Nixyra - Nyx Posting

From the Margins, Priyanka Paul

Something about masonry that always gets to me

Cozy House / Hinzstudio ph: Quang Tran

what does it take to love truly

Still halfway to nowhere, still nothing today

Not That.

Sad may be spectacular,

Sad may be soft,

And easy to embrace.

Sad may be sympathetic,

Sad may be funny

Found amidst dry laughs—

Sad may even be romantic.

Oh, Silence (that is golden).

Sad may be incredible

Sinuous streams (sobs)

and slow songs,

Sad may well be soulful,

But do not tell me

That sad is beautiful.

Beauty

Those I love say they're proud of me, now

Tail-end of 8 months in infinity

I don't look for their words of affection.

I'm not scared to be ugly

In the way women are taught to be

All sunshine and beauty.

I do not doubt now,

That I may in fact be beautiful -

I am Beautiful

Not because I'm pretty

I don't turn heads when I walk the room

I'm hardly precious in dear finery.

What's more,

My hair doesn't always flirt with

The wind, my feet don't know how to

make love to the earth and grass, the show

Doesn't please lusty onlookers.

I pause when I see beauty,

A pleasant surprise waiting within me -

I don't wait to achieve anymore

I revel in my company.

I've learnt to hold friends tightly,

Look them in the eyes so

They may smile from inside me.

I forgive my family,

So they may not hurt any

Longer than I can help, for

all that I love about their journey.

I don't rest in the past anymore

I don't pine for a whimsy future

I'm elated to just be

And in being, I achieve me.