Moonshyness - In Between Worlds

枝垂桜 // Weeping cherry blossoms

Ariana Papademetropoulos (Greek-American, b. 1990)

Celestial Penance, 2024

oil on canvas

is anyone else fascinated with the concept of reclaiming silence and boredom?

because why does it feel so freeing? no screens, no music, no distractions, just being and observing the world around you.

i mean, i wish it hadn't come this far. i wish i didn't have to "reclaim" something so natural. but at the same time it feels good to be reminded of how simple it can be to be more connected to yourself and the world around you again.

i'm such an easily overstimulated person. especially when i'm in public places i usually prefer to have headphone in and listen to music. but recently even that feels too overwhelming, so i just keep my headphones in but don't listen to music.

i know it's ironic that i'm not actually doing nothing right now as i'm typing this on tumblr but right now it's raining and it kind of feels like a treat to just sit and listen while typing.

i'm just happy that i'm starting to lean towards enjoying life in a less distracted way again. that's all.

"Beautiful Losers", Leonard Cohen

i'm not a human i'm a magical goblin!! i cook soup with vegetables from my backyard garden and hang out in the woods. this is also entirely true and not a form of escaping reality.

At a crossroads with mama

my two cents on the desire unleash tracklist...i want to know why we need multiple english/korean versions of a song on an album. i really don't like that kpop does this bc then u have like (in this case) 2x2 versions of the same song on the album. i'd rather have a shorter mini album and a single album for the english versions of the songs bc it messes with cohesion. they already put so much effort into building up the aesthetics and tone of the album and the tracklisting kinda just puts a dent in that. like ik kpop is not the place to look for cohesion in album tracklisting but they did it with dark blood so why not here?? i had the same pet peeve with orange blood, which has such good tracks but the tracklisting takes me out of the immersion cause it has 3 (3!!!) versions of sweet venom on it lol

anyway i'm still super excited for the new songs!

[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame

The Complete Book of Home Decorating (1994) Barbara Mayer

*feels my body get anxious for no reason* what is it boy, what do you see?