This Is Temporary. You Have Not Stagnated. You Are Not A Failure. You Will Heal, You Will Recover, You

prettiest tiles ever actually

Had a chill day with my sister to make up for this hellish week.

Didn't manage to study MOM or complete the CompSec notes, the report I submitted for PosGeo was an absolute -100, and I have to go to uni on Sunday to try and get something done for the MOM project. So yay ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

I'm alive though, and yesterday I tried on dresses I never would have tried on before, I ate a bagel at a trendy place, and I had some greek yoghurt with granola at this posh brunch place. Browsed some legos and books, and bought my sister her presents for her birthday. So idk, maybe it's not all about uni and getting good grades or living up to a certain arbitrary standard. I need to be okay with failing, and I need to know life can be good regardless.

rainy day, went on a short walk and got a hazelnut latte

18|04|2025

Slowly crawling back here to post to talk about books, because ngl, I missed it. At the moment, weirdly enough I only have one book on my currently reading and it still is Emily Wilde's Compendium of Lost Tales. This is the third and final book in this series, and despite me being a little over 100 pages into it I am not vibing with it. I loved the previous two books, and flew through them, but I am so stuck with this one. I don't even feel like picking it up. It is partially due to my mental health and energy levels at the moment, but also I feel like it's also this book's fault too. It's been very slow so far and I don't really see where it's going? Not much has happened so far, which also makes me wonder why this book exists in the first place. Maybe this could have been a very good duology? I feel like it's dragging a lot, idk. If someone has read the whole series and can give me some spoiler free opinions that would be lovely. I am really hoping that the plot will start doing something for me, because I want to read so bad, but at the same time this book is not keeping me interested to have a good reading session.

“Walk the line”

Morning walk to Cove Island. Saturday April 19th 6:10-6:20am

(viacarad1016)

your only job on this earth is to be so intrinsically yourself that the right people gravitate toward you and the wrong people move out of your way

quitting my job to paint every inch of my house

I believe that the little things can change your life. Like when you decide to change your old orange toothbrush to a new purple toothbrush. Like when you notice that your music playlist makes you feel like ocean breeze instead of summertime sadness. Like when you notice the sunlight isn't harsh so a walk out might be good. When you comb your hair every night and brush your teeth before bed and apply your lipbalm and when you notice you are the only one who does. You know you care more for yourself than you think. That's how life changes. By noting the little things and making the slight changes. Notice how you deleted the contact instead of blocking it? How you wrote the shitty poem instead of forgetting it? How you studied for five minutes when that's all you could give? How you pray everyday now when religion used to be only a question? How about the times you decided to just sit close to your loved ones but without talking you just scrolled yt because words failed you? All these things that you did, the little changes you could afford, that feels like rain with grey skies amidst sunshine, a favorite scenery, your little life is decorated without your own knowledge. I think that's a little big thing.

[research life]

Researching plants, studying at the library, cherry blossoms at night 🌿📝🕯️✨🌸

Study today, succeed tomorrow!