Golden

Crying really won't change anything except how intense the feeling is so...if need be, don't be afraid to let it out.

“Tonight, just put your arms on me and hold me like I am yours. Leave pieces of yourself behind on my skin, and love me like it is the first and the last time for us. Fill my lungs with your breath and make me forget my name. Tonight, I am yours and I will be yours, until dawn breaks.”

— Lukas W. // Until dawn breaks

I changed jobs, shed people, got a whole new set of daily habits, started journaling again and I am doing some of the things I really want to do, but have never made time for. But, I can still feel my mind being pulled in a thousand different directions, like whatever was wrong is still wrong. My heart is still shrinking, I get quieter by the day, the level of disinterest in me is unbelievable. The nightmares persist, I'm dreaming of drowning again. Same spiral.

His name still hurts.

Sometimes we think it's the people but it's actually how they affect us. Find those who inspire you to love, forgive, chase your dreams and never allow you to feel insignificant in any kind of way.

Broken post for a wholesome man

I found this camera on the subway and look what was inside...

Short note for my mid 20 somethings. I feel like I’m stagnating and that’s hard. I feel like I hit my peak 5 years ago. I feel aimless and hopeless and lost. I feel constantly drained. I am measuring my self worth based on how much money I can earn a year and what I say to people when they ask me what I’m doing. At the moment, nothing. I’m doing nothing. I’m unemployed and exhausted by it. I’m tired and tired and tired. I’m trying to remind myself that I’m more than this moment right now. I’m trying to remind myself that there is light and someday I’ll be bathed in it.

I lived through many seasons of Japril being broken up. Yi-Jin and Hee-do are just a test. I can live with this. There is still time. Red threads of fate, and whatnot. This will not break me.

"You're the calm to my storm. The type to make a deformed man reform. Blessed with a beautiful, mind you inform. I applaud."

I. T. Le'Croc