17.05.2025—this Week Has Been All Over The Place. Sleep Has Been Up And Down, As Has Mood. Reminder

post-morning run breakfast

I believe that the little things can change your life. Like when you decide to change your old orange toothbrush to a new purple toothbrush. Like when you notice that your music playlist makes you feel like ocean breeze instead of summertime sadness. Like when you notice the sunlight isn't harsh so a walk out might be good. When you comb your hair every night and brush your teeth before bed and apply your lipbalm and when you notice you are the only one who does. You know you care more for yourself than you think. That's how life changes. By noting the little things and making the slight changes. Notice how you deleted the contact instead of blocking it? How you wrote the shitty poem instead of forgetting it? How you studied for five minutes when that's all you could give? How you pray everyday now when religion used to be only a question? How about the times you decided to just sit close to your loved ones but without talking you just scrolled yt because words failed you? All these things that you did, the little changes you could afford, that feels like rain with grey skies amidst sunshine, a favorite scenery, your little life is decorated without your own knowledge. I think that's a little big thing.

March 22, 2025 - Saturday

I think this is the first time in my life that I was actually successful in continuing worship despite not having prayer!Usually going on break from prayer takes me out of the experience completely but alhamdulillah this year I was able to stay up for multiple of the last 10 nights even though that's when I couldn't pray ✨

Day 60

2025.5.2

new cafe opened near the walking trail let’s gooooo

April 22nd, 2025

Tuesday already but I still have this week off. However, I'll have to start working a bit today as there's a pile of exams to grade and some classes to plan waiting for me. My plan is to do something during the day and work 1-2 hours each night. That way it'll still feel like vacation.

To do for today:

- get an overview of the things I have to do before school starts

- prepare one exam

- grading

today: trying to froth milk barista-style without a frother and failing miserably, dinner, mandatory snickers and the bill

Early Spring in London.

jane eyre paperback covers published between 1950 and 1970