“I Feel Like I Am So Far Behind In Life That I Will Never Catch Up. Everyone Is Doing So Many Things

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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7 months ago

SOTE spoilers:

with all the new lore about Marika and her people, Maliketh becomes even more of kicked puppy.

Sure, he can probably go berserk at any moment if the Fingers want him too, but he is also the only thing in all existence that loves Marika unconditionally. Enough to be entrusted with the Rune of Death and bear eons of mindbreaking hunger and fight to the last for her Order.

I wonder how she felt about her half-brother, and when exactly he came into the picture. If we assume you're born an Empyrean, he might very well be the only survivor of the village besides Marika/Radagon. Maliketh was a shadowbound beast given to his Empyrean. Marika's sole need of her shadow was a vessel to lock away Destined Death. Even then, she betrayed him. -Remembrance of the Black Blade

BRO

No matter what potential backstory I come up with for Maliketh, it just makes the whole thing even more sad. It's entirely possible that he grew up with Marika in the same way that Blaidd did with Ranni.

On the other hand, there's a theory I heard awhile ago (I think it was from smoughtown on youtube) speculating that Maliketh was his own person before he was "tailored" to fit the designs of the fingers. Specifically, he was a beastman priest named Gurranq. According to this theory, Gurranq isn't an alias that Maliketh is using -- instead, Maliketh's memory is deteriorating and he's reverting to his old identity. When he loses control and attacks the tarnished, he's reverting even further to the bestial state he inhabited before the dragons uplifted his race. When he says "I will not forget again," he means that literally.

There's a lot of fanfic potential in exploring how Gurranq could have met Marika, how much of their bond was due to the fingers' compulsion and how much was of their own free will, exactly how much of his old life Maliketh remembers, etc. Is he the reason she, out of all her people, was the sole survivor? Barring direct divine intervention by the Greater Will, I'd say if it wasn't the Mimic Veil that saved her it had to be Gurranq/Maliketh. For how long was he her only friend, or the closest thing she had to one? When did she stop seeing him as a brother, a friend, or a protector and start seeing him as a tool?

I'm tempted to add a second chapter to A Powerless Upstart, a Gnawing Curse where perfectly normal beast-clergyman Gurranq is out doing traveling friar things when he feels an inexplicable urge to take a detour down a particular stretch of backroad. Imagine him finding a kid curled up and bleeding in a ditch with more wounds than skin. Imagine him trying to carry her out for a proper burial and realizing she's still breathing. Imagine him sitting with her and doing what little he can to help, despite the fact that she surely won't last more than a few days. Imagine her clinging on to life with supernatural vitality, refusing to die until at last she regains consciousness. Imagine Gurranq seeing her eyes go dull when he offers to take her back to her family. Imagine him realizing, "Oh, this is my kid now," without ever knowing if the choice was really his.

9 months ago

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers as Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Asra:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Lucio:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Portia:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Muriel:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Nadia:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Julian:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

The Devil:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Valdemar:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Vulgora:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Volta:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Vlastomil:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online

Valerius:

The Arcana Main 6 + Courtiers As Christmas Tree Pics I Found Online
2 years ago

Appreciation post

For Signora's giant fucking delicious bandonker honker mommy milker massive tits.

If I'm ever put on death row that's how I wanna go out: smothered by them boobies. Burried in scary Harbinger woman chest. I swear to God she is so sexy she can never be blamed for any wrongdoings because she does not have flaws therefore she is a goddess and does not fall under the binds of morals our feeble mortal minds brought forth to keep us from slaughtering each other like animals.

Signora's tiddies could create world peace, solve world hunger or destroy the earth entirely purely with her will.

And she'd have every fucking right to do so.

Amen.

Appreciation Post
3 years ago

Do you think that Tasya redemption arc > Lucio redemption arc?

Apples and oranges, dear anon, they're a bit hard to compare.

Lucio had an entire route dedicated to him becoming a better person and trying to finally do good, as well as about four other routes to be a villain. Tasya's only been in the end of Portia's. We've seen a lot of Lucio doing shitty things in comparison, which automatically makes his redemption harder.

I've mentioned it before, but Lucio's main flaw is his ignorance to consequences, so until he becomes aligned with the Devil in certain routes, he rarely acts with intentional malice but when he truly becomes a villain, he can't come back from it. However, this also means when the MC makes him confront the way he's hurt people, he knows he needs to change, even if he finds it difficult and he won't be forgiven for all his actions.

Tasya on the other hand is motivated by loss and is very calculated in her actions. She knows exactly what she's doing and how it hurts other people but she justifies it by saying that she'll fix it all after she gets her daughter back. She poses more of a danger because she's tactical where Lucio isn't and isn't a pawn for larger evil in the same way, however because she knows exactly how and why she's doing what she does, her redemption is simpler. If her plan or motivation is revealed to be flawed, she'll understand that and step back to fix things.

Tasya and Lucio show the difference between redeeming an antagonist vs redeeming a protagonist. For better and worse, we've spent a lot more time with Lucio to see his good and his bad. His bad lies in his personality while Tasya's comes from her situation. Situations take much less time and energy to change and the type of redemption you prefer will depend on the types of stories and characters you like.

5 years ago

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3 years ago

Lucio himself is a fascinating character to study, but people’s reactions to him is equally as interesting.

Specifically whether or not someone believes he has the right to be redeemed, and consequently if the horrible things that have happened to him are worthy of sympathy or not because he is who they happened to.

2 years ago
This Is How I Feel With The Harbingers, Horror Movies, And Games

This is how I feel with the harbingers, horror movies, and games

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