chatgpt is the coward's way out. if you have a paper due in 40 minutes you should be chugging six energy drinks, blasting frantic circus music so loud you shatter an eardrum, and typing the most dogshit essay mankind has ever seen with your own carpel tunnel laden hands
dont take bird noises for granted
Studio Ghibli: ‘Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind’ (1984) dir. Hayao Miyazaki
because why does it feel so freeing? no screens, no music, no distractions, just being and observing the world around you.
i mean, i wish it hadn't come this far. i wish i didn't have to "reclaim" something so natural. but at the same time it feels good to be reminded of how simple it can be to be more connected to yourself and the world around you again.
i'm such an easily overstimulated person. especially when i'm in public places i usually prefer to have headphone in and listen to music. but recently even that feels too overwhelming, so i just keep my headphones in but don't listen to music.
i know it's ironic that i'm not actually doing nothing right now as i'm typing this on tumblr but right now it's raining and it kind of feels like a treat to just sit and listen while typing.
i'm just happy that i'm starting to lean towards enjoying life in a less distracted way again. that's all.
*feels my body get anxious for no reason* what is it boy, what do you see?
[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame
sometimes you have to let certain feelings just pass through you. you feel it, then you let it go. you don’t hold on and you don’t act on it. it’s just visiting you for a moment and doesn’t have to mean much more
some things that i like in no order:
-milk tea and taro milk boba
-pixel art, the smaller the better
-collages
-those transparent pngs of random trinkets and stuff
-cute press on nails
-looking at all the different trees and bushes and the little berries on the bushes when i'm taking a walk in nature
-dreaming of being a fairy
-sky sky sky sky sky
-fall and spring weather
-laughing with friends
Humans lowkey don't have enough climbing enrichment at home
January 1972 // the coast // Oregon
Moonlit mountain scenery with people standing at a river by Georg Emil Libert (Danish, 1820–1908)