21, Genderfluid, Any PronounsHi! I'm very new to Tumblr, and a chronic lurker
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If I ask nicely will people reblog this and tell me what their most common breakfast is? Not your favorite necessarily, just what you have for breakfast most frequently? đđ˝
subtitles should be on automatically. people who donât want them should have to turn them off
I need to go feral in bed like a restless, overstimulated kitten. I'm not talking sexually (surprise, I fucking know). And I need Simon to lay next to me on his back, one arm tucked behind his head as he observes quietly, all calm and slightly amused at my anticsâuntil he sees that look on my face that makes him sigh in exasperation.
"No. Don't." He warns, already bracing himself for the inevitable. "I'll kick yer little arse, lovie."
But it's too late, and I'm already lunging at him with a playful snarl, pawing and groping at his torso, egging him in to playfight me into submission, knowing fully well only his massive body on top of me can calm me down somewhat.
When I lift his shirt to chomp down on the bit of pudge on his lower tummy, he lets out a rough yelp, cursing under his breath.
"Olright, enough 'o tha'," he growls before using two humble percent of his strength to pin me down underneath his weight until I yield with a helpless soft giggle.
"Every damn time ya gotta be a difficult, little shite," he huffs, nosing along my fluttering pulse.
"But fuck if I don't love to teach ya a good lesson, luv."
And he huffs before sinking his own crooked teeth into my neck.
Me when people replace Gaz:
I really donât care if Iâm considered an annoying luddite forever, I will genuinely always hate AI and Iâll think less of you if you use it. ChatGPT, Generative AI, those AI chatbots - all of these things do nothing but rot your brain and make you pathetic in my eyes. In 2025? Youâre completely reliant on a product owned by tech billionaires to think for you, write for you, inspire you, in 2025????
âOh but I only use ___ for ideas/spellcheck/inspiration!!â I kinda donât care? oh, youâre âonlyâ outsourcing a major part of the creative process that wouldâve made your craft unique to you. Writing and creating art has been one of the most intrinsically human activities since the dawn of time, as natural and central to our existence as the creation of the goddamn wheel, and sheer laziness and a culture of instant gratification and entitlement is making swathes of people feel not only justified in outsourcing it but ahead of the curve!!
And genuinely, what is the point of talking to an AI chatbot, since people looove to use my art for it and endlessly make excuses for it. RP exists. Fucking daydreaming exists. You want your favourite blorbo to sext you, thereâs literally thousands of xreader fic out there. And if it isnât, write it yourself! What does a computerâs best approximation of a fictional character do that a human author couldnât do a thousand times better. Be at your beck and call, probably, but what kind of creative fulfilment is that? What scratch is that itching? What is it but an entirely cyclical ourobouros feeding into your own validation?
I mean, for Christ sakes there are people using ChatGPT as therapists now, lauding it for how itâs better than any human therapist out there because it âempathisesâ, and no one ever likes to bring up how ChatGPT very notably isnât an accurate source of information, and often just one that lives for your approval. Bad habits? Eh, what are you talking about, ChatGPT told me itâs fine, because itâs entire existence is to keep you using it longer and facing any hard truths or encountering any real life hard times when it comes to your mental health journey would stop that!
I just donât get it. Every single one of these people who use these shitty AIs have a favourite book or movie or song, and they are doing nothing by feeding into this hype but ensuring human originality and sincere passion will never be rewarded again. How cute! You turned that photo of you and your boyfriend into ghibli style. I bet Hayao Miyazaki, famously anti-war and pro-environmentalist who instills in all his movies a lifelong dedication to the idea that humanityâs strongest ally is always itself, is so happy that your request and millions of others probably dried up a small oceanâs worth of water, and is only stamping out opportunities for artists everywhere, who couldâve all grown up to be another Miyazaki. Thanks, guys. Great job all round.
i canât believe during a buff women shortage the last of us decided to make abby a regular girl. not a toned bicep in sight. buff death
yeah like no hate to the actress!! but man what a loss for buff women lovers everywhere. i just have to stare at my moodboard instead.
Did I miss out on the decision that April is gonna be Gaz's month? Cause all of sudden he's everywhere. And I love it. Can we maybe also make May Gaz's month as well? ...and maybe June too? and July...Fuck it! Spring and early summer is now Gaz's season. Gonna push this to congress to make it happen.
