Thinking About The Fact That My Miraak Is A Older Trans Man With A Chubby Body Instead Of Being, Thinking

Thinking about the fact that my Miraak is a older trans man with a chubby body instead of being, thinking about the fact hes a queer man who's lived past his fifties.

Thinking about the fact he's severely malnourished when he first gets out of apocrypha to symbolize he's truly left with nothing, he can barley stomach anything that isn't watered down broth but as the story goes on- he gains more weight and is able to share food with the Dragonborn's company without the fear of getting sick.

Thinking about my Miraak who struggles with chronic pain after getting impaled by herma mora, thinking about Miraak being disabled and having to use a cane because years of being in apocrypha suddenly being thrown back into mortality.

Thinking about the fact he was so traumatized by the dragon cult and herma mora, the idea of worshipping anyone makes him nauseous and yet he heals and wants to worship the last dragonborn because he believes they deserve to be worshipped.

Thinking about the dragonborns being seen as a bad omen with the return of the dragons, being seen as the harbinger of the end.

Thinking about the fact that he's autistic and being touched physically hurts him because it's so overwhelming and unfamiliar and yet he allows that one person to touch him without needing to clarify anything. Thinking about him being so touch repulsed but so touch starved as a result.

Thinking about Miraak becoming human, so many believing that he was stripped of humanity and he ends up being the one who shows the most humanity towards the last dragonborn because of that mutual connection and understanding.

Thinking about my Miraak and my dragonborn seeing the worst monstrosites of mankind during a time of war and yet they are the only ones who are truly human despite their nature, despite them being a figure dressed in rage and tragedy.

Thinking about Miraak not wanting the last dragonborn to martyr themselves for nothing, after witnessing the worst of humanity he truly did not believe that they were worthy of being saved and thus the reason he turned away from his destiny to begin with.