
Heâs panicking. Heâs panicking hard.Â
He attempted to do something nice, something to show just how much you mean to him and the rest of the team but instead he got you attacked by a plant that wanted to fuck you.Â
âI screwed this up. Iâm so sorry. I... Iââ He stammers, his voice trembling with regret. He tries to continue, but the words seem to catch in his throat. Heâs frustrated, overwhelmed by the situation and the guilt of what just happened.
You immediately notice the signs. The way he's retreating into himself, shoulders hunched, eyes avoiding yours. The guilt and panic are all over his face, and for a moment, you realise how much this is affecting him. He must think youâre mad at him, but youâre not. Not in the slightest. You werenât even sure if you could be mad at him; he was Bob.Â
You take a step forward, placing yourself in his line of sight, standing in front of him. You donât need to say anything else. You donât need him to apologise again.
âHey, hey, itâs okay,â your voice acting as his source of stability, even though youâre both still shaking from the chaos.
But before he can respond, thereâs a loud bang against the door. A deep, guttural scraping noise as the plantâs tentacles push against it, trying to force their way inside. They both jump at the sounds, and he tries to curl in on himself, his hands gripping into his hair as he shuts everything out, nothing but his own voice echoing in his head.Â
âOf course, youâd mess this up.â
âBob, look at me, please.â
âShe probably hates you now.â
He opens his eyes slowly, and you can see itâthe fear. The gold in his eyes flickers, a silent reflection of his inner turmoil. Heâs been holding it all together for so long, but now, one mistake has him spiralling, and itâs all spilling out in front of you.
He hates that you can see it. The cracks in his composure, the weight of the guilt sinking into his chest. The last thing he wanted was to fall apart in front of you, to let you see just how much heâs struggling with everything.
âI put you in danger,â he mutters, his voice barely above a whisper. His gaze drops to the floor, shame and regret lacing his words.
You canât let him carry this alone. You canât let him drown in his own guilt when you know the truth: it wasnât his fault. He only wanted to do something nice for you.
You step forward further into his space, cupping his face gently in your hands. His breath catches and you feel his warm skin under your palms, the tension in the air thick but not overwhelming.
âItâs okay,â you say softly, your thumb brushing against his cheek. âIâm alright, arenât I?â
âShe doesnât mean it.â
âI try to do one thing, and I just made things worse. I ruined everythingââÂ
âYou didnât ruin anything, okay? I loved the fact that you got me a gift, and weâre going to get out of this.â
You pull him close, and you both embrace each other tightly, the chaos outside fading away for a brief moment as you both seek comfort in the silence of the hug.
But suddenly, like a switch had been flipped, you become acutely aware of every touch, every shift of his body against yours. The warmth of his arms, the way his chest rises and falls with each breath, it all feels intensified. Itâs like youâre hyper-aware of the sensation of him against you, and itâs overstimulating in a way you werenât expecting.
You subconsciously nuzzle into his touch, breathing in his scent. He smells so good, you would even describe it as intoxicating. The feeling of him holding you, so close, feels delicious. The feeling of his fingers against your bare skin, mouth-watering.
You lean into him even more, a soft moan slipping out before you catch yourself. The sound barely escapes, but itâs enough to make you freeze. You jerk back from him, heart pounding in your chest.
From the look on his face, he didnât hear it. Or if he did, heâs pretending not to, but you feel the heat rising in your cheeks, flooding your body. The flush spreads down your neck, over your skin, and you canât stop it.
âWeâllâŚget through this,â Bob says, agreeing with your earlier words.
âY-yeah,â you stutter out, still feeling the heat spreading throughout your body.Â
Then, as if his panicked brain finally catches up to the situation, Bobâs eyes flick over your form, and his eyes widen just a little when he realises youâre topless, wearing nothing but your bra. His face flushed with embarrassment, and in an instant, he looks away, his cheeks turning a shade of red at the fact that he had just hugged you in this state. Like the gentleman he is, he immediately averts his gaze, trying to give you some privacy.
âOh. I uh, you should take my sweater.â
âOh, itâs okay, Iââ
Both of you nervously bumble until Bob starts taking off his sweater. The entire thing plays in slow motion. His hands, a little shaky, reach for the hem. The fabric bunches up in his fingers before he slowly pulls it over his head.Â
Bit by bit, his chest and torso are revealed. You canât help but notice the definition of his muscles and appreciate them greatly. Finally, he hands the sweater to you, his expression nervous but kind. âHereâŚâ he says softly, not looking you directly in the eyes.
Damn it.Â
Heâs ripped.Â
You didnât know when you woke up this morning that youâd be treated to an impromptu striptease courtesy of Bob Reynolds. You canât believe all of that was hiding under that knitted sweater. Thereâs a sudden wave of arousal so strong it almost knocks you clean off your feet. Your eyes wander his sculpted form, and itâs like every part of him was made to drive you crazy. You know youâre staring, but you canât bring yourself to look away.Â
âSo⌠how are we planning on taking back my office?â Your words come out breathy, your eyes are still very much fixed on his body, but he seems oblivious to the fact.
âMaybe we canâŚâ He trails off, distracted by the way you were starting to sway, âHey, are you alright?â
He had now started to become clued into the way you were staring him down like he was a full-course meal. And youâre just happy he couldnât read your mind because you were thinking the most unhinged things, like how you wanted to lick the sweat off his abs.