If you're using gen AI because "you want to make art but don't know how/can't learn/it's easier/whatever"
You don't want to make art.
You want someone to make art for you, but you don't want to pay or exchange anything of equal value for it, and also you want it right now, in whatever style you fancy that moment, and in whatever quantity you want. You're greedy and entitled and it is just that simple. You don't want to make anything.
Everyone sleeps on Gaz, he fits with everyone if you want him in a ship!
Ghost Gaz? He is still understanding and bright enough to combat Ghosts grumpiness, and he's still smart and sticks with it.
Gazprice? You got a captain sergeant dynamic, get Gaz being able to give cheek, and sweet price with the sergeant he stole.
Gaz soap? I mean seriously? Those two are the epitome of drunk make outs with your mates. Friendships, and chaos.
Give Gaz love!!
every loser with their h*gwarts house in their bio owes a british trans person $700
John Brosio (American, b. 1968, Pasadena, CA, USA) - Night Hunt II, 2018, Paintings: Oil on Canvas
With everything going around these days about generative AI (such as c.ai in fan settings, and chatgpt for everything else) I've decided to put together some banners for creators to put with their works if they like. Here are the ones I have so far:
(LET THE MACHINE STARVE - DO NOT FEED AI MY WORKS)
(KEEP ART HUMAN - DEATH TO AI)
(THIS WAS MADE BY A HUMAN - KEEP IT THAT WAY)
(NEURONS NOT WIRES - DEATH TO AI)
(HUMAN MADE HUMAN LOVED - DEATH TO AI)
(SAY NO TO GENERATIVE AI - DEATH TO CONSUMERISM)
(NEW THOUGHTS ARE HUMAN MADE - DEATH TO GENERATIVE AI)
(MADE WITH HEART NOT A CPU - DEATH TO AI)
Feel free to use these! I just ask that you reblog this post if you do, and tag me for credit somewhere on your blog (:
I've tried to pick a color that looked legible on both light and dark backgrounds, but feel free to ask for other colors (via askbox) if you're needing something else and I'll try to get to it!
edit: some other versions i had made as well but wasn't sure how easier they were to see, so I put them beneath the larger versions!
Itâs so infantilizing to think that ND or disabled people are only able to function in the world because of Gen AI. @ those people: Stop using us as an excuse for your laziness!
It is so weird that ND people keep being used as the scapegoat. Like I promise you ND people also donât want our environment decimated because itâs slightly easier and lazier to use AI to write an email.
i hate to be that girl again but i'm not gonna care if that "141 + konig - gaz" is from today or 2023. i'm blocking you and everybody who liked and reblog it.
âGood girl,â he mutters, voice thick with it, and your cunt clenches around him in response. âGod, you take me soââ you whimper, rolling your hips to meet his, and he hisses. âYeah,â his mouth finds your ear. âShow me what you can give meââ
WARNINGS - 18+ mdni. smut. so much smut. darker themes ie death. a super deep and twisted interpretation of a solider whoâs being reckless in attempt to run from their feelings. captain price is bred to hunt so itâs futile. piv. mirror sex. multi orgasms. size kink. dirty talk. dubcon slightly. we shouldnât be doing this trope. slightly morally grey. a lot of sleep token references. fingering. reader afab. mentions of blood, injury. slight brat/dom dynamic. overstimulation.
The first thing you register is the weight of him.
Not his hands, though theyâre there too â firm around your arms, holding you steady â but him. The heat of him at your side, sweat and cigarettes filling your muddled senses with each laboured breath you gasp for. The quiet, infernal energy that pours off him, taking up too much space, too much air from your already airless lungs.
âYou with me?â His voice rumbles close to your ear.
You try to nod, but the motion sends a fresh bolt of pain ricocheting through your skull. Your breath hitches, and his grip tightens.
âEasy.â A low murmur, meant to soothe. âAlmost there.â
There being the med bay, where fluorescent lights paint everything sterile. Too bright, too fucking loud alongside the offset drumbeat in your ears. He doesnât let you sit on your own â eases you down onto the cot himself, hands as steady as they always are, even when yours are the furthest from.
