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buckle up I'm about to go batshit this stuff is literally KEEPING ME AWAKE giving me insomnia aaaaaaaassxcewsrdtfcgyvh

SHIPPING AMIRITE in which I glue several headcanons together on a hivemind of its own (and I'm incredibly consistent, somehow?)

Disclaimer 1: this is all headcanons I made up in my head with my own severely mentally ill brain, so take it as seriously as you want (or not, it's not my problem)

Disclaimer 2a: "but you could solve everything with polyamory!!11!" I know I know BUT this IS about the drama and the pain and the heartbreak dude

Disclaimer 2b: I won't get into other Ryoga ships here so pretend it's just Yuma. I don't feel like branching this out too much, but my other OTP of his is with IV

Disclaimer 3: this might read a little like fanfiction but everything is not set on stone and is ever changing so.. REMOVE THY BRAIN WHOM SHALL READ TIS

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soooo let me preface with

[Astral X Yuma] KEYSHIPPING

that was the first and main OTP of mine for this show for the longest freaking time. It just works and it's canon, what's there to argue about, right?

Yuma is a magnet. Everyone likes him (but not Ryoga, at least at first) and that was no different for III, they hit right off

[III X Yuma] AZTECSHIPPING

III knows how much Yuma loves Astral and he had no intention of getting in their way (even though he also knew that, ultimately Astral would complete his mission and leave Yuma regardless), he would fight besides Yuma and be his "sword", he would protect and tutor him. In short: he would do anything for him

not surprisingly, these feelings shift into something different and..... love ensues! Which was! Really bad! Because III would never put Yuma in a position where he would need to choose between him or Astral, III would just concede

in one of the many scenarios I imagined for these 2, after Astral left, III was the one to tend for Yuma's wounds and, when the prospect of Astral's return became a real "threat", III saw himself forced to "confess" (by stealing a kiss), he backpedals badly, understandably. That friendship was more important than his own feelings and he would fight to maintain it until he caved in and let his love in the open

that wasn't all bad though... but he didn't know yet, of course

Yuma is shaken

[Astral X Yuma] KEYSHIPPING

he could never stop loving Astral. That makes sense, they're two halves of one whole, soulmates. They're supposed to exist as one and together. Forever

except that.. never really happened. Astral came to him, they met, they stayed together for as long as they had to, then Astral left - not because he wanted to but because he had to

in one of the many scenarios I imagined for these 2, Astral manages to come back and "whole" (meaning he got a body of his own. A real body made out of flesh and bones)

Yuma is shaken again

[III X Yuma] AZTECSHIPPING

just when he finally started accepting Astral as someone he's not meant to be with, even though they're soulmates, Yuma is flooded with all these emotions upon Astral's return

but there's something else..

because of what III did, the kiss, everything, Yuma was uncertain of his own feelings. Perhaps that woken something in him, perhaps it just helped him see what was buried deep inside, either way he was torn because he imagined how hurt III would be, considering everything

he loved Astral and he loved III too but.. was it the same kind of love...?

[Ryoga X Yuma] SHARKBAITSHIPPING

Ryoga hated Yuma's gut on their first encounters but, of course, with his insistence on being friends and general stubbornness, he made his way into Ryoga's heart and mellowed him out from the inside

he doesn't let it show but he is so protective of Yuma. Watching from afar, just making sure he was fine was enough

Ryoga, being the main cause of many issues himself, has witnessed most of that happened between Yuma and Astral, and to some degree, between Yuma and III

Yuma loved everyone, including him but there was never hope of his feelings getting anywhere because Yuma never looked at him with that kind of affection or intention

his love kept ablaze though, eating him from the inside, so terribly painful and lonely

