You Don't Need To Wait For The Love Of Your Life To Love Your Life.

Honestly, everything makes so much more sense after finding out that object permanence also relates to people.

If I don’t talk to, see or hear someone, I forget they exist. And by forget, I mean they cease to exist. I can live/be in the same house as this person, but my brain just erases them from my mind.

It’s even worse if I can’t see or talk to them in person at all for whatever reason, because I forget they exist. I can go for months with no contact with a person because my brain just erases them. This has made multiple friendships of mine breakdown since they often thought I was no longer interested in being friends and was ignoring them.

Complaining is ugly, lazy, and pathetic.

Here’s the thing: complaining doesn’t get results. Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself doesn’t change anything. If something isn’t working, you fix it. If you want something, you go after it. That’s how I live my life, and honestly? It’s why I’m thriving.

I don’t waste time blaming other people or circumstances for where I am. The truth is, no one’s coming to save you. No one is going to hand you the life you dream of. You have to wake up every day and decide to be better, to work harder, and to keep pushing—even when it feels impossible.

Yes, I’ve made sacrifices. Yes, I’ve had to shut out the noise and put in hours when everyone else was out partying or complaining about how unfair life is. But that’s why my life looks the way it does now. While other people were finding excuses, I was finding solutions.

I’ve learned that the universe rewards effort. It rewards discipline. It rewards consistency. If you want to live an extraordinary life, you have to put in extraordinary work. And no, it’s not always easy, but it’s always worth it.

So while people are out here complaining, I’ll keep showing up, doing the work, and watching my life transform. The results speak for themselves, and the best part? I’m just getting started.

I have a lot of creative energy, yet I sit mindlessly scrolling through lobotomizing Instagram reels and TikToks. I've thought countless times about what to do about my restlessness, but I stay stagnant. I want to make something personal and honest with all of my favorite things. I worry if what I make will be enough for me, I doubt myself a lot but my contentment is getting harder to come by and I think I just need to do it

Today, we were supposed to learn about clinical presentations of hematologic disorders. The teacher came in, looked at us and told us he was not going to teach that. We were really confused until he opened a slide labelled clinical reasoning. He then explained that as 4th year medical students 7th week into our internal medicine attachment, we were not ecxpected to know a lot.

"Just the principles," he said. He also told us the feeling of inadequecy and lack of knowledge we feel when our peers answered a question we were struggling to grasp or find the answers for was completely normal. "It's because they read a section you haven't read, there might be sections you read they haven't. Think of it that way."

The fact that he said that quelled my imposter syndome just a little. I felt as if I knew nothing when my classmates answered real head-scratcher questions on bedsides, rounds and classes. And that feeling had affected my study sessions because they made me feel it wouldn't bring any change in my knowledge and I wasn't smart enough for medical school. Maybe these things were also felt by them no matter how much I thought they were confident in their knowledge.

Anyways, he taught us how to take history, do a focused physical examination and form our diagnosis based on the pertinent information from that.

I only wish that we learned this at the start of the attachment because it would've been a great help back then.

You've been diagnosed with jack of all trades disorder! Good luck finding a career you're supposed to hold for the rest of your life!

That “loss” was a blessing in disguise.

EKG Tattoos

Can we all just agree that if you work in medicine and you’re going to get a tattoo with a heart rhythm, you should ensure you know the rhythm you’re putting on your body?

I will 100% judge you if you tell me that V-fib on your wrist signifies life.

no matter where you're at in your life, there's always time for things to improve. even if you feel lost, stuck or left behind, you have the time to build a life you want. you may not get back the years you've lost, but you will have many years to live contentedly. there is more than this darkness & you have the time to see what else there is, in whatever form that is for you. simply put, life is not meant to be this hard. things will get easier, softer, brighter.

you got this.

I had a professor in college who used to start solving every problem with the same dialogue.

Proff: What’s the first step to solving any problem? Class: Don’t panic. Proff: And why is that? Class: Because we know more than we think we do.

I think about that a lot tbh. It didn’t occur to me until much later that he meant for us to apply that dialogue outside of the classroom to any problem. Because we always know more than we think we do. We are all an amalgam of random information that ends up being relevant with surprising frequency.

living in the age of social media makes us crave instant results, gratification and stimulation. we’re constantly racing against the clock instead of letting things flow. this makes it difficult to stay motivated on long term goals or have the patience to see it through. but despite the distractions, continue to believe in yourself and persist in your goals. everything comes when it’s ready.