I Get It Dude

3 dec 2024

She had no idea what she was going to lose. Didn’t even stop to savour it.

Anyways,

I forget how much I love performing

16 apr 2024

Jamie opened tonight!! it was insane, that buzz that feeling you get inside I forget how real it is, like electricity is in the air and everyone’s joy is palpable. I’ll really miss this. This community, everyone is friends, I’ll talk to the people I wouldn’t normally talk to and you stay on stage left cramped in with everyone and it feels so real.

Anyways,

jack of all trades, master of none

28th dec 2023

yk how much better my life would be if i was really really good at one thing, im pretty mediocre at a lot of things but if i was really really good at one thing i think my quality of life would skyrocket.

also im not even like medium good at the things im good at, yeah im alright and i like them but what good is liking something when your 60% shitty at it and all you do all day is long for natural talent when thats never gonna come. i love writing but im not very good at it, i wish i could act, if i could swim my life would be great, hell if i was a long distance runner i would be happy. i just want do be good at something that isnt just feeling emotions very deeply and longing for something tangible. all my grades arent bad but arent good, im not a great friend, im not even that good of a person. i like things and have passion but no grit or determination because really if i didnt pick a career at 5 i think id spend the rest of my life starving in the crotch of a fig tree, wishing for some voice to tell me or for my heart to tell me but i dont even know what to do with my life past uni and thats if i scrape up good enough grades. i wish i didnt spend all my time laying there pretending that im someone im not.

anyways

A massive wuss

3 dec 2024

I can’t watch sad movies- or any movies with pain

I have to look up the plot to every movie before I watch it because I hate being surprised by the ending and I can’t handle the suspense

And maybe that’s why I hate life: There’s no IMDB, no plot synopsis to check. The ending is unknowable.

Anyways,

the stress the nhs would be under is CRAZY

next time I get this obsessive over/start liking a guy, I'm going to voluntarily sign myself into a mental institution as sam puckett did in that now deleted episode of iCarly, iLost My Mind, when she thought she was insane for liking the mr. freddie benson

I am so down bad its not even funny anymore

27th dec 2023

i hate to admit it but walker scobell is kinda the king of my heart like i hate this for me but hes just kinda the king of my heart, and maybe i am just a 14 year old teenage girl who cant help but love the new boy of the month with my whole entire soul but i do. you have to remember though that when i like the boy of the month i do it in a different cool teen movie way and NOT in a everyone likes him so i do way yk so all my friends who say they like him do it in a parasocial relationships too attached to people on the internet who dont know they exist kind of way buy im cool and like have a shot bc im cool and wouldnt act like a fangirl and im cool and interesting yk? anyways percy jackson is coming out FAR too slow for my impatient self and i NEED capital N capital E capital E capital D NEED more content bc the amount of physic damage that i would get from watching a stream of him playing fortnite is actually crazy and i still have some self respect (ik ik its hard to believe) but if i dont get more interviews i will watch the watch party video again and again and again and rewatch episodes again and again because im just insane like that, and i kinda dont want to say this bc what if he sees this and my chances with him (that were DEFINITELY real to begin with and im not just hallucinating) would be SHOT,

anyways

something something annabeth being made the villan in every critial percabeth is icky

23rd jan 2024

every post ive seen that is critizing percabeth (do what you want i find it very interesting so see other perspectives) ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS makes annabeth out to be an abusive demeaning belittleing bitch and for what reason? oh yeah because shes a girl (a smart strong girl) and percy is helpless and abused and weak and cant run away (a bad sterotype for abuse victims also but no one critizies that in the books just how annabeth is an abuser)

just a little weird to me thats all

anyways,

"porn is a healthy expression of sexuality" you are like a terrorist to me

Being sick sucks so bad

13 aug 2024

I’ve been sick with some stomach flu recently and just remembered how horrible it is to need to throw up (it’s so bad) BUT the worst thing is that it’s been a week and I’ve not been able to stand up without being really nauseous?? Like if I stand up slowly it’s fine I just get a little ache but if I just go from laying to sitting up or sitting to standing too quickly I feel like vomiting AND SOMETIMES I DO

this sucks and I hate it here.

Anyways,

the fact that we only have “herculean task” and “sisyphean task” feels so limiting. so here’s a few more tasks for your repertoire

icarian task: when you have a task you know you’re going to fail at anyways, so why not have some fun with it before it all comes crashing down

cassandrean task: when you have to deal with people you KNOW won’t listen to you, despite having accurate information, and having to watch them fumble about when you told them the solution from the start (most often witnessed in customer service)

feel free to chime in i ran out of ideas much faster than i anticipated

i have a thing for ansel elgort

28th jan 2024

maybe ill go by baby when im grown up

anyways,