You wince as you shift, and his eyes flick over you. Heâs still assessing.
âShouldnâtâve let that bastard get a hit in,â he mutters, half to himself.
You know what heâs thinking. The result of your own impulsivity. Reckless. âYeah, Iâll try to avoid that next time.â
He exhales sharply. A shake of his head. âCouldâve been worse.â
You know that. Just like you know heâs only saying it to ease your dread. But you can see it in the way he looks at you, something unreadable tightening at the corners of his mouth, that heâs seen it. Many more times than you think.
âIâm fine,â you tell him. âYou donât have toââ
He doesnât let you finish.
Just gives you that look, the one that shuts people up without him having to say a damn thing. Itâs something youâre still learning about him â the way he often communicates without words. How his silence and pointed stares hold more meaning than most peopleâs shouting. Youâve also learned the effort to argue with him when heâs like this is a futile one. Youâre a part of his team. Heâll be with you through it all.
Then, without asking, he reaches for you â because he knows youâll let him. One hand bracing your chin, tilting your head so he can get a better look at the damage.
And even through the agony, itâs all too much.
The touch, the closeness, the way he hasnât taken his eyes off you for one goddamn second since youâd been hit. Your throat goes dry at the realization that itâs doing more to you than it should. But youâll never get used to how he does it. How a man like him â a wartime killer with more bloodshed on his fingertips than skin covering his limbs â can still look at you with something even remotely soft, when heâs bred to be everything but.
âYou always this stubborn?â His voice is quieter now. A rough rasp against his throat.
You swallow, pulse hammering. âYou always this persistent?â
His lips quirk, but his grip stays firm, fingers cool against your fevered skin.
âYouâll get used to it.â
You wondered then, if you ever really would.
âââââââ
Months later, youâre still wondering the same thing.
Itâs been months since that night in the med bay. Months of keeping yourself at armâs length. Of keeping things professional. Of projecting platonic renditions despite the cursed thing threatening to take its place.
Or, well, trying to.
Because if thereâs one thing you know for certain, itâs that tension like this doesnât fade. It festers.
No matter how deep you try to bury it, perseverance is its ally. Helps it crawl out of the grave you dug for it in every brush of his fingers against yours when he hands over a magazine clip, every order spoken gravel in your ear, every glance held a second too long when neither of you are fast enough to look away. It leaves claw marks in everything, has been ever since the day he carried you through crumbling stone and mortar â ever since you felt him so fucking close and you realized you didnât mind it. Since the moment you learned more about him in twenty minutes than you have in the entire year by his side.
That night relinquished something. Made you see him in a new light. What was once a beacon is now a solar flare for dead gods.
And it erupts here. Now.
In the barracks washroom after a mission gone sideways. After a fight that took too much out of you â left your bones aching, your skull pounding with the remnants of a concussion youâre beginning to suspect never fully healed â skin still humming raw, soaked in adrenaline and something a little too fucking reckless.
After he follows you in.
The door slams behind him, the sound ricocheting off the tiles. You donât turn around, just strip your tac vest off with more force than necessary, breathing hard, hissing under your breath as exhaustion begins smothering out the fire in your blood.
âYou got a fucking death wish?â
You can feel him staring at you. You know heâs seeing red â the heat of his eyes on your back incomparable to the even the greediest hellfires.
You exhale, press your palms flat against the edge of the sink. âDonât start.â
âDonât start?â He steps closer. âYou ran straight into that firefight without cover.â
âI handled it.â
âYou barely walked away.â
Finally, you turn, glare at him over your shoulder. âThat what this is? Another fucking lecture?â
He doesnât scowl. Doesnât snap at you like your previous COs would. He just watches. And somehow, thatâs worse.
âThat what you think Iâm doing?â
You scoff, shake your head, turning back toward the sink. The mirror in front of you is cracked down the middle, splitting your reflection in two. And you think, rather ridiculously, that itâs a perfect fucking picture of how you feel. Torn. Between the persistence of him and the need to keep your distance. Between what youâve spent months trying to ignore and the way it still catches you off guardâhow you keep finding yourself watching him, noticing him, like something inside you has already made a decision you canât retract.
