❛  There  Ain’t  Language  For  The  Things  I’ve  Seen.  ❜

her  jaw  tightens  with  the  kind  of  tension  that  comes  from  holding  too  much  in.  too  much  blood,  too  much  memory,  too  much  of  that  awful,  helpless  ache  that  comes  when  it’s  a  kid  on  the  table  and  the  universe  dares  to  keep  spinning.

at  the  sound  of  mel's  voice,  she  turns  to  face  her.  there’s  always  the  undertone  of  something  haunted  in  her  gaze,  but  it  doesn’t  waver.  not,  when  the  junior  staff  are  looking  at  her  like  she’s  supposed  to  make  it  make  sense.

❛  yes,  doctor  king,  please,  ask.  ❜

Mel doesn't like this. She doesn't like when it's kids; she doesn't like when there are parents, and siblings, just a few steps away.

Eyes daring between Dr. Robby's still frame and the boy on the gurney, Mel wonders what's keeping their boss from sharing a few words of guidance. Whether it's a reassurance or next steps, she'd like to hear it.

But Robby remains silent.

"Uh, Dr. De Lima," Mel tilts her head to the hallway. "Can I ask a question?"

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↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   no longer updating .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

i don’t need you to hold my hand through this .

are you sure this is the right thing to do ?

can’t we try to pretend things are okay ?

what is THAT supposed to mean ?

you’re always late ,  what am i supposed to think ?

there’s nothing you can do to fix this .

you’re far too kind to me .

can we go now ?  like ,  right now ?

i have to do this alone .

where’s your common sense ?

we aren’t supposed to be in here .

can you feel my heartbeat ?

i think i’ve seen you around before .

why are you acting weird ?

i have a really bad feeling .

i hate seeing you like this .

how am i supposed to react to that ?

what do you want most in the world ?

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∗ 14﹕ sender places their head in receiver’s lap . @nashmed

a  rare  lull,  caught  between  extremities  of  boundless  chaos.  IDLENESS  WAS  A  CURSE  for  gloria.  her  body  and  psyche  shaped  by  battlefronts  and  flipping  off  death  in  the  midst  of  carnage.  she’s  molded  into  it,  spine  rigid  with  war  and  pushing  through  on  the  home  front.  loss  gathers  in  her  throat,  clawing  its  way  up  until  chokes  it  all  back  down.  she’ll  carry  it  home  and  fall  apart,  save  anyone  the  burden  of  picking  her  off  the  floor.  because  if  she  sits  with  her  sorrow  long  enough,  it  might  bury  her.

she’s  about  to  move,  about  to  shuffle  back  up  when  the  slight  weight  of  a  head  positions  in  her  lap.  she  exhales  an  amused  chuff.   ❛ you  good  ?❜  instinctive  in  how  her  body  shuffles  to  offer  comfort  to  the  other.  back  of  her  palm  flat  against  forehead  to  check  for  fever  —  gloria  was  reminded  of  her  grandmother  then,  all  that  was  missing  was  a  hearty  slathering  of  vick’s  to  solve  all  manner  of  ailments.  unfortunately,  they  never  covered  such  methods  in  med  school  or  combat  training.   ❛ or  do  you  need  another  second?  ❜

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you  take  care  of  everyone  else,  BUT  WHO  TAKES  CARE  OF  YOU  ? 

an   independent,   highly   selective   and   private   original   former  special  forces  combat  medic  turned  emergency  room  physician  (  and  mercenary  in  alt  verse  )   DOCTOR  GLORIA   DE   LIMA.   established   in   2018,   revamped  2025.   this   blog   features   trigger   themes   about   war   and   its   aftermath.  blair  ,  she/her  25+ 

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🌶️ SC // @weaponid ( frank )

no  words,  no  hesitation.  not  anymore,  not  when  they'd  spent  so  long  trying  to  rationalize  and  stay  away  or  convince  one  another:  never  again.  his  mouth  crashed  against  hers,  the  taste  of  smoke  and  sweat  and  adrenaline  still  roaring  hot  beneath  his  skin.  she  lets  him  take.  let  herself  take  what  wasn't  hers.  fingers  curled  around  the  chain  that  marked  them  both  as  numbers  and  cannon  fodder,  yanking  him  down  like  it  wasn’t  fast  enough,  never  fast  enough.  she  could  still  smell  the  blood  on  him,  on  both  of  them.  could  still  feel  the  ghost  of  the  fight  buzzing  under  her  skin  and  gnawing  at  her  nerves.  strung  so  tightly  she  might  shatter  if  she  didn’t  have  something  to  ground  her,  to  hurt  her,  to  remind  her  she  was  alive.

frank  didn't  ask  and  neither  did  she,  that  fucked  up  tether  keeping  them  soulbound  in  ruin  speaks  for  them.  gloria  shoved  him  backward  with  a  snarl  caught  in  her  throat,  pushing  until  the  back  of  his  knees  hit  the  bed.  it  wasn't  grace,  it  was  instinct  as  she  pried  his  belt  open  with  the  same  frantic  dexterity  it  took  to  pull  a  tourniquet  tight.  feral  tangle  of  limbs  and  need,  clawing  at  flak  and  cotton,  scraping  at  skin  and  trying  to  tear  him  apart  just  to  feel  something  through  the  noise.  just  to  have  him  destroy  her  in  return.  she  straddles  him,  fingers  digging  into  his  shoulders,  nails  biting  down  hard  enough  to  leave  moons  in  battered  flesh.  marks  that  will  wither  with  time,  but  for  now  she  wants  him  to  wear  her  like  the  agony  that  lives  between  her  ribs  when  he  isn't  inside  her.  ❛ i'm  sorry.  ❜  teeth  tugging  at  lips,  tongue  tangled  up  like  she's  prying  hell  through  the  gates  of  heaven.  ❛ sorry  i  can't  stop  needing  you.  ❜  

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A  PEAK  AT  WHAT’S  INSIDE  THEIR          .    .    .