[Astral ?? Ryoga] UNAWARESHIPPING

as a Barian, Ryoga was capable of traveling between the worlds and he would often aid Astral in his missions

they did everything they could to keep Yuma away from danger and that was one of the few things they had in common in the beginning

they both also shared loss and their backstories were intertwined

Astral was apart from Yuma against his will and Ryoga willingly drew apart from Yuma. Their pain was similar, even if coming from different places

in one of the many scenarios I imagined for these 2, Astral does "return" and manages to get a body of his own but there was something.. unsettling about Yuma

because Ryoga knew and because he also predicted several outcomes, he stand by Astral - nothing to lose and regardless of what happens, he would remain alone either way or they both would

[III X Yuma ?? Astral] DESPAIRSHIPPING

everything was supposed to go back to normal after Astral's return the problem is... too much time have passed, too many emotions took place, too many wounds were festering in the open

Yuma kept overthinking about how much he loved Astral and what they mean to each other, as if he were trying to hold onto the feelings, because if he stopped, it would all fade away

wasn't that because he didn't want to deal with all those other, strangely familiar, feelings he started cultivating towards III?

Astral declared his love and pulled away

III declared his love and pushed forward

he was happy about Astral being back and his feelings never changed, even though he felt they waver. It was just that.. he had a whole set of other feelings directed to someone else entirely

it was conflicting, and painful

[Astral X Yuma ?? Ryoga] COMPANIONSHIPPING

Ryoga saw what was happening and felt bad for Astral, but he felt so much worse for himself

when he was "competing" with Astral, he could still twist and bend his mind into believing the slightly drop of hope, that his feelings would reach Yuma and it would be reciprocal

Astral wasn't there

[III X Yuma ?? Ryoga] ALTERSHIPPING

but III was

that's when Ryoga felt he "lost" - he and Astral both

unlike them, III went after what he wanted in spite of consequences. It paid off. Yuma was conflicted. Everyone was hurting

[Astral X Ryoga] UNAWARESHIPPING

while everyone was taking some time to process everything, unforeseen circumstances ended up drawing Astral and Ryoga closer, and helped them both drift away from Yuma

at least, regarding feelings of love

it was harder for Ryoga, since Astral, in essence, didn't have many attachments over his own emotions - meaning, he was aware that fretting over what was, is and could be would take nowhere, only cause unnecessary stress

but they manage to walk through the pain, and see the other side

they remained together even after Astral left

they were together now, too

that was comforting for Ryoga, in a way he couldn't explain, and Astral did notice their friendship deepening but he only had Yuma to compare and that hurt Ryoga, as if everything in their lives revolved around Yuma

that was true..

Ryoga don't want to think about that anymore. His hopes are shattered beyond repair and he can only move forward

he and Astral fight at some point, because they want to move on and seemingly can't

much like the other 2, an "accident" stirs confusion and sow feelings that would, otherwise, remain buried or be born anew..

[III X Yuma] AZTECSHIPPING

Yuma and III grow closer and closer, not because he and Astral drift afar but because III did make his way into his heart after all

the doubts and confusion start becoming clearer

a new love is budding

[Astral X Ryoga] UNAWARESHIPPING

the wounds in Astral and Ryoga, their past as individuals and collectively will never really go away

but they found each other and they can heal and grow stronger

their connection is still immature and cold, but their bond is solid and unbreakable, their similarities work to their advantage

just like that, they have a place to come back to

they have each other

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if you read until here, congrats! You get a hug and a smooch in your place of choice! Now I'm sufficiently tired because I drained my brain's batteries writing this ENJOY MUA~

ps.: yes I was purposely vague on Ryoga X Astral parts because [SPOILERS] of that comic I'm making! Other than that these are various headcanons I've had throughout the years (they're all over my blog just check the shipping and writing tags) where I shifted my focus onto a pairing I would never have thought about but it's now my current and major obsession (LETS GO ME WOOOOOOO)

Part 4 of my cursed 3D drawings

Still open for reblogs!!

I miss them and this is the only way to cope lol (〒︵〒)

Reblog and I’ll personally draw you a cursed 3D Zexal character

Kodocha W

Sana and Akito

Kodomo no Omocha fanart.

Thomas decides to try coloring.

quick 15min animations of the Kamishiro twins. these are fun to do!

Part 2 of my cursed 3D drawings