Behind you, he exhales slow. You hear the shift of his boots against the floor.
âCanât keep doing this,â he mutters. âWonât.â
Something in your chest tightens.
âWhat, watching my back?â You force your voice to stay even. âThatâs your job, isnât it?â
âNot like this.â
The simplicity of that response has currency, and you know the behaviour. The familiar silence that tells you thereâs more to this. Syllables pleading behind his teeth which he isnât quite yet dignifying â but that slice along the back of his throat all the same. You meet his gaze in the mirror, and you see it then. In the dim light of his ocean eyes.
An emergence.
âI canât watch you go down again.â There it is. Words coaxed out in that thick accent of his that inflicts them like a wound. Heâs moving closer now, extinguishing the space. Stepping up behind you. âYou havenât been right for months. I need to know why.â
At that, you almost recoil â each syllable thrusting the knife deeper into your resolve, and you realize itâs not his accent that makes them cut, but the way he speaks them. Certain. As if heâs looking at you bare. No layers left to protect you. Like youâre nothing but sinew and marrow. Like your eyes and limbs are instruments to pick apart.
You stare at the sink. âSo you are always this persistent.â
It leaves your lips exactly as you mean it â a callback, a test. You donât watch his face, but the silence stretching long tells you it landed exactly where you wanted. A synapse snap back, an echo from the depths of whatever is eating you from the inside out.
âAnd you,â a pause, breath ghosting against the shell of your ear. âAre always this stubborn.â
He says it like an indictment.
Youâre sure itâs because he knows you. Because he sees how you bleed and pretend you donât. How youâve been keeping yourself at armâs length for months. Because youâve cornered yourself â because you let the bruises fade without ever acknowledging how deep they burrow.
Your fingers tighten around the porcelain, like if you hold on hard enough you can keep the charade going. Pretend you donât feel what you feel. But then, you glance up, and there it is â your reflection wavering in the split mirror, cut through by the fault line of your own indecision. Your own internal warfare.
âYes,â you whisper. âBut you knew that long ago.â
âI did.â His hand braces against the sink beside yours as he all but cages you against it. âBut I keep thinking, sooner or later, youâll let yourself stop.â
Another pause. A breath suspended in air too thick, in a space that feels too small.
âYou want me to stop?â
He exhales through his nose. âI want you to want to.â
Itâs an invitation. A quiet demand.
You swallow against the burn in your throat because itâs clear he knows whatâs hiding behind your eyes. Heâs just asking you to be honest. To pull the words from where theyâve been buried, to stop dissolving them like acid on your tongue. To let him in.
âThen you want for nothing.â Your voice is softer than you mean it to be, dangerously close to breaking. âBecause you know Iâd tell you anything if you asked.â
His eyes meet yours in the mirror.
âTell me whatâs making you reckless.â
Youâd expected that â or something like it â but it still takes you apart. Thread by thread, a rope cinched through the hollow of your ribs. Pulling, pulling âwaiting for you to give.
And you almost do. Almost let it spill, let it take shape in the open air between you. The truth of it. The rot youâve kept pressed beneath your tongue, the slow, patient decay of something you know you shouldnât feel.
But insteadâ
âItâs the head injury,â you lie.
A hollow offering. Brittle. A crumbling thing in place of the real answer.
His fingers twitch against the porcelain, reflection sharpening in the mirror â cutting through the fractures heâs causing. He doesnât scoff. Doesnât accuse you of lying. And thatâs worse. So much worse. Because it means heâs seeing you. Means heâs waiting â sifting through the hollow, the fractions of you that no longer fit together in search of the thing you hesitate to give him.
âYou canât lie to me.â It sinks deep. Sticks somewhere you canât pull it free. Heâs right. âWe both know it isnât just that.â
You exhale something like a laugh except itâs boneless and bitter, just nerves spilling out because theyâve got no where else to go.
âDidnât know you were a medic now.â You break your eyes back to the sink. âOr a mind reader.â
âI donât need to be.â The words come fast. Convicting. âI just need to know you.â
And that. That makes you look up at him again. Makes you meet his eyes. Makes you burn.
