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Want to learn something new in 2022??

Absolute beginner adult ballet series (fabulous beginning teacher)

40 piano lessons for beginners (some of the best explanations for piano I’ve ever seen)

Excellent basic crochet video series

Basic knitting (probably the best how to knit video out there)

Pre-Free Figure Skate Levels A-D guides and practice activities (each video builds up with exercises to the actual moves!)

How to draw character faces video (very funny, surprisingly instructive?)

Another drawing character faces video

Literally my favorite art pose hack

Tutorial of how to make a whole ass Stardew Valley esque farming game in Gamemaker Studios 2??

Introduction to flying small aircrafts

French/Dutch/Fishtail braiding

Playing the guitar for beginners (well paced and excellent instructor)

Playing the violin for beginners (really good practical tips mixed in)

Color theory in digital art (not of the children’s hospital variety)

Retake classes you hated but now there’s zero stakes:

Calculus 1 (full semester class)

Learn basic statistics (free textbook)

Introduction to college physics (free textbook)

Introduction to accounting (free textbook)

Learn a language:

Ancient Greek

Latin

Spanish

German

Japanese (grammar guide) (for dummies)

French

Russian (pretty good cyrillic guide!)

Baby birds and Legendary birb

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I’ve been having bad days and drawing this helped me remember things.

I hope it helps you, too.

IT’S NOT ‘PEEKED’ MY INTEREST

OR ‘PEAKED’

BUT PIQUED

‘PIQUED MY INTEREST’

THIS HAS BEEN A CAPSLOCK PSA

heartbreak songs

james tw - when you love someone

kodaline - all i want

ed sheeran - perfect

james arthur - can i be him

amber run - i found

luke sital-singh - nothing stays the same

ron pope - a drop in the ocean

passenger - holes

the goo goo dolls - iris

james arthur - say you won’t let go

shawn mendes - a little too much

ed sheeran - all of the stars

niall horan - flicker

sam smith - too good at goodbyes

coldplay - fix you

chord overstreet - hold on

ed sheeran - save myself

zara larsson - i can’t fall in love without you

kodaline - high hopes

the script - breakeven

ed sheeran - supermarket flowers

shawn mendes - roses

snow patrol - chasing cars

james arthur - safe inside

lewis capaldi - bruises

jaymes young - i’ll be good

camila cabello - i have questions

james tw - ex (acoustic)

shawn mendes - never be alone

blackbear - idfc

linkin park - one more light

one republic - let’s hurt tonight

fink - looking too closely

hozier - someone new

shawn mendes - life of the party

james arthur - certain things

lewis capaldi - fade

niall horan - this town

hurts - stay

shawn mendes - running low

austin percario - never be the same (camila cabello)

x ambassadors - unsteady

alfie arcuri - if they only knew

sam smith - lay me down

little mix, jason derulo - secret love song

harry styles - sign of the times

andreas bourani - auf anderen wegen

niall horan - too much to ask

family of the year - hero

ed sheeran - give me love

hozier - like real people do

austin percario - boys in the street

passenger - let her go

birdy - skinny love

zayn - fool for you

ed sheeran - happier

one direction - love you goodbye

linkin park - iridescent

shawn mendes - imagination

justin bieber - purpose

one direction - if i could fly

linkin park - nobody can save me

calum scott - dancing on my own

gnash, olivia o'brien - i hate u, i love u

ed sheeran - lego house

halsey - hopeless

kc rebell - ich brauch dich

russ - losin’ control

How it turned out

Am I a burden? A flaw? Does my presence do more bad than good? Am I broken? The shell of what could but never will be. A husk of a bright child who never failed to make you smile. A memory of that smart kid that didn't need to try to succeed.

But school went from abc's to please help me's. It went from defining a living being to realizing I'm barely meeting the criteria. From screams of joy to tears of grief...

And then...when I first met her I thought my world became brighter and my nights impossibly lighter. But even she turned out to be a mystery I shouldn't have discovered. From butterflies to anxious maggots. Anticipation became fear... Laughter was rare and happiness scarce. When she finally put me from one misery into the next and left I was already broken... Soon after I found another yet...

It seemed that she took a part of me with her, for I was not able to love him as I have loved her. Be it because I already knew deep down the person he truly was.. But despite that I had fun. He distracted me from the dreadfulness of my days.. All up to the point when he didn't. Comfort was rare and my main emotions became worry laced fears.. I had to end it.. Would I not have, I don't know where I'd be.

Time passed and I went from feeling empty to getting by. Healing. And then. Then there was her. It was unexpected, pure fate I'd say. I believed in love at first sight but never thought I would be lucky enough to experience let alone end up keeping it. It almost seemed too good to be true. Almost. Too new, too foreign it was to me to feel loved, trully loved for who you are. And it was at first, although new, as it should be.

The so called "honeymoon phase" was as sweet as mead. I was afraid that once it ended things would rapidly decline but to my delight that didn't happen. We had our fair share of arguments of course but we fixed those and moved on.. So I'd at least like to hope. But no matter the phase or the seasons, loving you. Loving you was never hard. It was and still is simple. Simple and freeing as a river in its bed. I've never known this. Never knew true love. So it surprised me when the fear set in and made its home in my heart.. The fear that I'll lose you. The fear I won't be good enough that I won't be able to give to you all that you deserve. That I'll say or do something wrong and drive you away. It was worse than anything I've ever felt before.

Well.. Until that one moment when my heart sank... It isn't easy for me to cry yet all it took was one small look and everything fell apart.. If I was overreacting I don't know.. Was I at fault for letting my heart shatter? Maybe.. But it'll heal. It always does. It will take time for the consequential anxieties to ease and the fears to lessen but they will. Despite that. Loving you will always be simple. Because you could tear me apart piece by piece until all that remained was my heart which would still beat for you. Still as strong as the day we met.

It's because of you that I know. To love is not just that. It's to fear, to worry, to laugh and squeal. It's all of that and more and it's all just because of you.. It's all just for you. I love you. I love you I always will. If I tried to explain just why that is I'd run out of pages and words to describe it. The wouldn't be enough hours in a day and weeks in a month to finish it.

To circle now, all the way to the beginning.. My worries and my fears are not here because of you. They've gathered throughout my life.. The only reason they're appearing now is.. Well.. You're the one person I sincerely care about.. The one I love and the one I couldn't live without.

April 19th, 2022. I wrote this then... It is now June 29th, 2022. She broke up with me after 1 year and 13 days. 13 days after our anniversary she proved thag all of those fears I had were not out of the blue. History repeats and I was a fool enough to believe that this time it would be different.

-I've returned from the dead with some quite personal writing-

Wilford Warfstache killed them all.

Darkiplier had a great fall.

Ten hours later the body rose again.

But neither could put their friends back together again.

Yes

Yyyyeahhhh