âHoly fuck,â You mutter tiredly, shaking the thought away. You were a doctor, damn it, not a degenerate. Or at least not both at the same time.Â
âYeah, Iâm justâŚâ You start a sentence that you canât finish as your body continues to heat up and your desire for him starts to hurt. You just want to be closer to him, and the overwhelming need to touch his abs comes back in full force. You try to focus on something else but just land on his arms and you wondered howâd they feel wrapped around your waist when heâd fuck you.Â
âFuck!âÂ
You start pacing around the room, trying to get rid of this madness that seemed to be overtaking you. And by pacing it was more of an awkward stumble as bit by bit your limbs turned to rubber and your brain to mush with horny thoughts of Bob.Â
You stop moving and drop to the floor, hugging your knees and squeezing your eyes shut. Maybe if you cannot see the hot man, he cannot haunt you. You decide to take deep breaths because that always helps, and try to calm yourself down. You are, however, wearing Bobâs sweater, which smells like him and therefore smells like heaven. You moan, definitely loud enough for him to hear and bury your face in it.Â
âTalk to me,â Bob says as he crouches down by your side, the comforting pats on your back feeling more like kisses on the neck. You just wanted to climb him like heâs a tree and live there forever.Â
âNeed to take this off.âÂ
You start kicking off your trousers as they start to stick to you, feeling more like sandpaper on your skin. Next, you peel off his sweater and hold it in your hands, resting it against your cheek, breathing it in every so often.Â
âI canât be near you right now.â
âWhy?â He asks and if you had your head on straight, youâd state the obvious. Did he not see the fact that you were seconds away from grinding on him?
But you did have to think about what caused this, and thereâs only one theory that makes sense.Â
âI think the plant you got is a sex plant.â
Bob blinks at you.
âA what?âÂ
While falling down an internet rabbit hole, you had heard about plants like these with certain properties that lent themselves quite nicely to certain activities. These properties including sex pollen that seemed to only affect you and not him. At a later date, youâd love to run some tests to see why. Maybe it was something in the serum he was given that made him immune to certain things. But all logical thought was being dropkicked out the window right about now, replaced with the need to fuck yourself silly on his dick.
You explain to him the whole sex plant thing as best as you can without going feral. The need to have his hands all over your body was becoming near next to unbearable.
âWhy do you know this?â
âGod forbid a woman is informed,â You sigh as you fan yourself with the sleeve of his sweater, more of his scent wafting into your face, making you more hungry for him than ever.
âSo, how do we fix this?â He asks, desperate to help you out.
âI can just wait it out,â you suggest, knowing full well you couldnât âwait it outâ. Each second that passed was a second not spent bouncing on Bobâs cock which was a second wasted in your opinion. But this was Bob, your Bob, you didnât want sex pollen induced horniness to reduce your friendship to rubble. You could see it now. Things would never be the same. No more book chat over morning coffee or late night milkshake runs and youâd be damned if you lost them.Â
âYouâre burning up.â He places his hand against your forehead, and you whimper at the contact, shocking you both.
âTell me, what will fix this?â He repeats.
Itâs clear that thereâs no avoiding it, so you tell him.Â
â...sex.â
Thereâs a heavy silence in the room, only accompanied by the background noise of the plant going on a rampage in your office. It was obvious, sex plant, therefore sex will alleviate the effects of said plant but saying it out loud didn't make it any easier.Â
âBut I wonât ask that of you. I wonât,â You say firmly.Â
Did you want him? Yes, you wanted him bad. Ever since his floppy-haired, doe-eyed, cute self came in for his first check-up. But you didnât want it under such dire circumstances, with a sex crazed plant trying to knock the door down. You wanted it to mean something. You wanted to know that he liked you as much as you like him.
You watch as Bobâs expression shifts, his eyes narrowing slightly as if coming to a decision. Thereâs something in his gaze, something vulnerable but strong at the same time, like heâs finally deciding to take a step forward.
âYouâre not asking, Iâm offering,â he says firmly. âI donât want to see you in pain like this.â
You shake your head, the words he says sinking in, but the effects of the sex pollen make it hard to respond.
âI canât have sex with you like this. Itâs not fair on you,â you finally manage, your voice quiet, almost defeated.
Bobâs face softens, his eyes flickering with understanding and something deeper. He steps closer, his tone gentler but unwavering. âItâs worth it if it helps you. Youâre hot and shivering. What kind of friend would I be if I let you suffer?â
The sincerity in his words hits you hard. You feel your throat tighten, fighting back the wave of emotion threatening to spill over. Youâve always known Bob cared about you, but hearing that he was willing to do this for you was something else.Â
âBobâŚâ Your voice breaks slightly, but you push through it.
He stops himself then, looking away for a moment, his own vulnerability creeping to the surface. "I care about you. IâŚ" He trails off, a deep breath escaping him as if he's preparing himself for whatâs to come. âI like you.â
You're struggling to find the words as the one thing youâve been wanting to hear is finally said.
âYou like me?â
Bob looks down, his eyes shifting nervously, afraid that he might be ruining everything.
