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i think i’m going to have to live on the coast

certainly no further than i am now at least

exactly except this is lowkey a problem also def 60% of why i’m so fcked up

Haruki Murakami

Unknown Artist - Angel Crying. 1465 - 1470

Yeah you're right. It WOULD be pretty fucked up if you were a swan but you were raised by ducks and you grew up never seeing another swan or even knowing that such a thing as a swan even existed so you just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.

tldr i eat maybe once a day and prob have really low iron and live somewhere with bare minimum 80F temp and 50% humidity most of the year, so i had to disappoint my dad who wanted to drive me around on his motorcycle because i started vomiting from heat exhaustion after being outside for literally an hour.

was with my dad while he looked at my car and he was like “wanna go ride” and i was like sure but he meant ride on his motorcycle and i’ve never been on one so i was like omg omg but couldn’t be a pussy so i was going to go. and he put the helmet on me (apparently i have a big ass head) and i had been hot like really hot (96F and 56% humidity) and i was fucking starving because i hadn’t eaten all day because i never do.

and it took him a minute to close the shop and everything and i’m just standing there hot asf musty with this big heavy helmet on and i lowkey knew it was boutta be bad. he got me on the back and i had to get out to pull the gate open and close it behind us but i guess physical exertion was my breaking point because i started aggressively trying to unclip the helmet because i was def about to start dry-heaving and i couldn’t breathe.

and so he helped me get it off but before i could pull it up i did in fact start to dry heave. but i never eat so there was nothing to throw up. and he’s just looking at me like “wtf” while i took the helmet off and just laid on the asphalt. and he started to walk me back to my car so i could just go home and lay down and i got right there to my car before i started actually puking but just liquid because that was all i had.

now i’ve come home and showered and i’m trying to eat a breakfast bowl i made over 30 minutes ago. and i’ve been trying to get back to my school work and painting my nails like i was before going to the shop but i’m so tired idk. i looked up “why does heat make me throw up” because similar things have happened in the past year. and ultimately it looks like i probably have mega low iron (prob other nutritional deficiencies as well but i think irons gonna be the big one) and low iron affects like a lot of things in the body. so basically low ass iron can make you more susceptible to heat exhaustion/heat stroke because in a round about way lack of iron makes it hard for your body to cool down.

my turn to expose you because WHAT. THE. FUCK??????

Please don’t judge my eating habits? So rude.

no

Sex is great but have you ever had someone rearrange your guts and then make sure you eat and drink something before helping you to the bathroom and then holds you close while you fall asleep on their chest?