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Taylor & Karlie backstage at the 2013 Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show

WAIT A MINUTE! she just deleted the video! WHAT!!!

Hahahah well good thing I saved it 💀

Last line of each album

Our Song - Taylor Swift

Change - Fearless

Long Live - Speak Now

Begin Again - RED

Clean - 1989

New Year’s Day - reputation

Daylight - Lover

I have kind of an alternate theory on this line from “this is me trying”:

Pulled the car off the road to the lookout / Could’ve followed my fears all the way down

I’ve seen a lot of folks interpret it as s*icidal thoughts, which it definitely could be, and if so, I hope Taylor is getting help. 

But what struck me when I listened to folklore as a whole and considered her past work is the idea that jumping off the cliff may symbolize her coming out journey, where finally taking that leap would mean publicly coming out.

Let’s consider for a moment that Taylor’s car ride is her life in general. She’s on the road, always moving forward, always reinventing herself and planning and staying the course. Analyzing Taylor’s use of cars in her music is a whole separate topic, but for the sake of my argument, let’s say this car she’s in on “this is me trying” symbolizes her life’s journey.

She decides to pull the car over to the lookout. She takes a detour from her plans and her forward journey. What does she see when she peers over the edge? Her fears, some of which we can reasonably interpret as her fear of coming out publicly. She doesn’t make the leap, though. Something holds her back. Thus, “this is me trying”. She wasn’t quite ready to do it, but she’s trying. She makes folklore instead of turning to the whiskey to help process those feelings.

We hear similar themes on “my tears ricochet”, “hoax”, and “the last great american dynasty”.

On the first, she sings:

And I still talk to you, when I’m screaming at the sky

Many of us suspect that Scott & BMR were a big reason why Taylor decided not to come out early on in her career. Even if that’s not the case, it’s reasonable to assume that Taylor & Scott had many conversations about it, and Scott certainly knew that Scooby managed Karlie. If we believe that the masters sale prevented her coming out last summer, I’m thinking it makes a lot of sense that when Taylor is pulled over at the lookout and about to jump, she’s screaming at Scott to the sky. Not only was the sale what betrayed her, but the foiled coming out plan after so many years.

On the second, she sings:

Stood on the cliffside screaming, “Give me a reason”

I think this just echoes so many of the same anxieties. She’s just questioning everything, all of her life choices, why she’s in this position between a rock and a hard place, why she can’t just be “normal” (as in not famous) and live peacefully with her lover, why this love is so hard, why these outside forces are derailing her plans, etc, etc. She’s desperate. She’s at the cliffside and she’s ready to jump, but she can’t. She’s seeking any explanation for all of the feelings she’s having.

On the third, she sings:

They say she was seen on occasion pacing the rocks staring out at the midnight sea

Although this line is about Rebekah, I would argue that the purpose of TGLAD is to draw parallels between this “mad woman” (according to the town) and Taylor herself. Therefore, it’s reasonable to assume that Taylor relates to this behavior of pacing the rocks, and even if it’s not literal for her, she understands the anxiety inherent in someone who does so. “The Archer” could’ve been born out of this line in TGLAD (not saying it was but that it’s thematically similar). Taylor is pacing that cliffside and staring out at her fears in the stormy sea.

In this context, I also think it’s interesting that Taylor used a Humpty Dumpty reference to describe herself in The Archer:

All the king’s horses, all the king’s men / Couldn’t put me together again

Humpty Dumpty was literally sitting on a wall and fell off. He couldn’t be put back together. I think this is what Taylor fears the most from taking that leap, that she will never be the same. CAUSE WHEN SHE BREAKS, IT’S IN A MILLION PIECES.

This got long, but I hope you enjoy!

Things I want erased from my memory:

You're the West Village

Me! Out now (on Lesbian Visibility Day)

I came straight from Rome

Female ballet dancer trying to get to Taylor in Lover performance

I want to thank my boyfriend Adam

Snuck in through the garden gate

They're all wearing these robes btw, it's like an actual fantasy

Emily, I feel like our relationship got to the next level

Our secret moments in a crowded room, they got no idea about me and you

Taylor tagged as a daisy // now I'm your daisy

I like women, particularly gay women

Your eyes are really blue... damn it, did I blink?