âI like you too,â You admit. âYou have no idea how much.â
Not wanting the moment to pass you by, you cup his face and kiss him like youâve never kissed anyone before. The kiss is desperate and needy, your hands gliding over his body with such urgency. All that pent-up need and tension came out in this one kiss. You cling onto each other like kissing is the last thing youâll ever do.Â
You pull back, looking at him, his cheeks slightly flushed, his breath coming in shallow, uneven bursts.
âAre you sure you want to do this?â You ask, your voice a mix of uncertainty and hope.
Instead of responding, he pulls you back in, his hands gentle but insistent, bringing you closer once more. Then, before you can say anything else, he lays you back down on the floor, his body hovering over yours.
âDoes that answer your question?â he whispers, before leaning back in, his lips brushing against yours once more.
You smile into the kiss and wrap your legs around his waist from beneath him.Â
You shiver as his hands travel up your back, his fingers finding the clasp of your bra. Itâs clumsy at first, fumbling with the hooks, the fabric catching between his fingers.
âOh yeah, this oneâs a nightmare to take off,â you comment, remembering the countless times youâd try to undo the clasps before giving up and just pulling it over your head instead. You chuckle lightly at the memory, tension easing for just a second.
âI think I almost got it,â he says, determination in his voice. Finally, after a few more attempts, he gets the clasp undone, tossing it aside with a small sigh of relief.
You feel a warmth spread through you, as look up at him.
âYouâre perfect,â he says softly, his lips finding their way to your neck. The way he touches you, the way his hands move, everything feels electric, like every little action is charged with more meaning than you ever expected.
His hands wander down towards your panties next, rubbing at your core through them. He can feel that youâve already soaked through them, your desperation no laughing matter.Â
He knows that because you immediately trap his hand between your thighs and start lifting your hips to rub against it.
His eyes widen as he watches you roll your hips, so completely wrecked, and youâd barely even gotten started. This was a whole new side of you that he could get used to.Â
âYou need to let go of my hand for me to touch you,â Bob says, and you reluctantly do, only because you know heâs gonna give you something better.
He pulls off your panties and is met with the most beautiful sight.Â
âYouâre so wet,â he comments spreading open your dripping pussy and flicking at your clit.
He slowly inserts his fingers and smiles at how easily they slip in. âYou can take two already,â he says and almost in awe as your walls clench around him. Youâre mewling and twitching with every swipe of his fingers, your wetness spilling around them. His fingers are so thick and he stretches you out so good, you wonder how your own fingers ever felt like enough.Â
âSo good,â You whine out, and he feels encouraged to ever stop making you feel like this.Â
He curls them inside of you, brushing against your sensitive spot over and over again, making you squeal. You start to squirm, but he holds you still, his thigh and spare hand keeping you spread open for him.Â
He starts reassuring you with soothing circles on your thigh, âRight there?â
You blink away the haze and nod, âYeah, keep going.â
He repeats his actions, his fingers threatening to bring you to an orgasm so fast that youâre almost embarrassed.Â
âNeed you so bad,â You whisper as you thrust back against his fingers, desperate to have more of him. Youâd take his whole fist if heâd give it to you.Â
âI need more than just your fingers.â
He looks up at you. This was a huge step, but one you were both ready to take.
âCondom?â
âIâm on birth control,â You say, and thankfully, you were. Itâs not like you had a condom on you; they were in your purse, which was in the room with the raging tentacle monster.
He pulls off his jeans and boxers and heâs left exposed in front of you. He feels vulnerable, but he knows he can trust you.
âReady?â You ask him and he replies with a breathy, âYeah,â before laying a sweet kiss on your forehead.Â
He lines ourself up with your hole, which is actively trying to suck him in and pushes into you slowly. The relief of feeling him inside of you is so good, the sound of his moans as he bottoms out inside of you is just as good.Â
He starts thrusting into you deeply, as you grip his shoulders. It felt better than anything youâve ever done with anyone else. It was partly the sex pollen, but more than anything, it was because it was him. You were finally with him after months upon months of pining. Finally able to feel his skin beneath your fingertips, to hear his moans vibrate against your skin, to lean his forehead against yours as he ruts into you. It was slow but passionate, as you finally confirmed how you both feel about each other.Â
You feel like you were on another planet, but you wanted to experience every part of this man, so you whisper in his ear, âWanna ride you.â
Youâve never seen him move so fast, in seconds youâre sitting up right, warming his cock as his lips attacking your neck.
Youâre about to start moving when he stops you.Â
âJust a second.â
You sit there, desperate to feel him moving inside you, but if he says to wait, then youâll wait. He cups one of your boobs in his hands and his tongue flicking around your areola just enough to tease you.
âBobâŚâ You whine out, and he smiles up at you, and itâs one of his dopey smiles that makes your heart melt. Then as if you couldnât feel any more sensitive, he starts sucking on your nipple, his eyes closed in pure focus and concentration. You fully scream, your legs quivering and walls fluttering around his cock. His tongue was working overtime, and you felt like you could come undone with just this.Â
âYouâre gonna kill me,â You cry out as you pull closer by his hair.
âYouâre so dramatic,â He laughs before going back to his ministrations, determined to make you lose your mind.Â
âJust like that,â You cry out as you wrap your arms around his neck. You shake and tremble so much that you just have to start riding him. Your hips seem to have a mind of their own.
