Lets Talk About How Easy It Is To Abuse A Narcissist.

spite is great

cleaned all the dishes, took out five bags of trash and moved my boxes

though also chronic illness and doing all of that is not reccommended -10000/10

somehow i managed to trigger a flare up of literally everything at once and now i cant walk wihtout being in incredible pain, my head hurts, im nauseous af, and i keep feinting and having hot flashes. just hoping the seizures dont start now.

now both the cats are watching ghost files with me 😎

I thought you might enjoy this:

i forgot the premiere was going to happen today but somehow my cat managed to jump up and paw at my tv right at the time it premiered and wouldn't stop until i put it on

so in conclusion my cat is a big fan of ghost files

your cat is a real one can we get a picture

give me begrudging disgruntled older brother frank langdon where the entire ED crew goes out and abby meets the med students and just in tired mom mode decides that yes these are her responsibility now too

she starts packing lunches for frank to take with him to give out to them (doesnt pack frank a lunch ofc, he just grabs a granola bar or an apple mr "ill just grab smth at work")

she gives them all her number and frequently checks in to make sure theyre sleeping enough and getting enough food

for their birthdays she drags them all out to celebrate

and frank's just there for the ride, he cant say no to his wife so he starts checking on them too

so now he just has four little ducklings following him around asking him for snacks and asking to come over after shift to spend time with his kids

gonna be so real

i think the only issue i really have with endogenic systems is that most are not willing to see a therapist or get professional help and theyre not willing to face the idea that they may actually have trauma or another mental health issue causing their system symptoms

i have the same issue with self diagnosed traumagenic systems that discount anything their therapists say if they bring up any other disorder first before DID/OSDD

like yall

for your health and wellbeing please be open to other options andnplease seek professional help to help navigate this stuff

like you wouldnt be like yea i have ehler danlos syndrome and not seek professional help because youre scared it could be an autoimmune disorder instead

YES YES YES

uhmmm.. the pitt agere moodboard cause ive been fixated on it

ok since some of you idiots who enjoy watching Moon Knight don’t understand shit I’m going to explain it.

(*Moon Knight Ep 5 Spoilers towards the end*)

First off, Marc, Steven, and Jake are part of a system. Because of the childhood trauma they faced in childhood they developed Dissociative Identity Disorder.

Which means that because of the constant pressure and traumatic events happening to them their psyche fracture. Marc, Steven, and Jake are all fragments of one collective.

Secondly, Marc did NOT “create” Steven. The brain split both Steven and Marc to do seperate tasks. Marc to hold traumatic memories and protect the others. And Steven to keep them going, keep their area clean, keep them healthy.

Thirdly, they are all seperate people, they have different thought processes, different emotions, and different reactions, but they CANNOT exist by themselves. They need each other to be able to get through life. The creators of the show have had several professionals and people with the disorder talk to them about this stuff and how to portray it well.

That means they are aware that Marc didn’t create Steven and that they can’t exist without each other. So no they won’t stay seperate even if Steven has supposedly died and become sand and Marc is in the field of reeds.

Now stop for the love of fucking god calling them personalities, they’re alters, and stop calling Marc the original, THERE IS NO ORIGINAL WHEN YOU HAVE THIS DISORDER!

this year was just nto the year for love for us i dont think.

we started off by getting broken up with by our longterm (four year) partner

then ghosted by our other partner

then was pulled along by a friend who almost seemed to like us

and now weve been broken up with by our year long partner

im kind of just unfeeling about it now, like ive gone through so much outside the realm of love recently and this breakup is just sort of an addition to the growing pile of things i have to eventually deal with. it does help a bit that we have so many friends that we just didnt really talk to much anymore because we didnt see the need to. we saw our future in black and white. wed get through college, get married, move in together, and grow old. i didnt see the need to have any friends included in that outside of my partner’s friends. but now im kind of realizing that that was just the black and white thinking of my autism, i still am human, i still need friends, and now that im losing several because its very likely they wont talk to me anymore now that our fiancé broke it off, i need them more than ever. and so i messaged a few of my older ones, ones that i havent talked to in months, ones that before my fiancé i thought of as my closest most reliable friends and it really cheered me up. hearing them call me bestie and go crazy as i told them whats happened, about me graduating, about me getting a job, about me going to college, and about me getting my diagnosises. and it really made me realize that if someone isnt willing to put in effort to help a relationship grow properly then i shouldnt be expected to either. i guess my fiancé was right about that part, i did put a lot of effort into our relationship and they didnt. i wish they had so we couldve avoided this mess but truly im almost glad now because i would have missed out on realizing that so many people care about me and really would hate it if i just disappeared off the earth. like all these people would miss me so dearly and thats helping me really think through so many of my issues right not. a lot of my stress related to thinking i wasnt good enough or that i wasnt trying to be what they wanted me to be is just sort of gone because these people are my people and they know me for me. these people ive started talking to again have known me for almost as long as the system was known. and im glad to see that i dont have to hide certain parts of myself or pretend to be someone else around them. -sully

{disclaimer: if my ex sees this, this isnt meant as something negative towards you, you tried your hardest and well always love you for that, im sorry it came to this and we really would love to at elast still be friends. this post is just us having the realization that we arent alone and were allowed to have friends outside of you and your friends}

Can't breath

so update on the asking steven out thing

i may have texted our friend about it then steven switched in and found out so im going to try and have a date with him later today to make up for not getting to properly ask

also i bought him a tea yesterday and he loved it

-marc

fr so confused why people have issue with me saying its ableist to treat a mental disorder (OSDDID) like its some fun quirky identity

like you cant sit around spreading misinformation about it and treating it like its fun and then call the people that correct your information names and shit

legit learn to educate yourself and treat disabled people with respect