The number thirteen

Fell down the rabbit hole URL

I don't want you like a best friend

Got drunk and made fun of the way you talk

The Male Perspective™

My E-e-e-e, she's my friend now

You say you wanted me, but you're sleeping with him

Wear you like a necklace

Something happens when everybody finds out

She's a queen, selling dreams, selling makeup and magazines

Allegedly

I left a note on the door with a joke we made

She's a crook who got caught

Women secretly touching hands in "The Man" MV

"Honey" in Taylor's playlist

Orange Girl™

The shape of your name still spells out pain

I loved you in secret

"Breathe" = platonic friendship song

Everybody's watching her but she's looking at you

And that's the thing about illicit affairs

Thirteenth person to walk out in VSFS // thirteenth person in "Bad Blood" MV

My man and I've been through a lot together

The Eye Theory™

Glass shattered on the white cloth, everybody moved on

She's got shiny abs

You wear the same jewels that I gave you as you bury me

Middle name Joseph

Exile as single on August third

Gave me the blues and then purple-pink skies

Love locked down

When you talk to me like I'm your friend Diana, I'm not Diana

On the way home

Betty, will you kiss me?

And you can want who you want, boys and boys and girls and girls

Relax - I'll try

That she never loved me

I like a cup of Joe in the morning

My girl

I grew a beard to be taken seriously as a producer at the Grammy's

That's the price I paid for seven years in heaven

Have a great summer knowing how disgustingly beautiful you are

Gay pride is what makes me me

I'd fall from grace just to touch your face

It shouldn't be a big deal who you love

Karlie filming Taylor performing "Dress"

I wanna kiss a girl

That's fine, I'll tell mine that you're gaaaay

I've tried ×2

"She's my sunshine" in Taylor's playlist

Or hide in the closet

Kissgate

A lifetime of adventures together

Riptide cover

Fifth person in the dive bar

Every gender neutral interview (person, they/them)

Are you gonna get a beard like Taylor Swift?

Angel boyfriend of one year

Watching Karlie watch Taylor during this moment of Taylor watching Karlie was everything

Shade never made anybody less gay

That was my first girl kiss

I am obsessed with you. If you look out your window and down the street about 200 yards, you may see a big white van parked on the street. I am inside the van with a telescope and computer. Just trying to catch a glimpse of Kelsey.

Dancing in your Levi's

When I walked up to the podium I think that I forgot to say your name

We're both normal girls™

As a birthday present from the media

I get mystified by how this city screams your name

I want her midnights

Like I'm not your favorite town, I'm New York City

Your kitchen or mine?

The girl in my story has always been you

August slipped away

You're so gorgeous, it's hard to talk to you

IMPo0RtaNt™

The skeletons in both our closets plotted hard to fuck this up

Let's show our pride

Staying friends would iron it out so nice

Josh's playlist

If that's you, pad yourself on the back, I love you so much

(Pisces) (Male) (Producer)

I don't like a gold rush

I can't dare to dream about you anymore

Now you try on calling me baby like trying on clothes

Sorry for not making you my center fold

Gay texan picture

It's new, the shape of your body

Now she's hiding in a closet. Now she's locked in that closet.

NEW GAYLOR PSA

extra obligatory disclaimer: if you dont think kaylor happened, this isn't for you. if you think toe is without a shadow of a doubt real, this isn't for you. if you think they're still together, this isn't for you. happy for yall, honestly. this is just for new gaylors lost in the sauce with all the weird narratives going around. ALSO THIS IS JUST THE MOST OBVIOUS AND SIMPLE INTERPRETATION OF TAYLORS MUSIC. ENJOY HER ART AND WHAT SHE PERSONALLY SHARES WITH US AND DONT STALK HER FOR THE LOVE OF ALL GODDEN PLS ITS JUST FOR FUN JFC YOU CREEPS.

ok there are a lot of newbies here that are getting confused by the loud voices in the fandom. those voices are NOT the consensus. please don't think that they are. they just arent.

most of us have just kinda quieted down and chilled out bc we know what's actually going on.

but thats leaving newbies out to dry being confused by the actually RIDICULOUS theories going around rn. ofc you're getting confused and starting to buy toe. because gaylor vets arent explaining it to you.

(it's because we are all just a little over it, sadly to say)

Maybe I'll make a refuting timeline surrounding the Breakup. it sounds exhausting. for now if you're confused about anything specifically, feel free dm me.

here it what is actually going on (as far as anyone can know these things to any extent and obv no one knows her personally and it's all just a fun exercise in futility lol but this is the veteran consensus, ok cool)

TAYLOR IS GOING THROUGH A BREAK UP. I dont intend this to be mean but seriously - this is obvious as fuck. please just........listen to folkevermore. thank you.

taylor has officially gone in the closet, probably for good. it's sad but it's true. it's why we've all chilled out and gone quiet. PLEASE accept this. she isn't coming out. she doesn't want to anymore, at least not right now.

