Purgatory Takes On Two Forms For Everyone And It’s Either LA Traffic Or The CVS Pharmacy Pickup Line

it’s horrific. awful way to die. either you’re trapped with no chance of being found, air running out, everyone around you suffocating, or the hull is broken and you get turned to jelly by the crushing ocean depths. ik they’re billionaires so it’s very contentious for me. generally i prefer no one dies horrifically. like just as a fellow human being on earth. but i dont think the ultra rich ever extend that mindset to others. climate refugees. and just everything. it feels like something a greek god would do to punish them. it has a certain swagful je ne sais quoi if removed from the human suffering which billionaires have to do philosophically to maintain their positions. very haunting. the hubris of it all. old jalopy metal tube steered by a mad catz controller. to go look at the titanic. which is nothing but a rusted out metal wreck full of fish and silt. btw. the grandiosity of it is completely unrecognizable. one has to wonder what compels ppl to even look at it in the first place. like the prestige of seeing some filthy grown over shell? crazy thing to die for. very textually rich… bad way to die as a human being. great way to die as a narrative about human greed and folly i guess. good job. mission accomplished?

I don’t talk about my disabilities often on here because i like to escape from them when I can, but I think it’s a good time to say,

Able bodied people LOVE to hate disabled people.

I recently went to Disneyland for the day, i place i grew up visiting and still love. But for the first time in all my visits, i rented a wheelchair. Which I personally do not regret - im generally not a mobility aide user but I have needed ambulatory aides in the past, so as a precaution I got the wheelchair. The last time I visited without use of a chair I was so exhausted I couldn’t really use my ankles by noon, and I’m not leaving till the park closes. The wheelchair saved me from so much pain, fatigue and discomfort, it made the visit better for me and the people with me.

And I came to the conclusion, Disney is the one place you can really experience the true view people have on handicapped people.

Some park goers were very understanding and helpful, some literally walked into me, or pushed the chair out of their way as if I wasn’t in it. Some people didn’t look me in the eye, and some would only look at me in the eye.

Many conversations went something like:

👱🏻

“Hi!”

And the eye contact does get weird after maybe two uninterrupted seconds.

And others were more like:

🙄

And pretending like I’m not there is really awkward.

All in all, I know it fucking sucks i exist and can’t walk safely for extended periods of time! I know I should leave the wheelchair for people actually can’t walk! I know I shouldn’t stand up and walk because I’m wheelchair bound! I know you hate me!

But I’m not here for you, my wheelchair wasn’t specifically designed to be a problem for you! I just can’t walk.

You’re lucky you can, you’re lucky the pain I feel on an average basis is your emergency room level pain!

It’s important that able bodied people remember and recognize, you don’t have to treat people with walkers, crutches, canes, wheelchairs, scooters, or any other aides, like kids. Im a human, with a brain, thoughts, emotions, and opinions. And just like you, I can tell this interaction is going really bad.

Don’t stare to be polite, don’t stare to be rude. Don’t overly sympathize, or question. Don’t yell at us, or for us. I’m not a make a wish kid, if I were I’d be in Europe, not Disneyland.

Respect disabled people, remember they’re more person than disabled.

able-bodied people will claim to be disability activists and then they'll get pissed at you if you don't have the physical energy to respond 'timely'. or if you sleep a lot due to exhaustion. or if you can't get out much (or at all!) for an array of reasons. or if your hygiene isn't up to their standards because you can't wash yourself. or if you have 'inconvenient' allergies or dietary restrictions that they don't want to cater to. or if you're unemployed. or if you have a medical emergency that gets in the way of their plans (especially if you have to cancel last minute). or if you can't do any other 'normal' thing that is more difficult/impossible thanks to an array of disabilities because, get this, they are disabling. fuck that. disabled people don't owe the world an illusion of good health for the sake of the able-bodied. love disabled people without condition.

I know it’s not hard to point out reactionaries hypocrisy when it comes to like safe spaces or hug boxes or whatever but genuinely how much of an echo chamber do you have to exist in for you to think this is a reasonable thing to say

so me 🫶

schlatt x baker s/o who whips up the best pastries n cookies <3

spent the last week out of town for a cousins wedding, omg has this trip been wild

got drunk and cried got high and cried, met my cousins baby, found out a different cousin is a perv towards his own family, watched the wedding ceremony, was one of the only people dancing at the reception, and hung out with my 90 year old grandma. got in a ton of arguments with my family, saw certain family members for the first time in YEARS, met family members for the first time, spent way too much money, slept terribly, and still have a 9 hour drive to do tomorrow.

basically 90% of this trip i’ve been incredibly fucked up and i have terrible baby fever from being around so many little babies

oh my😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

credit: dr.shoko

THE KNEE PUSH OH MY FUCKING GOD

Happy birthday to my husband. We’re going on our 35th year married and he is so perfect and special and my boyfriend and husband and wife. Happy birthday Jeremiah schlang❤️

Capital B. Capital O. Capital A. Capital F. BOAF. Both? BOAF!!!!

He glanced over at me… just let me suck your d*ck already baby 🙏🏻