muahahahahah

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I’m empty like there’s nothing left in me I’m a fucking ghost but suffering

angry. numb. angry. numb. angry. numb.

How do you expect me to be nice when I feel like dying

I’ll never be enough for anyone

why must i be so hard to be around?

loving is the single most painful thing I've experienced

I miss loving without being scared I'm too much

Doesn't matter how much effort I put in, right? It's hard to love me.

it would've been better for everyone if I had stopped having a heartbeat years ago

I want to be covered in bruises and scars

I want to look like the most damaged person you’ve ever fucking seen

i really wish i was easier to love

asking for reassurance is so embarrassing 😭

No one is more disappointed in me than I am.

They will never understand the sadness that you can physically feel in your chest

sometimes I just get so sick and tired of fighting just to survive.

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

If the vibes r off I will assume you hate me and want me dead

in another life i’m normal. in another life i don’t hurt the people i love the most.

unfortunately for the both of us, i really like you

cute bpd things!!

paranoia

*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP

yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D

paranoia

mood depending on them

every text hurts or feels way too good

intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH

the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive

paranoia

fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3

"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"

becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention

never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back

cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME

oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself

"just leave. everyone does anyways"

5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever

*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?

dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had

paranoia

i want to be loved in the same amount that i love.

I want to be someone’s favourite PLEASE

Please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please

I know I'm unlovable, I just sometimes like to pretend that I'm not

"ill never leave you" liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar

i know you can’t stand me just tell me already

If you don’t experience the pain that I do every day, you don’t get to judge me.

Not my food habits.

Not my hygiene.

Not my productivity.

Not the clothes I wear.

Not my outlook on life.

Not my goals.

Not my medications.

Not my weight.

Not your body!

You don’t get to decide if I have a moral failing because you think you’re better than me and you could handle it better. Please, try to experience one day of pain like mine. Try to experience one week.

When you’re faced with the choice of not eating and ordering fast food, it’s an easy choice. You choose to eat.

When you’re faced with passing out or wiping yourself down with baby wipes, it’s an easy choice. You choose to be safe.

I am sick of the lectures about what’s good for me, the dangers of seed oils, how medication is propaganda from big pharma, how I’m just lazy and I can take a damn shower.

IT’S NOT YOUR BODY, so get out of my business.

« While some people disagree with me, I firmly believe that regret is one of our most powerful emotional reminders that reflection, change, and growth are necessary. In our research, regret emerged as a function of empathy. And, when used constructively, it’s a call to courage and a path toward wisdom.

. . . “No regrets” has become synonymous with daring and adventure, but I disagree. The idea of “no regrets” doesn’t mean living with courage, it means living without reflection. To live without regret is to believe we have nothing to learn. . . Maybe we don’t like the accountability that often comes with regret.

In our work, we find that what we regret most are our failures of courage. . . Regrets about not taking chances have made me braver. »

— Brené Brown, Atlas of the Heart

All it takes is one small trigger. And I'm in a shit mood for awhile. And I have no idea how to change that. Is it even possible to change that in BPD? How do you stop the all over body inside and out feeling of a horrible mood shift after you've been triggered? It takes me a huge time out, meltdown, and hours long sleep just to snap out of it but I don't have time for that always.

what’s some of y’alls favorite songs that u feel are relatable as a person with bpd/hpd/npd?