17 Year Old: I'm Depressed. I'm Overwhelmed By Choice. I Feel Like The Stakes Are So High That If I Fail

my hobbies include making hot tea, going to the library and daydreaming a lot

Vintage/Retro Bowling Alley Carpet Patterns

my love language is people cooking and feeding each other food, like it’s so intimate for no reason

conservatives be like "trump is awesome" and their source is trump himself

23 Emotions people feel, but can’t explain

Sonder: The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own.

Opia: The ambiguous intensity of Looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.

Monachopsis: The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.

Énouement: The bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to tell your past self.

Vellichor: The strange wistfulness of used bookshops.

Rubatosis: The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.

Kenopsia: The eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that is usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet.

Mauerbauertraurigkeit: The inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like.

Jouska: A hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head.

Chrysalism: The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.

Vemödalen: The frustration of photographic something amazing when thousands of identical photos already exist.

Anecdoche: A conversation in which everyone is talking, but nobody is listening

Ellipsism: A sadness that you’ll never be able to know how history will turn out.

Kuebiko: A state of exhaustion inspired by acts of senseless violence.

Lachesism: The desire to be struck by disaster – to survive a plane crash, or to lose everything in a fire.

Exulansis: The tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.

Adronitis: Frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.

Rückkehrunruhe: The feeling of returning home after an immersive trip only to find it fading rapidly from your awareness.

Nodus Tollens: The realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore.

Onism: The frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time.

Liberosis: The desire to care less about things.

Altschmerz: Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had – the same boring flaws and anxieties that you’ve been gnawing on for years.

Occhiolism: The awareness of the smallness of your perspective.

Black and White painting  by Bob Ross

On Love and Passion

“BUTCHER OF THE WORLD” by Lingua Ignota / The Judas Kiss by Nikodem Silivanovich / “On Judas” by Kontakia of Romanos (Carpenter translation) / Bacio di Giuda by Ignazio Jacometti / El Prendimiento by Francisco Salzillo y Alcaraz / from The Last Days of Judas Iscariot by Stephen Adly Guirgis / from Corpus Christi by Terrence McNally / Tim Minchin in Jesus Christ Superstar 2012 UK Live Arena Tour / “Judas’ Death” from Jesus Christ Superstar / Ola Salo as Jesus and Peter Johansson as Judas in Jesus Christ Superstar 2014 Swedish Arena Tour / “Wishbone” by Richard Siken

Gertrude: Where have you all been?!

Hamlet: Oh, just out dealing with things way beyond our maturity level.

[insert positivity here]

not evil anymore i want to be loved now