I Feel Like People Pressured Shawn To Address His Sexuality Again And He Didn't Want To Address It Really

this was the essence of cool girl summer culture at one point

Pretty little liars ♡

I really wish i could be as chill and fun when discussing jongin but the reality is the origins of my kpop journey never called for that. I only liked eggsos music for a very short period of my life and once I heard the demo tracks that ended. For some reason knowing they didnt make their hits or even contribute past one line or two just makes me feel icky. I never liked the others past the bullying years of 2012 to 2016. I also cut off kji when I felt like he was also very inauthentic. I returned out of curiosity for my research of the entertainment industry. Most artists in korea act like they are in some hybrid between the military and a gang. I just cant take it seriously. Its a hybrid between american hollywood and a dictatorship. The industry still rubs me the wrong way as apparently child protection laws and human rights in south korea are a suggestion.

In the end I comment on jongin 1 because i still do see some ...potential is the wrong word ...life maybe. He seems to have more of a soul than most in the industry. So I still check for him. Yet I wont lie or be fake. His recent projects have been god awful. Sm has ran him into the ground and dont seem like they will be stopping anytime soon. He is the most obvious case of "industry mistreatment programming" that I have ever seen. I still cringe at times seeing the toll the industry has taken on him.

I do however understand many fans are either very quiet because they just want to enjoy and relax. And others want community and friendship.

I get it. That was never my intention. I have a lot of perspectives on jongin and his career and I feel like sometimes I should keep them to myself..but then other times I feel like thats very unfair.

Online their are people that write very objectifying, dirty vile things about him but that is okay cause they are being quirky...

But if you talk about sprituality, souls, diets, genetics, chi magic, face yoga, spritual contracts ect or connecting things to the occult thats too far.

No its not. The lies are too far.

I just don't vibe with the lies anymore. And what is going on all over the internet about him the group, kpop and the entire entertainment industry is a lie.

So in my opinion as long as I have evidence for what Im saying anybody can choose whether or not they want to read or believe what Im saying. But the dumb fake arguements about literally nothing. Its a distraction. They plan things out for people to argue over so nobody every holds the company or artists or infrastructure accounatble. I cant just waste time like that anymore. I will write and make content from my perspective. Because there is nothing wrong with the truth. 99 percent of whats on the net about exo and jongin is a lie. I just cant anymore. They really take advantage of the language gap. So many people literally lying about things. Almost nothing they say is true.

I think its only fair to be transparent. I thought about creating another blog to post that stuff on but again that would just be more secrecy. There is no point. But I understand most people dont like that so at this point its just best I be honest. I like being chill but with kpop my conspiracy and investigative journalism side cant rest. I will post things of that nature from now on.

Its not all completely serious some things are simply opinions and research but those things help understand the larger picture.

eco

Nature

people just realizing maybe capitalism and it's girlies are bad because we all love reality tv and gadgets and such but I'm not even thirty not even halfway but my gm worked on a mini plantation........................so maybe america was gasp built off of slavery, pillaging, and all the other bad things. So being surprised the big USA is still peddling..like that's not how this country started off is wild. but wait our fave girlies are modeling for clothing brands they look so good... but wait those amazing were started by gasp terrible people who got rich of the transatlantic slave trade and after they got rich off of said slave trade the gov gave them millions possibly billions in compensation then they made companies and brands slaves and indentured servants worked at cough cough and they even got black rappers to push brands like gucci in the mainstream when there ancestors were once property legally and slaves were branded by the masters' last name and now you have black boys tattooing themselves with rich people's last name on there bodies and nobody cares or even seems to remember the recent past on which all that surrounds us was propagated off of