Bob rests his head in the crook of your neck as you work his cock up and down btweeen your folds. âYou feel so good.â His voice is shaky and needy as heâs unable to do anything but give in to the pleasure youâre giving him. His legs were shaking with how good it felt, and it was an ego boost to say one thing.Â
âWait a second,â he says before he holds your hips up and starts thrusting up into you from below, giving you everything heâs got.Â
âOh BobâŚâ
The feeling is so overwhelming that you start to cry, tears flowing down your cheeks, each one showing just how good he was giving it to you. But seeing your tears, he stops immediately, wiping them from your eyes. âAre you okay? Do you want me to stop?â
His eyebrows are furrowed with a concern plastered on his face, worried that he had hurt you.
You shake your head profusely, âKeep going. Iâm crying because it feels so good.â
âYeah?â
With some renewed confidence, he continues thrusting into you, and itâs your turn to rest your head against his neck.
He whispers against your ear, âYou feel so good.â
âWanna turn around for me?â
âO-okay,â You stutter out, your mind half in the clouds as he spins you around and you land back on his dick, reverse cowgirl.
âHoly shit,â he says as he starts pounding into you again. You feel him so deep inside of you, you never want him to leave.Â
You feel him gripping onto your ass so you imagine the view must be good.Â
âHarder?â
âYes, fuck please,â You reply immediately. The way he was thrusting up inside of you had you crying out for mercy, and if he wanted to go harder, youâd let him. He picks up the pace, and the sound of his skin slapping against yours is music to your ears.Â
âSo good, youâre suchâŚâ He stops for a moment, and you can hear him hesitate, but you suppose his internal thoughts won out as he finishes his sentence, âSuch a good girl.â
And youâd be lying if those words, escaping his lips, in his voice, didnât make you want to explode.
Then he slows down before pulling out of you, youâre about to whine and complain, but he intercepts that.Â
âCan you hold onto me?â He asks, and you do it immediately, desperate to feel him on you again. You suddenly feel yourself being lifted into the air, and you wrap your legs around his waist. He effortlessly lifts you over and lays you down on an examination table.
He lines himself up with your whole again and thrusts right into it, not holding back one bit. Your body is shaking and trembling with each thrust, and youâre screaming his name with each one.
âSo good, so good,â he repeats like a mantra, like he canât think of anything else but you.
He lifts your hips, tilting your pelvis and hitting your G-spot dead on, and you almost choke on your spit. Youâre not even sure what comes out of your mouth; you just know itâs not of this world. You head lolls to the side as you drool for his cock to be fed deeper into you.Â
âRight there, right there, rightâŚâ, You bluster out before being cut off by your own scream.Â
You werenât going to last much longer; in fact, youâre surprised you lasted this long. You just needed one final thing to put you over the edge.Â
âB-bob. PutâŚput your hand here,â You say guiding his hand above your stomach and bite your lip as he presses down feeling his cock inside of you.
âIâm gonnaââ You sob before youâre cumming harder than you ever have, calling out for Bob all the while. Bob holds onto your bucking hips as he watches you squirt on his cock. The orgasm that hits you is blinding, your toes curl, your fists tighten, and tears fall from your eyes.Â
You are gone.Â
Youâre only brought back to your senses by Bob saying your name and soft kisses on your face. When he sees youâre responsive, he smiles and starts brushing your hair off your face. But then you realise, heâs stopped moving and you absolutely canât have that. You can still feel him pulsing inside of you and you needed him to cum.
âKeep going,â you mumble.
âHm?â
You sit up closer to you, your fingers gripping his back.Â
âKeep going until youâre done with me.â
You needed this, you needed him. You wanted him to fuck you so hard that your pussy remembered him, you wanted him to fill you up so much that just the smell of him would bring you to your knees and that wasnât just the sex pollen talking.Â
âI think I can do this day,â Bob says and that he does. He fucks you against the wall, the window, on the floor, if he had control of his Sentry powers he probably wouldâve fucked you in the air too. By the time youâre done, the sex pollen has been well and truly pounded out of your system.Â
But your troubles arenât over.Â
The plant knocks down the door with an ominous thud. Menacingly slithering over to the two of you, now triple in size, each tentacle blogger that the last, and youâre ready to accept your fate. This is how you would go out. Fucked to death by a plant.
The plant starts prodding at you both a tiny bit before pulling back away from you, much to your surprise. Obviously sensing its job was done, it reverts back to its original form in a matter of seconds and sits innocently in its pot.Â
You guess your troubles are over.Â
âSoâŚcan I be your boyfriend?â He asks and you laugh, âWhat do you think?â
Bobâs face lights up with a grin, and he kisses your cheek, âI think thereâs a mess waiting for us in your office.â
âWell, couples that clean together stay together.â
Snuggling into his embrace, you let out a sigh of contentment. Nothing could ruin this day, not when youâd finally made Bob your man.
But, in the distance, you hear the shuffling of footsteps as the team has arrived back from their mission. You hear a faint, âWhat the fuck?â seemingly from Walker seeing the havoc the plant made but youâre too content in Bobâs arms to care. Youâre exactly where you want to be.
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husband!leon kennedy x reader
tags: established relationship. you guys are beefing ngl. masturbation (brief reference, m receiving). leon loves his wife a lot. title from eve 6 anytime.
