I Lost My Best Friend 3 Years Ago- Not Lost As In Dead But Lost As In We Only Text Each Other On Our

I lost my best friend 3 years ago- not lost as in dead but lost as in we only text each other on our birthdays now. Movies and books don't tell you that a friendship dying is like the sinking of a ship, you try to get higher and higher and hold onto the rails and unanswered texts, the captain tries to steer it to safety and salvage pieces of two broken hearts until you're left with memories of what once was. We were friends for a decade and knew each other's diaries by heart, I still remember her phone number and the way she took her coffee. Seeing her in streets is like breathing in a scent you forgot you knew but it immediately takes you back to a summer in '07.

Movies and books also don't tell you that friendships don't just end after one fight or incident, it's like the rusting of a bridge, the slow decay of flesh and bones and secrets. It took weeks, months- until one day I woke up and I realized I hadn't thought of her in a while. And I wrote a poem that day and I titled it 'The dying of a best friend' and I put all my love for her in a tiny box with my half of the matching pendant of a dolphin we had and stored them in a corner of my heart under the heading Grief. Where else can one hide unspent love?

It's been 3 years since I lost my best friend, lost as in I still carry our secrets in a tiny box but we only text each other on our birthdays.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

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just fyi, man kann sich online für 10€/jahr einen bibliotheksausweis beim voebb (bibliothek berlin) ausstellen lassen (egal wo in deutschland man lebt!) und das online-angebot nutzen.

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uvm

für meine stadtbib sind digitale Inhalte immer noch #neuland, vielleicht geht es ja noch jemandem so

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CAN'T.NO.STATISTICS!!!

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XはYです

sentence + か

これ、それ、あれ、どれ

この、その、あの、どの + noun

ここ、そこ、あそこ、どこ

noun じゃないです

sentence + ね、sentence + よ

particles は、が

particles を、で、に、へ、も、と、や

time reference

non-relative time + に ex. 二曜日に、１０時に、九月に

relative time (no に) ex. 明日、今晩、いつ

～ませんか would you like to … (invitation)

毎日、たいてい、よく、時々、あまり、ぜんぜん

Xが + あります or います there is/are X

～ましょう/ましょうか let’s (suggest a plan of action)

～てください please do … for me

～てもいいです you may do …

～てはいけません or ちゃいけません you must not do …

～から、～ので because …

～ましょうか　let me do … (offer assistance)

～ている (an action in progress)

～くて、～で (joining sentences)

verb stem に + 行く、くる、帰る go somewhere for the purpose of

～と思います I think that …

～と言っていました They said that …

～ないでください Please don’t …

～のが好きです I like to do …

qualifying nouns with verbs ～ている + noun

まだ～ていません have not … yet

A の方が B より (property) = A is more (property) than B

A と B とどちらの方が (property) = Between A and B, which is more (property)?

(items) の中で、 A が一番 (property) = A is the most (property) among (items)

～つもりです (I) intend to do …

adjective + なる to become

何か something、何＿も + negative = not … anything

どこかに somewhere、どこ＿も + negative = not … anywhere

誰か someone、誰＿も + negative = not … anyone

～たいです I want to do … (たい conjugates as い adj.)

Aたり Bたりする do things such as A and B

～ことがある have done …

～んです or ～なんです explaining things

～すぎる too much

～方がいいです it is better to do …

～なければいけません or ～なきゃいけません it is necessary to do …

～でしょう probably

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♡

Strength..

You might get yourself into something you think you might not handle, but it’s just a thought.

You’re never meant to deal with something that is not for you. The whole universe will work on making you experience something that’ll shape a better version of you.

You’ll feel something you might not experience without any of this happening. It’s called strength.

💜

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