Being A POC In The Marauders/HP Fandom Is Really Interesting To Me Because It Seems And Feels Like A

Random friendless guy spends his birthday clowning about with his dog.

This is my first try at drawing wolfstar it isnt a very complex drawing but its charming 🧡 I am thinking about drawing jily.

New chapter

Me looking through AO3: ughhh I need to find a fic to read

My 62 open AO3 tabs: 👁️👄👁️

hello hello ask game!!! i’m greedily asking for three of them i’m sorry ahdjfndjd

3, 4, & 11 if i may :3

okay hello i am finally answering this! sorry it’s taken me so long, i posted the ask game and then my life immediately fell apart lmao. this ended up being really long so answers below the cut :)

if you’d like to submit an ask i’d still love to answer more! ask list here.

3. What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

Rather predictably, it’s this one: “‘Your gender is about you, not what other people think.’” It’s just…something that I struggle with myself, and that I’ve seen a lot of other trans people talk about struggling with too. Transition is complicated but I think doing it for yourself is so important.

4. What’s your favorite line of narration?

This isn’t a single line (how do people pick out single lines??? Impossible) but! This one: “It’s that Sirius accepts, and loves, the parts of him that make him trans. It’s that he helps remind Remus that […] it’s a part of his identity, one that he’s allowed to be proud of. Sirius loved Remus as a girlfriend and loves him equally as a boyfriend; and he loves Remus now not just as his boyfriend, but as his trans boyfriend.” This sort of gets at the same concept as the one above—I have so many thoughts and feelings about concepts of transition and passing and stealth and they’re all such complicated, nuanced topics that are different for everyone, but something that’s a big deal for me is trans pride and nonconformity. I don’t want to assimilate into cis ideals; I don’t want to pass as cis. Part of this is probably since I’m nonbinary so there aren’t really cis ideals for me, but I know binary trans people who feel similarly.

11. What do you like best about this fic?

The truth is the trans rep. You know this since I talked to you about it but I was really, really nervous about the trans rep in this fic. It feels the most truthful to my own experience, but it doesn’t fit with the popular cookie cutter narrative, the narrative that’s most easily digestible and understandable to cis people. And of course there’s nothing wrong with that experience but it’s not the only one. And it’s been so lovely to get comments from other trans/non-cis people saying that they relate to the rep in this fic too.

Aside from that, because I feel like I’ve talked an awful lot about the trans rep in this post, it’s just the way they love each other. It’s so soft and gentle and it was lovely to write and fun to revisit to pick out my favorite lines.

Sirius: Moony, if you had to describe me in one word, what would it be?

Remus: Annoying.

Sirius: Okay, rude. Try again.

Remus: Infuriating. Ridiculous

Sirius, pouting: Moony—

Remus, kissing the tip of his nose: Fine. Mine.

Sirius, immediately flustered: Oh.

also, while we’re talking about PoA -

I always forget how subtextually gay Lupin seems in the text

I think Wolfstar is so established now (and it’s so firmly a Marauders-era-centered ship now) that a lot of people don’t engage very much with the canon. but I’d ship these two if all I ever got was PoA, because Lupin behaves like he’s being interrogated by the police every time Sirius comes up in casual conversation and it’s hilarious

"who fell first who fell harder" i actually need them both to be down horrendously bad for each other. hope that helps

thanks to @rae-lune and @madefortherain for the tags! this is so cute!!

i made my cat yesterday when rae tagged me and then proceeded to severely overthink it, to the point it’s ridiculous so here is the original nini cat i refuse to be stressed about a cat picrew 😭😭

np tagging @moonysentropia, @kingstarkingslay, and anyone else who would like to join!

taking the cat picrew tag from @squintclover because I wanna play!!!

np tagging: @lynxindisguise, @faggylittleleatherboy, @kaleidoscopexsighs, @polaroidcats, @lifeisabitch-butimcute, @chericheribaby, @emlovessid, @fruityindividual and anyone else who wants to be a feline!!

Established Wolfstar fluff thought of the day (modern au)

Sirius Black looks all menacing in public with his long black coat and model-walk energy. And his ice-cold expression, silver eyes, sharp cheekbones and messy curls looking intimidating and unearthly beautiful. Very, very unapproachable.

But the moment Sirius spots his husband, Remus, his eyes light up, runs full speed like an overgrown puppy with a child like grin and wraps Remus in his arms with forehead kisses and nuzzles into his shoulder like he’s home.

And one day, Remus secretly records it.

Because Sirius Black might be terrifying to the world, but to Remus, he’s just the softest most goofiest love of his life.