Taylor and Joe aren't real and have never been real and they haven't become real over time (although I do get wanting her to be happy). ok sure I can't know that. but I think if she IS in a relationship with Joe and she wrote those songs, it's a toxic BAD one we should NOT be celebrating (obviously I don't think this, he seems like a really nice person, pls don't misconstrue this). I don't care that she's involving him in her music, or how long it's been, or that she says his name now. HES A BEARD. thats the nature of their relationship and it always has been. she is just more sure he's her forever beard now. it is NOT sus that she involves him in her music. idk if he really has a part in it, I very much doubt it, but she clearly wants people to think he does. they clearly have a nice working relationship and he is GOOD for her reputation. also he keeps her solidly in the closet. see #2

Karlie is ..... just. not . ..... Not. a part of Taylor's life. so the baby doesn't matter. it ISNT Taylor's. idk whose it is, it doesn't really matter. THEY. ARE. BROKEN. UP. Please listen to Taylor's actual music.

(4.5?) There's gossip that karlie is settled down with a new gf now. if thats true, good for them I guess. whatever. who cares.

They broke up in the summer of 2019 for good. they probably broke up before that too, maybe even several times (but no they DIDNT break up for good in 2016 and dm me if you want an explanation lol). They had a very turbulent relationship. it's easy to idolize their relationship bc her music is just so good -- but we have to remember that taylor is looking through rose colored glasses. we are only hearing the folklore of their relationship. just because her songs about karlie are masterpieces doesn't mean they're soulmates. maybe they were bad for each other. I do think her new music kinda shows she is slowly seeing that, which I am so proud of her for. although it does seem like the baby really set her back but that's another sad conversation

the old gaylors are still around, giving her space to get over losing who she thought was her HOME and her FOREVER. that's, just, the kind of sadness you may never get over.

WE are also sad. of course it doesn't compare but many of us found solace through the picture of their relationship she painted through her songs. it was, it IS beautiful. they had something really special. we are mourning that for and with taylor. folkevermore is TRAGIC.

just because it's what's on your dash doesn't mean that all the gaylors are either desperately trying to convince themselves taylor is a new dad or trying to convince themselves she is happily in love with Joe 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Alright! Here it is! I made this for my girlfriend to understand my theories, but some of you wanted to see it so I’ll share it here! 

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I know right now we are in an era where talking about ♠️ brings distress and frustration but I noticed something and I wanted to write it down because I write down my thoughts here.

I want to talk about this sequence which we have all mulled over and discussed at length which has brought much frustration. It’s just stuff I noticed.

The amount of clues sent on each day - if they are accurate - add up to 13. Meaning ♠️ sent a specific number of clues each day during this rollout.

1 on 5/31, 3 on 6/1, 3 on 6/2, 2 on 6/3, 1 on 6/6, 1 on 6/10, 1 on 6/11 and 1 on 6/13

1+3+3+2+1+1+1+1 =13

Then 8 days later ♠️ returns to write it out in sentence form. And in doing so moves the ellipses (...) to before the black heart (...🖤.). The 🖤 was on 5/31 and the ellipses was on 6/10. 11 days apart.

Then we get the last two clues on 6/11 and 6/13

I thought that was something worth mentioning without getting into the meaning of the message.

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When it comes to the “when” of all of this which has brought A LOT of frustration. I still think that the 5 days between the revolution and exonerates represents albums 1-5. Then the two days between exonerates and everyone is two albums which I think would be ts10 then reputation. And the 3 days between Fervent and Revolution represents the three albums Taylor owns: Lover, Folklore and Evermore.

So the order is Lover folklore evermore, 1-5, ts10 and then reputation.

Additionally, ♠️ clues are consecutive days until we get to “free” which makes me think the timing between those clues should be counted as well 3 + 5 + 2 = 10 which could mean 10 albums.

And as an extra tidbit the fact that “exonerate” means “free” (the word it spells in the riddle) makes me think that ts10 is going to be named something like “vindication” or “absolution” that means or represents freedom. This is literally just a thought based on the words.

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Okay now one finally thing - if you will indulge me - I just wanted to point out a lyrical connection to the actual “They Are Free” message that I thought of while listening to Taylor’s from the vault song You All Over Me

“Swore that I'd get out of here/ But no amount of freedom gets you clean”

Even though this is a vault track I think Taylor is really good at finding meaning for her current self in old songs and thus we still get the emotion in her voice when she sings these oldies. So I feel like this idea of freedom is relevant. The idea that you wear your experiences like stains on your skin. You can get out of the dirty situation but some of those stains won’t go away.

They are free doesn’t necessarily mean they are getting out clean.

Again I just like thinking about stuff like this and wanted to share.

@spade-riddles

Well... there’s that. Why is Taylor like this? 😂