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“I’ve felt worse.”

That was one of the most powerful lines I have ever heard. Lapis fighting through her PTSD to come help the only people she has ever cared about is absolutely wonderful. Such an emotionally broken character being able to stand up and shine where others couldn’t. She is the embodiment of a permanently damaged character. No amount of friends or love will take away the pain and despair she feels. To me, she represents the real struggle of chronic mental illness. Her showing she can’t just “get over it”. It is something that can never and will never go away. And she has people who love and support her anyway.

Even the people who hate her are part of her representation. Some get frustrated and mad that she still goes through her episodes of depression and PTSD. They want her to just get better. That she should be over it by now. People who are mentally ill get this all the time. Parents, friends, lovers. They think that it’s about fixing us. That a date, or a vacation, or some relaxing activity will just get rid of it. They often feel personally attacked when it doesn’t work. They often first feel bad that they couldn’t help, but then angry because they think we aren’t trying. They make it about how /our/ mental illness makes /them/ feel.

Of course, mental illness is not an excuse to be a toxic and abusive person. We have to take responsibility for our own actions too. But understand that mental illness is about the person going through it, not others. That it may never go away and if you love that person, that’s part of the package. Don’t get upset when your attempt to “fix” them fails.

Lapis and her defectors represent the real struggle millions of mentally ill people to through.

Some oooold stuff from Same Old World. This was my first time drawing Lapis, so it was pretty daunting. I ended up liking how the episode came out, though, thanks to everyone else’s amazing work down the line. 

In this first shot of Lapis I really wanted to capture how Steven’s presence takes her out of her misery, so I got into posing out that mental transition, also drawing her wings and hair *_* I love Steven’s moments with the Homeworld gems… I think there is something very fragile, exciting and sweet about his relationships with these characters that very recently turned a new leaf.

Lapis and Peridot reveal their inner spirits

Bonus sketch!

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Old Lapis Lazuli doodle back in 2018! 🩵