âPriceââ
His lips are against your ear. âTell me.â
Your throat closes. The rope pulls tighter. You know what he wants â what heâs asking. But the answer feels like it wonât fit in your mouth. The swell of truth too large. Too longly suppressed because god this is your Captain and all he did was save your life. You know you should just be grateful and yet the only thing on your mind is granting him more than the debt you owe.
Because when you canât swallow your demons, they donât just disappear. They turn to hunger instead.
It was his hands that had fed them. Theyâre still starving now.
âThe truth will ruin everything, Captain.â The words tear from your throat like heâs ripped them out himself. âThis isnât something you, or anyone, can help me with.â
You feel him go still the moment the words leave you. Feel it in the hand bracing against the sink, the exhale of his breath against your neck.
âSo thatâs what this is.â Your stomach coils, something twisting tight as you turn your head to face him. He doesnât move back. Just dips his gaze to your lips. âYouâre feeling too much, yeah? Think by being reckless you can run from it.â
Itâs startling, the way he sees right through you. Your silence is a telling confession and he reads it like scripture.
Youâve always known it would be hard with him. Knew it from the beginning, because heâs as sharp as he is skilled, because he knows how to look at a situation and read the words left unspoken.
You nod. All while wishing it was anyone else.
âYou canât outrun this.â His voice drops, dragging his free hand up the nape of your neck. âCanât outrun me.â
He tugs you toward him, something dark flashing beneath his eyes â something like possession, something that makes your bones ache as his mouth ghosts over yours. A torturous, drawn-out motion, withholding what you know heâll take.
A breath passes between you, your eyes closed, a million things unspoken. Spinning. Thrumming in the silence.
Then, he brushes his lips to yours. And thereâs fire.
A slow-burning ruin, heat licking through your stomach, curling in your spine, and it devours you â every breath, every instinct screaming at you to pull away, to run. Itâs all gone. Gone until the moment he pulls back. Presses his forehead against yours.
âI know.â You reply, and for a second you think heâs backing off.
He doesnât.
Lips against yours again, he takes. Your mouth parts on a sharp inhale. Shock, surrender, his tongue slipping against yours, before he kisses you hard. Like heâs been waiting for this, waiting for your admittance. Like this is something heâs fought against just as much as you have.
Your hands find his shoulders, something to brace against as he pulls you in deeper. The breath is gone from your lungs, your pulse pounding for an entirely different reason now. You open your eyes as he pulls back again. Take in the sharp cut of his features â the shadow of a beard against his jaw, the darkness of his gaze, drinking you in like he wants to keep you there.
âYou donât get to die on me,â he murmurs, and it makes your world tilt. Makes you wonder if you hit your head harder than you thought, all those months ago. Makes you wonder if youâre hallucinating. âChrist.â His fingers flex at your waist. âYou donât get to be careless.â
Thereâs something in him youâve never seen before. Something undone. Something you donât understand but do at the same time â because you feel it too. The decades of loss. The battle scars. The countless near misses that linger for life. You werenât thrusting yourself into open fire with some raging death wish â but you werenât being as methodical as you should have been either, all to chase that fucking adrenaline spike. You didnât think heâd have this reaction.
And thereâs so much you need to say. So much you need to do. But all you can do is whisper, breathless against him. âIâm sorry.â
Thereâs a pause. A click of his tongue.
âIâm not done with you.â His mouth finds yours again, something softer this time, but no less demanding. You donât fight it. And when his free hand dips down your back, you tilt your head up into him, hands fisted in his shirt, wishing you didnât miss the feel of it so devastatingly when he pulls back again. âYou want reckless? Iâll show you fucking reckless.â
You donât have a chance to answer before he spins you around and shoves you against the counter. A groan slips from your lips, but you relish the feel of him â the warmth of his chest as he steps into you, crowding you until all you know is his heat.
His hands slide down your sides, gripping at your hips, the heat in your gut burning hot as he holds you in place.
âThis what you want?â He mutters against the side of your throat, his nose nudging your jaw. âOr do you still want to run?â
You swallow, mouth parted, breath coming hard. Itâs a question, but you know he doesnât really want an answer. Not with everything heâs doing. Not with the way heâs holding you, the way his hands slip beneath your shirt, calloused fingers grazing bare skin as he tugs the fabric up.
