Northen Lights -   Gottfrid Kallstenius , 1915.

You need a rest. You need empty moments in which you tolerate your anxiety and circling thoughts until they slow down and stop circling. You need slow, quiet activities that ground you and remind you to accept yourself in spite of huge obstacles and bad thoughts. You need to put solutions out of your mind for now, and engage in activities that have nothing to do with your ego. You need habits that strengthen your patience and focus, but also feel real and not arbitrary. You need to abandon your glorious future and build your imperfect present instead.

Ask Polly: “I’m Lazy, Reckless and Addicted To Social Media. Help!”

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31.03.2023 I confessed I did something reckless to my health (mentally and physically), need to remind myself and you (my fellow reader who work so hard for themselves) to not let yourself be too exhausted doing your academic. :( I spend from 8 pm till 4 am managing individual paper and groupwork paper, and it wasn't healthy to do so. I skipped my suhoor and the morning, I felt so drained mentally that I wanted to cry but your girl had online presentation in the afternoon 2 pm. It wasn't rewarding feeling. Won't do it again.

After the class, I just laid down in bed and read. The reading calms me down a bit and yay, to slowly reaching my book goal.

(MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, READER, OR ELSE I WOULD MAKE YOUR ICED COFFEE MELTS FASTER OR YOUR HOT DRINKS BECOME COLD FAST. Maybe worse, it spills) 💕

Third day of orientation, it was an alright session. I talked with few fellow PhD intake too from different programme. A little nervous about my journey (totally normal on being scared, seriously. It is just my mind deciding to panic and be anxious).

– SHR [Eid mubarak]

Ah, world, what lessons you prepare for us, even in the leafless winter, even in the ashy city. I am thinking now of grief, and of getting past it;

I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want

to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings.

Mary Oliver, "Starlings in Winter"

I have been busy that I wasn't online anywhere, but yes to literature (books) on keeping me sane.

Fernando Pessoa, from The Book of Disquiet

Semester break had ended, and it's the start of my final semester for Masters in Management! Always starting the day with coffee. The weather is hot and humid, hence the iced latte.

caffeine + finals