The Mirror

My life has one mission, create the greatest warrior

Odysseus and Athena.

Kick him Fukuzawa...kick him...

my theory for what henry whispered to camilla is "kitten, i'll be honest. daddy's about to kill himself"

Betrayal

Dostoevsky's and Dazai's religious ideologies were like complete opposites and I was all for it when working on The Gospel.

I would've totally dug deeper into Dostoevsky but I haven't finished Crime and Punishment yet so everything on Dostoevsky's end is from my research, if any of you have read Crime and Punishment (or any of his works really), let me know if Google was correct.

So I'm thinking the reason why The Gospel is 130 whatever pages is because I'm digging in on an individual level, and then like I'm like also writing this as if someone doesn't know the entire plot of BSD. Well, ok, that was more necessary for like 15, Stormbringer, and the Dragon Head Incident just cause not everyone has read those, but I'm also using the manga for this analysis and I've noticed some differences between the anime and the manga so I'm coming across scenes that like I wasn't even aware of in the Prison Arc.

Also I try to differentiate when I'm talking about the real life author by calling the actual author by their last name out of respect and calling the anime character by their first name. So like with Fyodor I refer to the anime character as Fyodor but the author as Dostoevsky in my analysis. That's kinda hard to do with Dazai though so...you guys are just gonna have to figure out when I'm talking about real life Dazai and anime Dazai...sorry.

Anyway, quick update, enjoy these crumbs because I do have finals coming up so I won't be able to work as much as I want to on this. Progress will be slow and/or come to a complete halt in the next few weeks, but once I am free it is going to be WRITING time lemme tell you.

I'm about done with the Prison Arc, just covered Chuuya killing Dazai yesterday. Literally had to research the impact of bullet wounds in the shoulder thank you Chuuya. Then after that I actually plan on redoing the 15 arc completely just because my writing style really developed over the course of this analysis and I want to match that. Then onto proofreading and finalizing.

An existence like a bug

this line is so heartbreaking 😭😭

Sorry I moaned when you said you illegally download things, it's hot that you hate capitalism and like owning things

straight friend groups be like : "jock", "blond", "smart", "nerd", "quirky", "girl"

queer friendgroups be like: "nothing in my soul if not obsessive", "redistribution of matter", "cubitum eamus", "a kiss for your jailbird brother", "murdered", "heavily romantisised"

people who write their fics directly onto archive of our own site do not fear death by the way

in all seriousness, please always keep backups of your works, write them somewhere else (google doc is a good choice) then copy and paste onto ao3 when you're done, because ao3 itself does not automatically save your works for you, meaning you can lose all of your progress