Your therapist takes in the way you both sit on her couch over the rims of her glasses. Your legs and arms are crossed and you donât dare look in his direction, lest he thinks heâs not in the doghouse. The first fifteen minutes of this session have been an awkward, stilted silence.
Leonâs legs are spread, his arms folded as he sneaks glances at you from the corners of his eyes. His mouth is downturned at the corners, contrasting the thin line yours is pressed into.
Not to stereotype or anything, but she can definitely see which one dragged the other to marriage therapy. Sheâs just surprised itâs the man wanting to fix something.
Okay. Since neither of you want to speak, sheâll go first. âWould either of you like to tell me why weâre here this week?â She asks, writing the date in the top left corner of the legal padâs page.
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She watches you scoff and shift where you sit, balancing your temple on two fingers. âYouâre a marriage counselor, arenât you?â You donât even look at her as you speak, words ground out from your teeth. âWhy else does a couple come to you?â
Alright, not a good start. She watches Leon reach over before he stops himself, a hand returning to his lap. Instead, he says your name softly, begging you to look over at him with those big blue eyes.
You donât look over.
He changes tactics, head lifting. âBe nice.â He says softly, body shifting to face you as he looks over, drinking you in.
You donât respond, staring angrily into a space over the therapistâs shoulder.
Leon sucks in a breath through his teeth as he leans back, his hand midway between you two on the ugly upholstery.
Your therapist clears her throat, eyes flicking between the two of you. âWhy are you two here?â
Leon takes the lead, his eyes sliding over to you. âWeâre having⌠problems.â
You scoff immediately. âUnderstatement.â You mutter under your breath, arms folding tightly again.
Leonâs mouth presses into a line as he restrains himself from giving into your baiting before he says, âIâll lay my cards out on the table.â
You bristle, eyes flicking over at him. Your face is stonily neutral, the slight knot of your brows betraying your frustration.
Wife and husband in habit of needling one another.
âI drank. A lot.â Leon leans back, crossing an ankle over his opposite knee. âAnd she did a lot to try and keep our marriage afloat before I got my head out of my ass.â
Your therapist notes this on her legal pad. âHow long ago was this?â
âThree-ish years.â Leon offers, lacing his fingers together. His wedding band glints in the lightâyours is conspicuously absent. His eyes land on you, the second time heâs spoken directly to you. âAnd Iâm forever grateful.â
âMhm.â Therapist writes that husband is apologetic and open, attempting to bridge the gap. Wife is unreceptive. âAnd how long have you both been married?â
Shit. Thatâs a better question for you, you have the dates straight, somehow. Your first time, the date you two got married, the day you two met, your first daughterâs birthday, your first sonâs birthday, your second daughter and sonâs birthday.
He used to tease you about your calendar brain early on. Youâd look a little sheepish and heâd kiss it right off you.
Leon sneaks a glance at you like a drowning man looks at a float. âUmâŚâ He can feel his face warming up, a pretty flush spreading across his cheeks.
You shift, sighing through your nose and picking at the seam of your jeans. âSixteen years.â
Right. Wife seems to defrost when asked how long theyâve been togetherâsixteen years.
âAnd how did you meet?â Just so she has the dates straight.
âCollege.â Your face heats the longer Leon stares holes into your cheek. Wife seems nostalgic of the early days of relationship. âI worked at the campus dining hall.â
A small, helpless smile spreads across Leonâs face. âI came over to the sandwich and pasta stations as much as I could.â
Husband holds affection for wife still.
You donât look up at him and your therapist can watch the heartache bloom in his eyes before he looks away.
âWhatâs your perspective, Mrs. Kennedy?â The therapist asks you, crossing her legs.
You stay silent for so long that the therapist wonders whether you heard her before you say emotionlessly, âHe did drink.â Your eyes fall to your fingers. âAnd mope, and feel bad for himself.â
âI went through a lot of things.â Leon says quietly. Your therapist opens her mouth to hush him, but you beat him to the punch.
âNobodyâs saying you didnât.â You look up at him for the first time. âIf youâd let me finish, youâd understand what Iâm saying.â
Your therapist holds up her hands before this can devolve into a full-on argument. âExcuse me.â Two pairs of eyes settle on her. âLetâs not interrupt one another, please. And letâs keep the hostility to the minimum.â
âIâm not being hostile.â You retort, brows furrowing in the middle.
âYouâre not exactly being gentle, either.â Leon mutters, raising a brow when you look at him with a frown on your face.
Husband and wife have habit of speaking over one another. âPlease.â Your therapist says a little louder. âMrs. Kennedy, continue.â Wife is on defense.
You take a steadying breath and let it out slowly. Wife employs self-soothing mechanisms. âI was going to say that the previous drinking isnât the issue to me.â You uncross and recross your legs, bouncing the one on top. âThe drinking, frankly, wasnât a surprise.â
âCan you elaborate?â
Your lips part, eyes flicking over to Leon as you attempt to figure out the best way to talk without breaking his confidentiality.
Leon doesnât look at you, head balanced on two fingers.
âIâŚâ You take another deep breath. âItâs his job. Itâs⌠itâs a tedious and stressful job. And heâdââ you cut yourself off, glancing at him again.
