it’s that time of year again where i reread tsh for the bajillionth time so here is the greek class!!!
got a LOT of thoughts about paratise. i feel like we're finally getting to hear more of ivan's Inner Freak(TM) rather than just seeing it animated. it's raw and and twisted like nowhere, but also kinda sexy and so desperate. he's not just lamenting the cruel reality of his existence, he's yearning. you almost get the sense that his shitty upbringing has messed up his mind so severely that he doesn't even know how to love till without feeling this.. freakish obsession with him. he's never had the safety to feel out his emotions for till healthily, so they've culminated into this all-consuming desire to be — well, consumed — by till. the lines "my wish, to live in you like parasite / you, be my own private paradise" are so full of desire, but they also come from a place of such pain. like he yearns to wholly lose himself in till, because there's no other way to love him in their fucked up little world. because of alien stage they are all constantly brushing hands with death, and their concepts of love end up equally severe. the song constantly mentions wounds, pain, darkness, shadows — and yet, it still manages to be an impassioned declaration of desire. for ivan, pain and love have always been one and the same. and as long as it continues, the way he wants till will remain just a liiiittle bit masochistic.
no rhythm to guide our steps, only the clamour of our minds and the asbestos polluting our lungs. walz macabre, our places.
Hey so, how do u get over DPS? It's been like nine months since I first watched it and sometimes I still tear up thinking abt Neil Perry
people who write their fics directly onto archive of our own site do not fear death by the way
in all seriousness, please always keep backups of your works, write them somewhere else (google doc is a good choice) then copy and paste onto ao3 when you're done, because ao3 itself does not automatically save your works for you, meaning you can lose all of your progress
the getaway driver & his gunman | theyre the duo you probably didnt want to run into on the road at night 🏍💨
she's in a constant state of fear
Logically I know that when you reach out I should deny you
I know I deserve better than you
But you still have your fingers wound in my hair
Holding my head to your chest
I know I’ll probably give in
I know I want to give in
But logically I shouldn’t
Before he slaughters the suitors... he needs to...apologize to his dear friend first. And he will tie the headband where it won't get tainted by blood ☺️
"If you use em dash in your works, it makes them look AI generated. No real human uses em dash."
Imaging thinking actual human writers are Not Real because they use... professional writing in their works.
Imagine thinking millions of people who have been using em dash way before AI becomes a thing are all robots.