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“Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning how to dance in the rain.”

— Megan Hart, Tear You Apart

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

I Hate This Feeling

I hate this feeling I hate that after a long warm night, I could still feel blue the next morning I hate this feeling I hate that I oftentimes struggle to ignite the spark of living. I hate the feeling of emptiness When all I ever wanted is to embrace happiness I hate the feeling of being hopeless When all I ever wanted is to unleash myself and be free from darkness.

in silence, thousands of unsaid words resound loudly.

i have reached the point where i choose to understand. i choose to understand even if the things my loved ones do pain me. i choose to understand as long as they are still with me, as long as i can still hear their voice, and as long as i know that i may ask for their presence at any time.

there is no perfect working environment. toxicity can be found anywhere. it is just a matter of which one is worth sticking with.

i don't want to get to the point where i will be drained because of the career.

it's sad to think about the fact that you want to do, learn, or achieve a lot, but you have no motivation to do anything at all.

i've had a lot of realizations during these past few days. i used to have big dreams. but now, i'm eagerly looking for contentment as i believe it equates to peace of mind and a lighter heart.

now i understand why our parents often told us not grow up too fast. because they are aware of how challenging adult life will be, whereas we were clueless that once we reached adulthood, we would have wished to go back to our childhood.

“Be weird. Be random. Be who you are. Because you never know who would love the person you hide.”

— C.S. Lewis

“It’s both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.”

— David Jones

“The universe created you for a reason, now go out there and find out what it is.”

— Nikita Gill

the sorrow you feel when missing someone you can no longer see or embrace hits quite differently.

Life gives us choices. You either grab on with both hands and just go for it, or you sit on the sidelines.

Christine Feehan

i believe that the best way to respond to your haters is not to respond at all.

taking revenge against those who have caused harm to me and my loved ones is no longer something i do after coming to so many realisations. i mean, i'd rather focus my energy on improving my own character and just let the better version of myself speak the grace and class, which i believe are somethings they can't simply handle.

that tranquilly and satisfaction you've felt after choosing to be kind in spite of the hardships and difficulties you are facing.

be mindful of who you share your feelings with, as some people may use your sufferings to manipulate you or your accomplishments to deceive you.

i'm gradually allowing myself to discontinue oversharing. i came to realise that being overly open to others equates to allowing them to view beyond the surface of yourself, which can be used against you or against the people you value about the most.

you know, the features of my body i admired the most were my eyes. every time i looked in the mirror, i adored the way it glistened with glee. but now that i only see sorrow and pain in them, i'm unable to fall in love with it again.

when will i ever be able to have peace of mind again? the sort of peace that soothes my entire being, the kind of peace that radiates nothing but love and joyfulness to everyone around me, and the kind of peace that makes me yearn to live this kind of life again.

keeping myself busy to feel okay.

“Life is inherently risky. There is only one big risk you should avoid at all costs, and that is the risk of doing nothing.”

— Denis Waitley

I miss the way I viewed the world before I knew too much about it

“Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.”

— Lao Tzu

i couldn't get this certain quote from a korean drama out of my head: "miracle is another named for hard work."

i've been inspired by other people, so i aspire to inspire other people as well.

please remember that hurting someone else simply because you're hurting was never okay and never will be.

what i regret most is that i wasted too much time and energy worrying about things that haven't even happened yet instead of savouring or embracing the small joys in the present.