âYou can say it, itâs fine.â Leon says, sounding particularly weary.
You look particularly conflicted when he says that, mouth turning down at the corners. âHeâd got the job from a big incident in ninety-eight. He wasnât supposed to have this job.â
Wife employing vagaries to protect husband.
âMhm.â Your therapist looks vaguely uneasy at the omission, but lets you go on.
âHe hadnât started drinking heavily until he was working for the President.â You chew on your cheek, eyes on your husband. âThen after that, he tried to go away to Colorado for a week, leaving me pregnant with three kids.â
Leonâs mouth pulls into a line. âSo thatâs what this is about.â
Husband and wife hold vague resentment for husbandâs job.
Your therapist refrains from rolling her eyes, clearing her throat and waiting for you to go on.
âAnd then,â you say pointedly, eyebrows raising, âyou didnât have a vacation at all because your job called you in. Thatâs what I was getting at.â
âMore like it found me, but close enough.â Leon replies flippantly, crossing his legs.
You squeeze your eyes shut, measuring your breaths. Your therapist is almost tempted to write that husband has a bad attitude, but holds back.
You look away, one hand moving to twiddle your wedding band out of habit before you register that your finger is empty. You pull your hand away. âHe sobered up after the Colorado thing.â You say quietly.
Husbandâs work takes him away from the wife and kids fairly often.
Your therapist nods, looking between you two. Wife was angry at beginning of session, now looks downcast, switching role with husband who was earlier downcast, now is irritated. âAnd how many children do you share with one another?â
âFour.â Leon fills in, hand twitching for his phone as if to show pictures. âTwo boys, two girls.â
Four children, two boys and two girls.
âAnd how has this breakââ When she asks, Leon flinches and you look guilty. âin your relationship impacted your children?â
You glance at one another in tandem. Wife and husband still look for support in one another when asked questions pertaining to them as a family unit. Leon looks away first, cheeks turning red.
You sigh, reaching up and rubbing the back of your neck. âOur eldest girl started acting out in school. Sheâs defiant, sheâs antisocial. SheâŚâ
Leon waits as you trail off, then picks up. âSheâs an extrovert, like her mom. Which is why it raised alarm bells when her teachers told us that sheâd been angry about having to do group work because she wanted to be left alone. She had to be taken home one day because she got in a physical fight with some kids who just wanted to play with her.â
âAnd your other children?â Her eyes flick between the two of you.
âOur youngest two arenât in school yet.â You inform her, shifting a little and fiddling with your nails. âOur eldest boyâheâs sixâhad begun isolating himself from everyone. He wouldnât even sit at his desk, he just wanted to sit in the library area and do his workâwhich is completely fine and I donât see why the teacher threw a fit about it, franklyâbut heâd also refused to play with other children. He would just watch other kids at recessâand heâs a very energetic kid.â
Your therapist nods slowly. âI see.â
Leonâs mouth pulls into a small smile at all the information you throw at the therapist. Thatâs his girl, always motormouthing and talking about anything and everything. Though, you could start an argument with your echo, so maybe thereâs a drawback to your ability to talk about anything.
Parental relationship affecting children in household.
âOur youngest two donât really understand why mommy and daddy are fighting.â Leon muses, watching you play with your fingers. He has half a mind to reach over and hold your hand so you stop fidgeting, but refrains.
âHow old are your children?â
âEight, six, four, and two.â You sneakily reference a tattoo on your forearm of the kidâs birthdates with their initialsâhe knew you were cheating when it came to remembering their birthdates.
Your therapist glances at her watch, jotting down a few more notes before she closes the legal pad, marking it as Mr. & Mrs. Kennedy. âIâm afraid thatâs all the time we have this week. If you both are willing to come back, my receptionist out front will schedule you for another session next week.â
Leon watches his cum swirl down the drain miserably, leaning his forehead against the shower tile. What a waste.
That session last week couldâve gone worse, admittedly. It couldâve had you two throwing shit at one another and both of you getting arrested.
The silence during the drive home was excruciating. In the early days, you could fill up the whole fucking car just talking about anything: your coursework, which kid in your class you think is autistic, this new show you watched, anything.
Leonâs a quiet guy, he doesnât have the capacity to talk about nothing and everything for an hour and youâre his favorite little chatterbox in the world.
He turns off the faucet and shakes his hair out like a dog, raking the curtain aside and grabbing his towel, mopping his face and hair before he dries off his body.
He wraps the towel around himself and steps out of the shower, slicking his hair back and wiping a streak in the foggy mirror so he can somewhat see where he needs to shave.
For good measure, he opens the window and leans forward to the mirror, inspecting his face.
You knock on the door thrice. âCan I come in?â
He turns around, one hand on the knot holding his towel up and the other unlocking the door and pulling it open. You step inside without so much as a glance at him, pausing when you see the streak on the mirror. âI hate when you do that.â you mutter, pulling open the cabinet and rooting around for some disinfectant.
âYou hate when I do anything.â Leon mutters back, retrieving the trimmer from the cabinet and being careful not to whack you in the head with it. He jams the plug in the wall, undoing his towel both to dab his cheeks and jaw dry with a corner of it, but also to see if he can get a reaction from you.
