Marshwater

2005

here is a photo I took of an Indian flying fox in Sri Lanka, seven years ago. I've always like this photo because of the colour of the evening and the way the bat is framed by the palm leaves, ephemeral: it reminds me a bit of images of ufo sightings in postwar america, like something you'd find in an old local newspaper or pinned to the wall in a bunker in the desert

also changed my username :)

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Photographs by Nan Goldin

At the bar: Toon, Cee, and So, Bangkok, 1992 Max, Muffy, and Peter at Sharon’s birthday party, Provincetown, 1976 Joey and Andres in Hotel Askanischer Hof, Berlin, 1992 Christine floating in the sea, St. Barth's, 1999 Yogo Putting on Powder, Second Trip, Bangkok, 1993 Picnic on the Esplanade, Boston, 1973 Clemens lying on his back, Paris, 2001 Christmas at The Other Side, Boston, 1972

sketch for the judgement, charcoal on paper, john singer sargent, c. 1903-1916

these massive power station chimneys cooling towers were really central in understanding my existence in the world as a child as they were the biggest thing i had ever seen. when i had to imagine something 'big' i would shut my eyes and think of these. i admit i still do, sometimes.

it's probably thanks to those at Ratcliffe-on-Soar power station in the Trent Valley (or 'megawatt valley') which you could see from Charnwood Forest, where i used to walk with my mum from her home in Leicester, when i was small. the towers were quite far away yet still so visible and vast, like storybook giants.

more recently when i was maybe 18 and just out of school i was getting a train from Loughborough to Nottingham to see a gig that my friend Maia was putting on. i had to change at East Midlands Parkway. i got off the train, and it pulled away to reveal these massive towers just over the fence. i realised they were those same ones at Ratcliffe. life seemed quite directionless, as it does when you've just finished school, but the towers were still there and still massive and i was nearly touching them.

i just sat on the platform and stared at them for about twenty minutes while i waited for my train. i wish i could remember what music i was listening to, makes me want to keep a music diary. i took a photo on my phone that i wish i could post alongside this one but idk where it is :-/

apparently Ratcliffe was the last remaining operational coal-fired power station in the UK, and it was closed in 2024. i hope those towers stay standing.

Michael Kenna, Silent World

Sierra Madre Oriental: Geological Pink Tales, Nydia Lilian, 2024-2025

An antique cigarette lighter and fob chain, featuring a fob charm made from the beak of a male huia. This bird species, found only on the North Island of New Zealand, was driven to extinction by the early 20th Century. The piece itself dates to around the same time. [ x ]