Your breath hitches. âChrist, Captainââ
You feel his mouth brush against your neck, tongue lavving out to taste you. Like heâs hungry and youâre a goddamn four-course meal. You moan. Itâs all you can do to stay upright, legs going weak when he nips at your jaw.
âNo Captain.â A demand. His hand sliding lower, dipping under the fabric of your cargos. âJohn.â
John. You shudder at the implication of it. John is a rare thingâsomething youâve only ever heard him give to a handful of others, and no one else. John is personal. John is when heâs no longer your superior, but instead, your equal.
âJohn.â Somehow, it rolls off your tongue like breathing, like it had always been waiting there for this moment. Another moan follows it, just as his fingers find your clit. âOhgod, Johnââ
He hums, teasing you, fingers moving in paced, languid circles like heâs got nothing but time despite the way his chest is pacing against your back. Pressure building beneath his skin. You feel the tension in him â the way his muscles shift, the way he tenses in response.
âThatâs it,â he grinds out, fingers speeding up just enough. âYou like that?â
Your answer is an afterthought. You donât speak, donât need to. Your mouth finds his again, and he swallows the breath you try to take. All you can do is nod.
And you know you have no fucking right to know what he sounds like. How he tastes as your tongue wrestles his. Your head spinning too fast for you to think because he is everywhere, a heady mix of lust and need as you desperately try to chase the way he makes your blood race. Itâs all so new. So fucking wanton. Needy. As if all the months of wanting have finally caught up to the moment, a wildfire that seems to burn all logic. You know this is wrong â but fuck you donât care.
You know in a second, heâll be pressing you against the granite and youâll have to make a thousand apologies to whatever god may be listening.
But then he pushes a finger into you, and you only have one prayer on your tongue. âOh, John.â
He exhales against you, a quiet growl that goes straight to your head. Itâs the same sound he makes when heâs in a combat, and thereâs something about the idea of being able to make him feel the same as he feels when heâs a man of war that makes fireworks light up behind your eyelids.
âMm. Sheâs fucking tight.â He mutters as he curls his finger and presses deeper. You gasp, the sound swallowed between you. âThis is what you needed, hm? Needed me to pin you down. Make you fucking feel.â
Thatâ thatâs exactly it. Your eyes dart up to his in the mirror because yes. In the fractures heâd caused heâd found what you were too afraid to verbalize. And it makes you keen â the way itâs like he can rip out your soul and hold it in his hands. You know you canât hide it in your gaze, the desperation that comes with that kind of dependency.
Of course.
âYou. Mm. You always know just what I need.â You moan out, as teasing as possible, while your climax barrels closer.
And he relishes it. Every second. Itâs obvious in the sharp inhale he takes, the way his pupils dilate until the blue in his eyes look like a halo in a sea of blackened lust. Your head feels like itâs splitting in two, caught between the pressure building inside you and the heat that seems to be coiling so tight you could implode.
He adds a second finger, and you have to grip onto the counter if you want to still find your feet.
âOhmygodâfuck, Johnââ
You donât know how you look, canât bring yourself to face your reflection â but you know how it feels, the way the world is tipping like youâre on the deck of a ship, the way your stomach clenches and your nerves light like fire under your skin. The irony of the situation isnât lost on you. You spent months running from him just to end up here. You realize now that heâs always been a step ahead in a way you canât understand, and you know youâre playing a game you wonât win.
âLet me feel it.â He purrs against your ear, fingers pumping. âLet it happen.â
You moan loud at that, clenching around his fingers because it already is happening. The pleasure is hot and blinding.
âOhgodââ your voice breaks between words, your head falling back against of his shoulder. âFuck. Iâmââ
He knows. The heat building in your gut so bright it seeps through your skin. So, he dips his other hand back beneath your shirt, palming your breast and you know itâs to make you fall even harder â and christ, he manages it. You erupt, climax hitting you like a train.
The bliss is blinding, and you want to scream â but canât because his mouth is on yours, capturing every strangled gasp you give as you try to catch your breath. Youâre trembling, legs shaking, your body trying to find some sort of ground as you gasp for breath â but then heâs pulling his hand out and sliding off to one side. You feel empty. Breathless. You think, in some dim place in your mind, that you should feel embarrassed now, but youâre too distracted to care. As your breathing returns, you can hear him sucking on his fingers.