You give none, coming back with some rubbing alcohol and cotton pads from the cabinet. Somebody mustâve scraped their knee. You bonk the back of your head on the way out. âMotherfucker!â
Leon puts down the trimmer with a stifled laugh, leaning down and stroking the back of your head gently. âJesus. You okay?â
You swat at his covered thigh, sitting down on the tile. âItâs not funny.â
âDid you hear me laugh?â Maybe you did. His bad, he shouldâve been quieter. He strokes the back of your head one last time before pulling his hand away.
âNo, but I know you want to.â You grouse, getting up from the floor and picking up the rubbing alcohol and the cotton pads. Safe, just like a guy stealing a base at the last second.
You walk away without anything further and Leon feels stupidly self-conscious as he watches your ass. Is it the hair? No, you said you liked the body hair. Is it the body? Is he out of shape? Well, heâs not far outside the realm of dad bod. Besides, you told him a couple years ago that you liked seeing the give to his tummy, means heâs eating well.
He shakes his head, leaning into the mirror and picking up the trimmer as he buzzes his stubble down a little more. Your four year old runs into the bathroom with a smile and he pauses, face half-shaven to give some love to one of his three girls, plopping her on the counter as she talks his ear off and he continues shaving.
After a while, he helps her down so she can go run around with her siblings and so he can get changed, hanging his towel up when sheâs gone and changing into a pair of boxers. He comes into his bedroom and heads over to his dresser, pulling out a shirt and some sweatpants.
He comes downstairs fully dressed to utter chaos.
Your kids are too busy running around the living room and body slamming one another to listen to you. You stand there frustratedly as you try to configure a game plan, one temple aching. You donât like raising your voice at them, your voice goes too high and at a certain point, kids tune it out.
âHey!â Leon, on the other hand, has no qualms about raising his voice. He doesnât have to do much, he has a lot of diaphragm support.
The kids pause, immediately looking guilty.
Wordlessly, he points out to the back door and they scramble away, shouting and ordering each other around and back to playing with one another.
Leon goes over and shuts the door with a sigh. âThey get that energy from you, you know.â He muses, heading over to the kitchen to get himself a snack.
âI know.â You sit down on your humongous couch, rubbing a temple. In the corner is your pillow, your blanket hung over the back of the couch. Leonâs heart dully aches when he sees that setup, heâs not sure it ever wonât. God, he misses cuddling you and his babies.
Your therapist holds up a hand in the last ten minutes of your session after having found a good place to cut you off. âSo.â She says after letting out a quiet sigh, looking over her notes.
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Making some headway in conversations about the otherâs intentions. Husband and wife very similar: hardheaded, hate to lose, want their voices to be heard. Neither want their children to be in a broken home.
Wife sleeps on couch, lacks wedding ring for second session in a row. Husband longing for connection with her but wants her to give the signal that sheâs ready.
She looks up. âIâm going to give you both some homework.â She watches your eyebrow raise and Leon smirk. âFirst, no matter what either of you is doing, when you first see each other for the day, I want you to hug for at least twenty seconds.â
You frown, Leonâs expression lightening. Amateur advice, or so you think.
âSecond, I want you both to start keeping journals of your fights.â
Nevermind.
âJournals of our fights?â You repeat, crossing your legs at the ankle.
âIâm not finished.â The therapist reprimands gently, watching you frown. Wife has issues with authority. âThese journals should take place over a weekâs time. I want you to write down what the fight was about, what was said, how you both reacted. At the end of every weekâSunday, weâll sayâyouâll exchange the journals and read from the otherâs point of view.â
Damn, thatâs actually really good.
âThird,â The therapist pins you in place with a look. âI want you to wear your wedding band again.â
She watches the embarrassment cross your face, eyes cutting over to Leon when he looks too smug. âDonât look so smug, Mr. Kennedy. I want you to recite five things you like about herââ
âThatâs easy.â Leon says, meaning every word.
She gives him a look. âWhen youâre in an argument. Mentally, not out loud. Speaking of, you both need a code word for when the argument is getting to be too much and you need to walk away from it.â
She stands up, putting the legal pad in the folder in the Kennedy file. âIâll see you both next week.â
After the third session, you move right back into the bedroom, after waking up to Leon laying on top of you on the couch.
Leonâs brushing his teeth as you change into pajamas, leaning over and spitting into the sink before he brushes his tongue. He rinses the bristles and puts the brush back in the holder, coming out and helping you ready the bed before your six year old son comes in, saying his tummyâs upset.
âIâve got it.â Leon comes over and presses a hand to his sonâs forehead. Warm. Five out of the six of the Kennedys tend to run warm, which isnât a worry. âLetâs get you some Pepto, buddy.â
He takes his sonâs hand and leads him downstairs, giving him a dose and taking him back up, laying him back in his bed. âGoodnight. Mommy and daddy love you.â He whispers, going over and kissing his three other children goodnight.
He comes back to your room to find you in bed reading, lights dimmed. Instinctively, he comes over to your side and adjusts the lamp so youâre not straining your eyes to read. He comes back around to his side and turns off his light, lying on his right side and facing you.
When you decide itâs time to sleep, you lean over and turn off the light, putting your book on your nightstand and slipping beneath the covers.