[  *  ]      writing prompt      )         :             send a number  1 - 30  to take a closer look inside this characters life.        /        below you will find a series of various prompts offering a look inside a characters every day life.        these are meant to invoke character development     &     can also be altered as seen fit to better suit the character in question.         bonus if you explain why it’s there!

01.     pockets. 02.     bag   /   purse. 03.     car trunk. 04.     car glovebox. 05.     closet. 06.     bedside table drawer. 07.     medicine cabinet. 08.     wallet. 09.     “junk” drawer. 10.     pantry. 11.     phone home screen. 12.     frequently used emojis. 13.     to do list. 14.     computer home screen. 15.     bookcase. 16.     cd collection. 17.     calendar for this month. 18.     “secret” hiding spot. 19.     five most recent in contact list.  20.     refrigerator.  21.     home safe.  22.     amazon shopping cart.  23.     bank account.  24.     first aid kit.  25.     five most recent in google search history.  26.     most used playlist.  27.     least used playlist.  28.     five most recent sent text messages  29.     five most recent received text messages  30.     netflix watch history. 

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i don't like t.swift so it makes it so much worse that she has two songs that are very gloria. i hate it here.

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SC// @muutos ( price )

she  came  here  because  she  knew  he  wouldn't  flinch.  john  never  tried  to  fix  her.  he  saw  her  as  she  saw  him,  what  war  carved  out  of  a  person  and  didn’t  look  away.  he  knew  the  terrain  because  he’d  seen  the  worst  of  her  and  never  asked  her  to  apologize  for  it.  that  had  always  been  the  unspoken  deal  between  them:  mutual  recognition  without  pity.  she  could  breathe  in  front  of  him,  even  when  it  hurt.

especially  when  it  hurt.

gloria  could  feel  the  pulse  in  her  jaw,  the  clench  of  muscle  that  hadn’t  quite  relaxed  in  days.  maybe  weeks  but  she  wasn’t  sure  anymore.  everything  felt…off.  like  her  skin  didn’t  quite  fit  right,  like  her  body  was  still  bracing  for  impact  even  when  the  threat  was  gone.  attempting  to  be  something  normal,  to  press  healing  into  the  edges  of  so  much  death  she  couldn't  scrub  off  her  hands.  that’s  what  no  one  ever  told  you  about  coming  home  —  you  never  really  came  back.  not  whole  at  least.  like  being  dropped  into  a  quieter  war  where  no  one  was  wearing  a  uniform  and  everything  demanded  something  she  didn't  know  how  to  give  anymore.

she  glanced  at  him  then,  really  looked,  and  something  caught  in  her  throat.  her  hand  curls  around  the  whisky  glass,  all  of  her  frame  leaning  towards  him.  it  was  more  than  memory,  more  than  want,  so  much  deeper  than  anything  she  could  translate  into  any  language.  nights  in  the  field  where  she'd  crawled  beside  him  and  shared  a  drink  in  the  darkness  because  sleep  meant  silence  and  silence  was  where  the  screams  lived.  nights  where  she'd  pressed  her  forehead  to  his  shoulder  and  let  herself  believe,  just  for  an  hour,  that  she  was  still  human.

but  she  also  came  here  because  he  needed  her,  too,  and  it  would  be  a  fine  frozen  day  in  hell  before  she  ever  said  no  to  him.  ❛  i  had  my  shifts  covered  for  the  next  week  and  a  half.  ❜  and  there  it  is,  a  mere  glimpse  of  a  devotion  that  doesn't  know  how  to  let  go.  ❛  you  have  me  on  this,  john.❜  then  comes  the  reach  of  a  hand,  gentle  and  sure  of  itself  as  it  slips  into  his.  ❛  but  if  you  brood  about  how  bad  you  feel  bringing  me  back  into  it,  i  might  take  it  back.  ❜

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🌶️ SC // @pittmade

weight  of  the  day  collapsing  on  her.  days,  really,  the  last  twenty-four  hours  lay  over  her  as  a  shroud,  a  haunting  in  the  shape  of  a  double  shift.  the  door  closes,  and  she  leans  against  it,  sharp  inhale,  and  the  ghost  of  someone’s  last  breath  is  still  stuck  in  her  throat.  the  scent  of  divinity  lingers  in  the  air  from  his  cooking,  the  sterile  horrors  fade  with  the  warmth  of  home.  by  all  accounts,  she  should  eat,  she  should  sleep,  she  should  tuck  this  grief  against  the  cage  of  her  chest  for  another  time.  it's  not  enough,  it's  not  the  kind  of  sustenance  she  needs  to  survive  right  now.  she  needs  more,  she  needs  real,  she  needs  him.  gloria  sought  out  jack  like  a  sinner  pines  for  redemption.

she  didn't  say  anything,  didn't  have  the  words.  she  just  reached  —  hands  fisting  into  his  shirt,  dragging  him  down  to  her.  she  kissed  him  like  she  wanted  to  tear  the  breath  out  of  him,  like  regular  oxygen  wasn't  enough  to  keep  her  lungs  satiated.  fingertips  gliding  through  silver  speckled  curls,  gentle  urgency  that  builds  within  her,  begging  for  reprieve.  between  their  lips,  she  breaks  with  a  sundering  force  and  jagged  breath.❛  i  don't  want  to  think.  ❜  forehead  falling  against  his  as  she  clung  to  him  like  he  was  the  only  reason  she  could  face  it  all  again.  ❛ just  need  you  inside  me.  ❜

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ADRIA ARJONA as Madison Figueroa HIT MAN (2024)

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