That after slavery ended they rushed former slaves and indentured servants to work in sweat shops some of which have been rebranded. renamed and still exist to this very day all over the world but that outfit is so cute and sparkly sparkly.....once we get some more celeb distractions everyone is gonna forget all of these facts how circuses and bread

all to control

the masses and maybe all those crazy conspiracy theorist everyone laughs at when things are good no longer wanna hear it when everybody's crying about a war or mistreatment cause that's literally all we talk about, when people are fighting over their fave celeb's drama. *THIS IMPORTANT THING IS HAPPENING IN THE WORLD PRODUCT PLACEMENT PRODUCT PLACEMENT ANOTHER IMPORTANT THING*. Websites are a sort of mind control basically and most people are in a deep state of unconciousness regarding awareness. Its all fake all of it even what you think is real the time to talk about important things and boycott isn't after they have prepared for said boycott and gotten loans from the bank in preparation for them looking bad in the media it's at random using your brain and mindfully no longer investing time and energy into media blitzkrieg garbage. Because they will do whatever whenever to harvest energy all day everyday, nothing is sacred. Though humans generally are worse the more power they have it's all relative really.

But it's just to say sometimes I think it's a bit contrive to even say this because people in their daily life will be terrible in their field of control and other things are terrible to people within their field of control it is what it is I guess.

all these retweets and not a single person wondered what was wrong with him.

Jongin losing his balance from shaking his head too much.

books to read

why imo jongin is a mom but not a 'mother'

months after watching he's expecting on netflix and becoming aware of the plethora of male's being pregnant movies that exist and discovering in it's genesis mpreg was meant to be a analysis on gender differences and what it would be like if women didn't have to worry about pregnancy and men did I'm wondering why 99.9 percent of mpreg don't have women in it, like at all. Like thats the main point gender analysis but many mpregs only have one gender.

Its a whole new year and going through the jongin ff tag im always like maybe something will surprise me but its all the segregation, straight fics have super serious masculine and yaoi has versatility but there's like no mention of women like not even a neighbour and the feminist in me is like

But I do like emotional vulnerable kji in fics cause it feels more real, but when the author slides in a comment about women making them seem like the plague I just can't ignore it like I used to when I was 12. Cause like why. Last year a yaoi fic i read I was like wow so well written but then the author made two derogatory comments about women for like no reason. I felt super weird about that cause like what was the reason

I was more intelligent next time I was determined find a writer who could write female characters into a fic that didn't have females as the main love interest. I believed in humanity.

Found one but everyone in the comment kept complaining that there were too many women and too much character development.

Then there's the issue of despite nearly every kpop ff taking place in america there's only korean characters and no discussion of like any wider array of topics like ever. Like stuff do be happening in america. I just feel like fanfics fell off when people stopped writing like they were writing real people on a real planet. It may be a side effect that kpop became so closed off and cult like over the years. Idols being kept in boxes only interacting with select groups of people. It made fans not want to even think of idols in real life situations. I truly believe if exo was on tmz in some mess some people actually might pass out. Sm kept them in a bubble. Most of kpop is in a bubble. It makes the fans more emotionally connected but also they seriously don't think they have autonomy. Like fans are okay with idol interactions but if somebody saw an idol dancing in a club with somebody w video evidence like the facade would be shattered. Nobody would say it but many would not like that person anymore. I think its expressed in the ff. Like in reality kai's very feminine, he is there's nothing wrong with that. He has been since childhood. But depending on who he is in a fan's perception. Whether he's the dominant part of a ship or in a het context or a cute tw!nk like there's always authenticity missing when people write him. Like whole parts of his character are missing.

Cause he is feminine but also tends to act more feminine when around women which is psychologically interesting to me. Anyway I guess what I'm getting at is like why has no one written a he's expecting au for him?

Not in a pushy way just in a pondering way.

Like lmao watch andante he was basically as omega as you can get

the girlfriend character took the reigns and the entire show completely flipped gender norms on its head. But I've seen many say they didn't like the show simply because he was with a girl and by proxy that meant it was cliche and played out not even bothering to watch the entire show. (Its not even that the girlfriend was masculine he just let her take the lead)

Which is an insult to kji because all his characters were unique and complex he never wanted to play just a generic lead which is why he turned down so many roles. I firmly believe he could of been in many shows and even films but he wanted to choose roles he felt built up the image and mythos of kai. He never wanted to do variety for that reason.

