Bunny

the toads

and what do you want? what is it you want today? i can offer you my pinkie i can get out my kidney

so what is it that you want? is my body not enough? would you like my mind? every thought i've ever had?

well what is it? would you like me to be gone? erased from your life? i can do that, of course

of course i can do that i can leave you with everything and i'll take nothing i'll find my home in the woods

i'll settle down with my toads i'll sleep in a log and i'll wonder to myself why'd this take me so long?

i eat ants, and flies these toads are so caring and i'm covered in warts they pop and i burst

into a million eggs filled with my pieces i'll be reborn a million times over and i won't make this mistake again

fellas is it gay to fondly reminisce of your partner while you're in mortal danger?

Dostoevsky's and Dazai's religious ideologies were like complete opposites and I was all for it when working on The Gospel.

I would've totally dug deeper into Dostoevsky but I haven't finished Crime and Punishment yet so everything on Dostoevsky's end is from my research, if any of you have read Crime and Punishment (or any of his works really), let me know if Google was correct.

So I'm thinking the reason why The Gospel is 130 whatever pages is because I'm digging in on an individual level, and then like I'm like also writing this as if someone doesn't know the entire plot of BSD. Well, ok, that was more necessary for like 15, Stormbringer, and the Dragon Head Incident just cause not everyone has read those, but I'm also using the manga for this analysis and I've noticed some differences between the anime and the manga so I'm coming across scenes that like I wasn't even aware of in the Prison Arc.

Also I try to differentiate when I'm talking about the real life author by calling the actual author by their last name out of respect and calling the anime character by their first name. So like with Fyodor I refer to the anime character as Fyodor but the author as Dostoevsky in my analysis. That's kinda hard to do with Dazai though so...you guys are just gonna have to figure out when I'm talking about real life Dazai and anime Dazai...sorry.

Anyway, quick update, enjoy these crumbs because I do have finals coming up so I won't be able to work as much as I want to on this. Progress will be slow and/or come to a complete halt in the next few weeks, but once I am free it is going to be WRITING time lemme tell you.

I'm about done with the Prison Arc, just covered Chuuya killing Dazai yesterday. Literally had to research the impact of bullet wounds in the shoulder thank you Chuuya. Then after that I actually plan on redoing the 15 arc completely just because my writing style really developed over the course of this analysis and I want to match that. Then onto proofreading and finalizing.

whenever i see a "dark academia" "the secret history aesthetic" post i want to cry because you've!!! fallen!!! for!!! richard's!!! trap!!!

DON'T ASPIRE TO BE THE LIKE THE GREEK CLASS. THAT'S LITERALLY THE WHOLE POINT OF THE BOOK, MOCKING IDEAS OF SOCIAL SUPERIORITY BASED ON 'LEVELS OF INTELLIGENCE'.

JUDY LITTERALLY HAS THE SAME THOUGHTS AS JULIAN, YET DOESN'T ACT SO HIGH AND MIGHTY ABOUT IT. be. more. like. judy.

richard. papen. is. an. UNRELIABLE. narrator.

rant over, have a nice day :)

𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱’𝔰 𝔟𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔴𝔬𝔫’𝔱 𝔞𝔩𝔴𝔞𝔶𝔰 𝔣𝔢𝔢𝔩 𝔩𝔦𝔨𝔢 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱’𝔰 𝔤𝔬𝔬𝔡 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔶𝔬𝔲

How are you going to be named ‘Bunny’ and be homophobic??

the funniest thing about donna tart saying she didn't want to write a female mc for the secret history because people would wonder if she's doing all this because she's in love with henry is that it made no difference whatsoever. the secret history mc is a man and still we're all wondering if he was in love with henry

Why do The Smiths have so many songs that are Bunny/Winterbunny coded

everyday i think about how henry could have put on a whole show of grief at bunny's funeral. he could have read a long-winded speech, hell, he could have even said "this poem was one of bunny's favourites" before he read it. that simple acknowledgement to let everyone at that funeral know he cared.

but he didn't. he read that poem, knowing full well it did not suit whatever 'aesthetic' he and julian had formulated, knowing that he'd be criticised for it. knowing that the only people who knew what it meant, were him, bunny, and the rest of the greek class.

i've seen some people have said that him smearing the dirt across his chest at the funeral was an 'act' of sorts to show how much he was grieving. but i don't think i could disagree more. henry was sick out of his mind at that funeral. i think the funeral wasn't just overwhelming for him mentally and physically, but also emotionally. he had to grieve once, then he had to grieve a second time, knowing that he killed his best friend.

everyday i think about it man. i love these freaks

“I am nothing in my soul if not obsessive” defines me. Without obsession, I experience profound emptiness.