Getting My Yearning Surgically Removed Tomorrow

i'm starting to accept that romantic love is not for me. i was never supposed to have it. maybe because i yearn for it so badly, it is not for me. because if life ever taught me anything, it's the more you want something, the less likely you are to get it. it's how that one saying goes: everything i cried and begged for never ended up serving me. and it's true, it never did. not even once. i always walk away with damage more than anything else. and i'm tired of it.

a few thoughts on the capitalism end-stage and what it means for us

the demise of humanity will not happen because we didn't know better but because we let abnormally rich, people(?) who literally don't care about objective truths rule the world.

herd mentality is real, us vs. them mentality is real and fearmongering is the rich and corrupts' favorite tactic to get everyone to do what they want.

that's why the US has a convicted felon and rapist in office for the 2nd time and nearly all of european parliaments are infested with neo-nazis. that's why there are wars in middle eastern countries that kill millions of innocent people every day.

we go in loops every 100 years or so, making the same or similar mistakes that cost millions of innocent people their lives, just because ignorant power-hungry maniacs want to have their way with the whole world.

they created a system that made us work for most of the day to survive, so that we are too tired to think about important things like politics at the end of the day.

they created tech that isolated us and tranquilized us so that we prefer to be by ourselves, scrolling endlessly for dopamine, instead of meeting our friends and community in third spaces or participating in actual hobbies.

that tech is now optimized to feed us misinformation that manipulates us into acting out of fear rather than reason. that tech is now beginning to censor certain words and ideas that the big leaders don't like. that tech that we had so much hope for even just 20 years ago is complicit in the erasure of our freedom, let that sink in.

they created the idea of wealth being the ultimate goal to strive for, stifling so many of our true dreams and personalities. they enabled a system that puts us at a disadvantage, because to them we are mere little cogs in their machine. people that work against that system are not useful to it. they will be silenced and/or eradicated.

if we keep allowing rich people to be in power of us we are never going to live in a society that benefits us.

all of us, including those who think they belong to the rich side (if you think having 1 million is a lot, i have news for you), are closer to being homeless than belonging to the top 1% that has accumulated such an obscene amount of wealth, they couldn't even spend all of it in 17 lifetimes.

the capitalism end-stage has arrived. the overton window shift to the right has almost been completed. if we stay silent and complacent now, we won't survive.

we need to become active in our local communities. we need to talk to each other. we need to talk to our local and regional politicians and vouch for them. we need to look out for each other and organize structures and systems to keep ourselves safe. and most importantly we need to keep making art, keep writing, keep researching, keep creating things that speak out against what is happening. never stop, especially not now.

First Felon is kidnapping and trafficking.

#LanguageMatters ✨️racism✨️💫

it's easy for people to say "it's not that deep" when they're not living it. sometimes we say it to cheer someone up when they're going through something. but you know what else is okay? maybe it is that deep for you. and that's okay. maybe it is that deep for you right now, but it won't be forever. feelings change all the time. what once scared you to death, you might be doing with ease now or not even thinking about. or maybe things you never worried about suddenly start weighing heavy on your mind. let's just remember that feelings are not final. what we need to learn is how to feel them, and how to exist beside them. sometimes that means certain feelings will be overwhelming or dominating you when they shouldn't. but if life was perfect and we never felt anything troubling then we'd never make any experiences and we'd all prob have the same character and personality. who wants that??

Mahmoud Darwish - “Memory for Forgetfulness” 

“the algorithm only shows us _____” so stop looking at the algorithm. you don't need it. go to a thrift store and flip through some magazines from the 1980s. go read a random book that’s no longer in print on the internet archive. go to a museum and walk around until you see an artwork you don’t recognize. go get a cookbook from the library and make a recipe you've never tried. go listen to the radio. go talk to people in real life. go write a poem or a song and don't show anybody. go take a walk. you are not confined to your online content feed. you never have been!!!!!!!

Song, Allen Ginsberg

the stitches in my arm look cool i feel like a pirate

桐庐tonglu, hangzhou, zhejiang province of china by 茂茂茂

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