& You Know What It Actually IS Lifechanging To Smile At Strangers & Say Please & Thank You & Goodmorning

i've always wanted to do this. To wake up and choose violence

thanks must be given to @archers-and-spies for helping me find the audio

Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

“you’re my best friend, now i’ve got no one to tell i’ve lost my best friend.”

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Saw this painting on my cruise ship and I couldn't help but think of the ABC crew. Enjolras in the red with Combferre and Courfeyac with him, obviously. Grantaire in the vest on the right (perhaps with Bahorel), Marius in blue to the left....

every night I think “wow this might be the night I go to bed early” and every time without fail I fuck it up

Thinking about the fact that both Cosette and Eponine are perfect portrayals of female adolescence, both shown in two different yet incredibly accurate ways, but despite that they both are referred to and treated like woman

I think there was even a line about Eponine how she was the type who just mostly skipped the stage of being a child

And I know a part of it is because the term "adolescent" wasn't there yet or barely just had been invented and societal norms were different but still

Two girls being so deeply just girls, just typical teen girls and yet viewed as women, the implications of their characters- AND THE FACT THAT JEAN VALJEAN IS THE ONLY ONE WHO SEES AND TREATS COSETTE AS A KID/TEEN???

And don't even get me on the parallels they are to each other's

GODDAMN I was not prepared to get so emotional over them when starting the brick

how is it almost 2025 i didn’t even get a chance to exhale the breath i took in 2024 yet

staying over at your parents is like. wow I’ve spent some of the worst times of my life here feeling trapped and alone. I’m so glad I don’t live here anymore. I’m so sad I’ll never live in the same house as my siblings ever again. I miss being a child. I miss living with my family. or maybe I miss the concept of a happy family. the idea of something I never truly had. I’ve cried in this bed so many times. things have changed so much. I feel the ghosts of my younger selves in this room still. it’s good to be home.

Finished a new piece. I think it speaks to my state of mind. Notice the fine details. :)