Midnighthieves - Vesper

mar 11: working on lezama lima and neobarroco today! i really enjoy his style of writing and it's been nice to have a break from what i've been working on in class. gonna read a book a professor lent me and hopefully have a chill rest of the day :)

Writing Advice from Anaïs Nin

The following are excerpts from a letter of advice she sent to a 17-year-old aspiring author by the name of Leonard W., whom she had taken under her wing as creative mentor.

I like to live always at the beginnings of life, not at their end. We all lose some of our faith under the oppression of mad leaders, insane history, pathologic cruelties of daily life.

Older people fall into rigid patterns. Curiosity, risk, exploration are forgotten by them. You have not yet discovered that you have a lot to give, and that the more you give the more riches you will find in yourself. It amazed me that you felt that each time you write a story you gave away one of your dreams and you felt the poorer for it.

You must not fear, hold back, count or be a miser with your thoughts and feelings.

It is also true that creation comes from an overflow, so you have to learn to intake, to imbibe, to nourish yourself and not be afraid of fullness. The fullness is like a tidal wave which then carries you, sweeps you into experience and into writing.

Permit yourself to flow and overflow, allow for the rise in temperature, all the expansions and intensifications.

Something is always born of excess: great art was born of great terrors, great loneliness, great inhibitions, instabilities, and it always balances them.

If it seems to you that I move in a world of certitudes, you, par contre, must benefit from the great privilege of youth, which is that you move in a world of mysteries. But both must be ruled by faith.

sun

tea, coffee

me after a quiet day in: Time for a quiet night in

– SHR [Eid mubarak]

Life is still good despite the busy schedule, chasing dreams and finals.

if you’re struggling lately, i hope this reaches you.

we will be okay. you will be okay. you will grow and evolve and heal. you will enjoy life again even if it’s not the same as it was the last time you were happy. you will live your life not feeling stuck. you will do more than survive. you will thrive.

Beltane tarot reading (look at how well my tarot deck knows its owner) and my new bullet journal monthly cover page (I didn't feel like doing anything special so ai just had fun with the font).

01|05|2023

I am staring the month feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything I have to do for uni. I have yet to find a new routine for this next month of classes, and this is troubling me more than I expected. I did take today off from studying since it's an holiday here and starting from tomorrow I will be on my regular schedule. I plan on catching up some more with the history of religions lectures I have missed/ that have been uploaded online only. I don't know yet whehter I'll be done with them by the end of the morning when I'll have to commute to uni, but I plan on being caught up by the end of the week. I did a some planning to see everything I'll have to study in the next two months and I am not going to lie it's a lot, especially considering how little I can do during the week due to my long commute to uni. I am considering skipping classes on Wednesdays (that professor records lectures and uploades them online very quickly) in order to get more time to do everything. Since I will have lots to juggle these new few months I might even bring back a good old productivity challenge. I am also considering a few posts in which I explain how I am planning to tackle all this stuff I have to do.

Productivity:

finished the audiobook of Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

wrote the first draft of its review

practiced Irish on duolingo

updadted my reading journal

created the first weekly spread for the new month in my bujo and did a bit of planning for what I have to study in the next couple of months (this definitely made me feel better about this overwhelming sensation, sitting down and planning calms my brain and I am trying to have faith in my organizational skills)

did some crosswords with my parents (it's something we often do during the holidays, but it'f fun doing them together)

did a tarot reading for a friend

Self care:

selpt in

took the day off since it's a holiday and I had no classes

read first thing in the morning

finally had the time to sit doen with a cup of tea and read the latest letter my beloved penpal sent me (and I plan on doing a couple of big letter writing session in the afternoons of this week when I get home from uni to answer both to them and to my digital penpal)

did a tarot reading for myself

📖:Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

🎵:Good Enemy by PVRIS

I miss the sea.

by jessamongthewild

枝垂桜 // Weeping cherry blossoms