Cadash Being Able To Dream Because Of The Anchor, Not Knowing How To Dream, Even, And Solas, Visiting

"How does it feel?" I say to John Epler, sadly staring at more cursed quotes he dropped quicker than the DA Keep. "Are you blissfully unaware? Or deep inside, is some part of you banging on the wall, screaming?"

"Lol cool line, did you just make that up?" He says, pulling out his phone to tweet that actually Loghain was a trapeeze artist in his free time and the only true lore being carried into the next came is that everyone remembers the Viscount of Kirkwall as being a total hottie.

He just wants to sleep...maybe a few years

dao thru dai: the world is built by unreliable narrators. everyone has a vastly different opinion on things that colors their perception of life and the state of living. there is no one real answer

datv: the veil cant come down because thats bad

felassan things that kept me awake last night:

the 4,000 year time span between the veil and the masked empire during which felassan could only ever have spoken to solas in dreams when at all.

the years solas spent in the lighthouse with all those fucking notes from felassan around. "don't cause too much trouble before i get there."

the only time anyone says felassan's name out loud in the video games is when solas says it in an ancient arlathan memory

solas not painting felassan a mural in the lighthouse and only referring to him as "my agent," once, but still regretting what happened with him so much that it's one of the three big revenants powered by his regret, after the titans and mythal???? sir your repression

the ambiguity of "the betrayal of felassan" as the name of that revenant. whose betrayal of whom.

the heart of corruption/revenant dragon residing in the same place felassan used to go to get away from everything.

felassan calling it "our rebellion."

felassan being aware that he would die if he reported back to solas, seeing a plausible way he could run instead, and reporting back anyway.

the tone he takes during his death scene being so friendly and nonchalant, "what's the harm really" and "i suspect you'll hate this," like he's still trying to talk to solas like they are friends and equals even while he is aware solas is about to kill him.

felassan isn't even his real/original name and in one of his veilguard notes he refers to being felassan at all as being "solas's friend felassan" like that identity is inextricably tied to his friendship with solas, he cannot be felassan without also being solas's friend.

"and you are the slow arrow?" / "i hope so."

in conclusion,

im so glad this post came back around because ive been thinking of these tweets from trick from at least pre-2021 and how disappointing it is that the veil doesn’t come down in the game but wasn’t able to find them and wow

like holy shit. so what happened between THIS and the veilguard ending that shipped?????

Not sure if this was already discussed but If it was a romanced Lavellan instead of Varric trying to stop him, would Solas be able to harm or kill her like he did Varric?

hehehehehehehehehehehheehhehhehehehhehehehehhehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehehhohoohohohohohohohohohohohohohoohohohohoho........ yes.

i love that you asked me this. yes i think he would kill her. i think he would fundamentally be a different character if he did not. the entire point of solas and his struggle is that he will do anything and kill anyone to atone. he believes that righting the world is more important and will never ever put his personal desires over the good of the People

the pain of one man is insignificant weighed against the endless depths of existence. that includes his grief over felassan, over varric, over mythal herself, and it would be true with lavellan. if she were somehow different, the plot would not exist and he would have just actually abandoned his duty in crestwood and stayed with her... "AS HE WANTED." but what he wants is irrelevant. he is only free from his duty when when mythal releases him from his guilt and shares his responsibility for his sins. the burden then becomes just light enough that he can remove it from his shoulders and set it aside. (he should have brought down the veil though). HOWEVER i will say that i think killing her would probably turn him into a literal pride demon. it would be a point of no-return. i do not think he would be able to live with himself for long either. actually the ultimate shakesperean tragedy solavellan ending would be him killing her for trying to stop him from tearing down the veil, tearing it down (while sobbing), and then immediately killing himself once his duty is fulfilled. damn can you imagine if they did that. anyway in conclusion i leave you with quotes as is becoming customary for me

At my most bitter, it genuinely feels like they just did not Know how to write the elves in a way that wouldn't invite discourse (i.e, they didn't know how to write their struggle compassionately. or they didn't want to.) So when they realized that they were getting highly criticized for increasingly treating them like disposable punching bags, they decided to just write them as little as possible. Which feels like the height of incompetency to me, but that's where we're at.

Like how (at least it feels to me) they took out the Chantry from the story entirely when they got criticized for (in Inquisition) constantly giving the Chantry a pass for their genuinely evil history. They'd rather not write it at all than criticize it.

I want to believe that there were writers on staff who genuinely cared about these things, but they either left in development or lost influence on the final product to people who only cared about getting better optics.

let me share with you this post i reblogged a few days ago that has stayed with me ever since

don't care + running + jumping + skipping + hopping + having fun + playing