In miracle we met he played an angel but not only that but also a sort of romantic interest to an older non traditional female lead character. Sadly because of traditional views the relationship wasn't looked at as closely as it would have been if the actress was younger and closer to the beauty standards. If a show isn't pushing or hitting people over the head with something people simply ignore it.

If it's not aesthetic enough people simply overlook what is being shown to them.

Again a big part of this is the compartmentalized thinking of society. People tend to stay in the realm of what the media pushes and is deemed acceptable.

Lastly in spring has come many interesting topics where explored, including typical non traditional gender roles, age difference, money in relation to love, and sadly many either avoided the show because of it being het and not bl or disliked it because there wasn't a kissing scene.

Kji may not speak a lot about his personal life and preferences but I believe he chooses to show it instead by meticulously immersing himself in the projects he is apart of.

Its like its been such a long time since debuted I feel like fics concerning him could be like a wee bit more complex.

he used to be so talkative and expressive. I believe a part of him becoming introverted was because sm pushed him into being a blank canvas for the public. Despite publicly dating twice he consistently plays like he has no experience with anything and is always careful to talk in terms of metaphors concerning women. Exo l being his girlfriend publicly is like so

cause back in the day fans would have been like lmao how cringe now its like they are all aboard. The parasocialism is flourishing. But it means nobody wants him to act or date or do anything interesting that would give him you know inspo for the albums they love so much. Personally as a former directioner I feel like in terms of high art, dating models, a kardashian or a thespian works best.

Not even talking just girls even at gucci events he sticks by staff he doesn't go out and mingle w male models despite a quick chat or photos. Like when he went back to korea and wrote exo l a note basically saying how he was the only korean and didnt talk to anyone. He can speak english its just not his image to hang around foreigners. its really sad honestly and no I don't think its just cause he is introverted I believe its partially out of fear. Kfans would drop him if he hung out with a different racial group simply because its something they don't expect from him. Members of black pink can do it but their fans don't see them as a bubble chia pet. Boy band fans want subordination in all ways or else they drop members. A group of ppl on twitter said ksoo wanted western validation and implied he didn't want to be korean cause he talked about camila cabello and justin beiber and someone said baekhyun was shameful for liking chris brown

Which is literally insane they expect them to be in a bubble a prepubescent fanservice never talk about women or men who date women. Its ridiculous. I just miss when kji could have his own personality and image but over the years the fan view began to restrict his self expression. Its only shown in his albums but then he can't talk about it.

Tbh if he can get back into acting idc what ff authors write. Everytime exo needs to go viral he has to wear his back tf out arching it like that. Yoga can only help so much. Post military idk how much more he can take. I think he could do sci fi pretty well, I can see him in an alice and borderland type show. Or the weird types of jdramas. Honestly I always thought he'd go to america eventually sm just had to be smart about doing it. Idk if harry can get in a marvel movie I truly believe anything is possible. I saw that policeman movie poor baby can't act to save his life.

Lmao all this cause I was mad people only wrote him intersex in the context of yaoi. Like has nobody watched cw, freeform,? Good trouble. Maybe he's a single pre law student trying to make it in the big city, accidentally gets pregnant then gives the baby up to a wealthy couple only to change his mind and raise the kid on his own with his quirky roomates. Like not everything has to be a romance. Jongin is a strong independent blaq ish woman who does not need a man. He's proved this countless times. Everything he does thats effeminate on twitter is meow meow, kitten, malewife. Like where was the neocapitalist feminism we were all indoctrinated under, where's the great mother worship, where is the respect for the divine feminine. Its all become a joke I fear. I have no proper reasoning but I blame tyler perry. After Madea's family reunion all female led movies turned into domestic violence themed messes. But on that note like kji does kinda look like jlo in enough or gives off the same mama bear energy. I think an enough au could work...imma just stop here cause im tired and ill start on my multitude of late night brain theories of how sm could of had exo on shake it up and kai and rocky could of had a dance battle.....

SM baddies edition pt 1

In honor of the baddies franchise. Taking place in an alternative universe where Zeus Network is like all powerful and decides to spread out to Korea.