Tasting you.
You can barely stand it, the noise curling through the fog in your head. You hear a soft pop, and suddenly his hand is on your jaw, tilting you towards the mirror, and you finally look.
You think you almost look the same. You can almost pretend that that this is what itâs always been â something fleeting and nameless and reckless â but thereâs a flush on your cheeks, a gloss in your eyes, that you canât deny. In fact, the only thing that breaks you out of the fantasy is the way Johnâs eyes meet yours.
As if there was ever any mistaking what you would allow to happen here. You know, looking at him, that that the hunger in your gaze would always give away the truth. That he would always know how to read you.
âReckless.â He mutters, as if he knows exactly what youâre thinking, as if itâs something heâd known all along. You watch his jaw clench, his fingers digging into your cheeks. Itâs not angry â itâs something more. A possession. âYou do not get to leave me.â
Youâve known this man for barely a year, and yet he understands something you cannot. Something different from all your previous COâs. Something that goes deeper than protection of a superior. And for the first time, you realize you canât hideânot from him, not from whatever this is.
âIs that an order?â You whisper. Smirking.
He leans in, the heat of him branding against your spine, and you feel his words before he speaks them, rough and low on your throat.
âAn order,â he echoes, hands sliding down to your hips. âAnd a threat.â
Your breath stutters, head spinning too fast to think. This is dangerous â whatever this is. Itâs like the two of you are careening off the edge of a mountain, barreling toward something irreversible. You should stop this. You should pull away.
âMm.â Instead, you arch your back, pressing against him with a low, breathy hum. âNow whoâs being reckless.â
âMhm. Knew youâd like that,â he mutters, mouth dragging against your jaw. His hands are already working, tugging down your zipper. âBrat.â
You should hate that word. Before him, you would have even more so. But something about the way he says it makes you bite your lip.
âYou want to be put in your place.â His hands are purposed. Tugging down your cargos, undoing his belt. âThat it?â
âDepends.â Your breath hitches. âWhere exactly is my place, Captain?â
âRight here.â He presses you forward, palm splayed between your shoulder blades. His other hand grips your hip, dragging you against him, the thick weight of his need sliding along the slick between your thighs. You swallow a moan. âRight underneath me, Sergeant.â
You donât answer. You canât. Your head is spinning too fast to think. Then, heâs pushing inside you, and you lose the last of your breath.
âFuck.â Your eyes catch in the mirror, watching as he sinks in, stretching you wide, splitting you open. The breath punches from your lungs, knuckles strained where you brace against the counter. Your head falls back, and he groans â a low, guttural sound that ripples through you. âPriceââ
His fingers press into your jaw, turning your gaze back to the mirror. âLook at me.â
You do. And God. You wish you hadnât.
Dark, blown-out pupils devour the blue of his irises. His chest heaves, the cords of his neck pulled tight. You donât think youâve ever seen anything more wrecked, more devastating, than the way he looks at you now.
âGood girl,â he mutters, voice thick with it, and your cunt clenches around him in response. His breath stutters. âGod, you take me soââ you whimper, rolling your hips to meet his, and he hisses. âYeah,â his mouth finds your ear. âShow me what you can give meââ
You try. You really do. But fuckâ
âHuge,â you gasp, tipping onto your toes for respite as he buries himself to the hilt. âFuckâJohnââ
âMhm. Donât runââ his hand slides up your throat, fingers curling, just enough to make it dangerous. You gasp, pulse hammering against his palm. He knows. Of course he does. The way he knows everything about you. âYouâll get used to it.â
Youâll get used to it.
The words echo back at you. The same ones he murmured the first time you asked him if heâs always this persistent. If you could think, youâd laugh. But you canât. Because now you know the answer. Yes, he is always this persistent. And no, you will never fucking get used to it.
Your moans have long since lost restraint, spilling from your lips in time with his thrusts, raw and wanton and so fucking desperate. He takes you like itâs not the first time, like heâs not far too big to be this deep â his grip bruising in the best way, dragging you closer and closer to the edge. You feel the fractures of yourself, a thousand pieces of you suspended midair, trembling on the verge of shattering. Youâve never been this close to the sun. And god, if it doesnât feel like fire.