Itâs silent for a while before Leon whispers, âSometimes, I wonder if we should have another baby.â
Your head snaps over to his. âWhat?â
âNotââ He scoots a little closer, almost reaching out to take your hand. ânot, like, a bandage baby or anything. I donât think a baby can fix this.â A pause before he gestures in the dark. âUs, I mean.â
You snort despite yourself. âI hope not.â
Leon scoffs, coming a little closer. âYou know me. Thatâs not fair to a little baby. And you said fourâs your limit.â
Your heart warms. Maybe you shouldnât be so surprised he remembered.
âI love you, you know.â Leon murmurs, hesitantly and loosely taking your hand. Even in the dark, you can see him coming.
Your chest aches. âI know.â
Another long pause.
âIâm sorry.â
âFor what?â When your head turns, heâs there, inches from your face.
âThat it took me so long to pull my head from my ass. You are⌠my anchor in this crazy-ass world.â He squeezes your hand, hoping youâll let him hold it for a while longer. âAnd I hurt you. Youâre the sweetest woman Iâve ever met, and I love you, and I hurt you.â
Your burning eyes scrunch shut as you press your forehead to his.
âI just hope you forgive meâI hope one day, that Iâm good enough for you to forgive me.â He whispers, voice wavering. âI want this to work. I want you. God, I miss you.â
Maybe thatâs what you needed, you needed to hear him render his heart open.
You come closer, pressing your front to his.
âAnd even my jobââ He curses, pressing a kiss to your forehead, then the spot between your eyebrows. âIâll quit.â When you giggle, he huffs. âIâm serious. Give me the word and Iâll quit.â
The tension in his chest eases when you tuck your head beneath his chin. âGod, no, donât do that. At least one of us needs an income.â You mutter, throwing an arm around his waist.
Forgiveness never felt so sweet.
â â âš â slightly nsfw blurb of â âââ â bob reynolds! ŕ¨ŕ§â â his needy nightsâ â ę°â mdniâ !headcanonâ ęą â ¡â ŕ
THINKING ABOUT how BOB is just a man looking for the calmness that he could only find in you. he needs you, one way or another, even if heâs obsessive, what could he do? youâve cared for him since the day you met, so he was tied to you, waiting for you to care for him again and again.
constantly, he had a few nightmares about his early life and he tried his best to appear strong when this happened, but he always ended up getting up from his bed and staggering in the dark to your dorm, barefoot and quiet, trying not to wake any of the others as he slowly opened the door. bob needed your affection those nights, he could only go back to sleep like this, when he could smell you next to him.
the silent agreement between you two had always been to leave your door unlocked, for him, so when he needed you, he wouldnât have to say it, just come in and lie down next to you in bed. it worked well, he only woke you up when he really needed you to take care of him and apparently, this was one of those nights.
his hand gently moved you in your sleep, he was sitting beside you in your large bed, waiting anxiously and apprehensively for you to wake up. âwake up, please,â he asked, still poking you until he seemed relieved to notice your eyes opening. you didnât say anything for a few seconds, just yawning and sitting up in bed as you looked at him, it wasnât hard to tell what happened. âneed you.â
âi know, baby, calm down.â you whispered sleepily, your fingers caressing the back of his neck before tangling in his strands of hair. he leaned into your touch, closing his eyes for a moment, trying to calm himself and forget the horrible nightmare he had had. âneed help gettinâ back to sleep?â
still with his eyes closed and his breathing trying to return to normal, bob agreed, but not before making an observation about what he wanted. âi want it the way you did it before.â he added, making you nod before running your fingers down his shoulder in gentle touches. âplease.â
the way you had done it before, of course, he had become a little addicted to the way you had made him sleep when things had gotten particularly heated between you a few nights ago. you didnât expect him to ask for more, but here he was doing it in your bed after a nightmare. âitâs okay, iâll do it for you.â
you tapped his shoulder softly, signaling for him to lie down on your bed as you lifted the pillow a little, not enough for him to sit up and lean back, just something in between. âjust be quiet, yeah? the others donât need to hear us.â your whisper was gentle and delicate, he did what you silently asked and stared at you the whole time, his pupils dilated waiting for what he needed.
calmly, your hand caressed his abdomen under his hoodie, gently going down and scratching him very lightly until you reached the hem of his pants. you didnât even need to ask him if he really wanted this now, if he was sure about it, the look of anticipation on his face said enough.
a groan escaped him, your fingers were cold when they touched the milky skin beneath his boxers. he felt a shiver run through him, he was still dealing with the effects of his previous nightmare, but your touch was beginning to relax him. bob just wanted you to be nice and take that stupid frustration out off him like you did last time without even knowing.
ârelax, you know i wonât hurt you.â the whisper you gave came out a little more muffled this time, when your lips connected with his and a sweet kiss was placed there. as a show of affection, that you were taking care of him as he wanted. âyou deserve to be well taken care of.â
he nodded, biting his bottom lip without pressure as your lips pulled away from his, he wanted this to last longer, but he could settle for now. âthank you.â he whispered back to you, one of his hands slipping under your shirt to caress your bare waist, he genuinely wanted to thank you in some way other than words. âi... i love you.â
the small smile that formed on your face when you heard him was like the calm he felt heâd always need. he liked the way everything with you was nice and calm, as it should be, even when he was a mess. âi love you too, sweet boy.â
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