Then, he says your name.
Your name. Your real name.
And itâs like breaking the surface of water after nearly drowningâlike oxygen flooding into starving lungs. It strips you raw, turns the world molten beneath you, sends you spiraling into release all over again, the pleasure so sharp it almost aches. His hand claps over your mouth, muffling your sob of a moan as your body locks up, trembling.
âYeah. There we go. Let it all out fâme.â His voice is dark, rough with something that sends another sharp pulse between your legs. His hips slap against your ass, relentless. âIâve fucking got you.â
And you know he does. In a way you donât trust your breath or your bones. In a way that terrifies you just as much as it makes you need.
Your vision blurs, heat rippling through your limbs, but heâhe is unmoving. Steady. Like steel. Like he can take you at your best and your worst. Like he could tame this thing between you, whatever reckless, nameless thing this is, and make it his.
âThatâs right. You look at yourself,â he grunts, one hand digging into your hip, the other still clamped over your mouth. Your glassy eyes flick up to the mirror, catching his reflection behind youâpupils blackened, lips parted, gaze locked on you. âMâgonna dumb you out. Fuck you âtil you canât walk, never mind run.â
Your nails scrape divots into the granite as he shoves you further over the counter, forcing you to take him deeper. A wrecked whimper slips through your teeth, body caught between overstimulation and desperate, eager want. You squeeze your eyes shut, feeling the slick drip down your thighs, soaking into your ruined cargos â you know he can feel it too.
âShit.â He rasps, voice fraying. His hand leaves your mouth, slides down to your throat, not squeezing, just holding as his other moves. Fingers finding the mess between your legs, pressing slow circles over your swollen clit. âTight little slut.â
Your body jerks. âFuckâJohnââ
âThatâs it. Gimme another,â he mutters, rolling his hips, hitting something deep inside you that makes your vision blur. âCâmon, sweetheart, I know you can.â
Itâs too much. The thick, hot drag of his dick with every punishing thrust â the rough slide of his fingers. The weight of his body pressing you into the counter like heâll never let you go. You canât think. Canât breatheâ
And then he growls your name again, deep and needing, and it sends you over with a broken sob, body writhing, mind slipping into static as you cum again, clenched so tight around him it makes him stutter.
His hand fists in your hair, dragging your head back so his lips brush your ear. âGood girl. Fucking perfectââ
You feel it when he loses himself. Through the fog of pure bliss. When his grip turns almost punishing, when his hips stutter, when the ragged groan tears through his throat. He grinds deep, burying himself to the hilt, body rigid as he groans and spills inside you with a choked curse.
And then, thereâs stillness.
Both of you breathing uneven â more so him, heavy against the nape of your neck. And for a long moment, itâs just that. Just the sound of your bodies slowing, just the lingering thrum of pleasure untwisting from both of your bloodstreams.
Then, his fingers tighten on your throat. Just enough. Just to make sure you feel it.
âYou ever pull some reckless shit like that again,â he mutters, voice raw, scraping against your ear, âyou wonât be able to fucking talk when Iâm done with you.â
Your breath stutters, thighs twitching at the promise in his tone.
âYou got a problem, you come to me. You donât run. Donât put yourself into the fire just to fucking feel something.â His hand slides up, grips your jaw, tilts your head just enough so you can see him in the mirror â blue eyes all pupil, sharp jaw clenched. âYouâre mine,â he murmurs. âAnd I take care of whatâs mine. No matter what.â
A slow, shuddering breath leaves you. He watches your lips part, watches the way your body reacts to his words. Then, his grip on your throat eases. A slow drag of his hands down your body, like heâs memorizing the feeling of you ruined under him.
âUnderstand me?â His voice is quieter now, but no less dangerous.
You swallow. Nod. âYes sir.â
He hums. Seemingly satisfied, pressing a slow, lingering kiss to the back of your shoulder.
âGood.â
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No one will know which applies.
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Do you think Ghost and Soap are the right flavor of fucked up to brand themselves with each others dog tags?
Write it shitty, write it scared, write it without a clue but don't you be so spineless and have an AI write fanfic for you.